Weeks 31 & 32

May 07, 2012

Combining weeks because the last one has been a bit of a blur.  On April 28th, my best friend's Mom passed away in her sleep unexpectedly.  She lives about an hour and a half away, so my husband and I hit the road early that morning and spent the night there, helping them get the house cleaned up and prepare for family to come in from out of town, and field some of the many guests that seemed to never stop coming...not to mention all the food they brought!  It's a weird place to be, sitting in a kitchen full of people comforting themselves with food, and not feeling hungry and knowing that I just can't give into the head hunger urge to binge.  I must admit, I did have some feelings of jealousy, but I was good.  In fact, from that Saturday until Thursday, I lost 7 lbs, and since then have lost an additional 3 lbs.  Not much formal exercise, but we walked a lot to get out of the house and get some quiet time, and did a lot of cleaning and hauling furniture and food and such.  It's back to the gym today after spending nearly the entire week at their house.  The desire to stay out there longer has been a hard one to fight, but I know (and my bestie is awesome, because she knows, too) that I need to get back on my eating and gym schedule.  That hefty weight loss I'm sure included some muscle loss, and I am positive that my protein levels were well below what they should be.  I just had no desire to eat, and was busy.  I plan to go back out one night this week though.  

I see my surgeon for my belated 6 month follow-up tomorrow.  It's late because of all the time I spent in and out of his office and the hospital for the first 6 weeks after surgery.  I'm a little anxious about what he may say.  I have seen a lot of people who thought they were doing good go in for their further out appointments and be crushed by what their surgeon had to say.  I'm down 120 lbs in 7 1/2 months, so I don't think that's bad.  I know people who have lost more in the same amount of time, but honestly more people I know have lost less.  I feel like I really have made an effort and worked hard these last  7 1/2 months, I still track my food, get to the gym, take my vitamins...I guess I get mad mostly about the first 6 weeks that were basically lost to me, how much further I could be.  Then...I think about the fact that I'm sitting here wearing a 1X skirt.  Last year, it was a 5X.  My best friend (who has also lost a lot of weight since having a baby) handed down a few things to me...uhm, HELLO! It's a 16 1/2, whatever that is.  It goes on.  It's not flattering.  But it will be!  It was one of my favorite skirts of hers.  I'm loving having all these options, I can't wait to go to the thrift store now that they'll actually have more than a couple things in my size.  I have a closet full of long, flowy hippy skirts...bring on the summer!

Gina :~)

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