So I final feel somewhat normal...

Sep 17, 2010

This week has been one HELL of a week. Tuesday I hurt my pouch. I had taken my vitmains in the morning and I am not sure if one of them twisted the wrong way or what... but when I went to drink my protein shake I started to feel overfull... which doesn't happen normally. All day long, every single thing I ate would fill me in about 2 bites. It felt like something was stuck. Weds came and I didn't have that full feeling anymore, but I felt pain! Everything I ate and drank hurt! It felt like my pouch was spasming really bad. I posted something on here and on one of the yahoo! groups I am a member of and wan't getting much help. I only got 2 responses and one of them was for me to call my doctor. If the full feeling continued, I would have. It hurt like I was binge eating every meal. One other person posted that I should try 24 hours of liquids only. So I did. From Weds night until Friday morning, I did nothing but drink protein shakes, crystal light, water and coffee. It still hurt to drink, but it started hurting less and less. By today, I was able to eat and drink with minimal pain. My stomach wasn't spasming as much and I felt a little better. I still get little pang of pain now and then, especially when I drink. I hope I didn't do any damage. There was no brusing or blood so I think I am ok. I have an appointment with Dr. Valin on Weds, so I will talk to him about it then.
On a happier note, I am over 100 pounds down... and 24 hours of fluids only helped that along.. lol Today I was able to wear a size 20 for the first time in over 2 decades!!! AND I wore a size 1X shirt!!! Everyone kept telling me I looked good! I was amazed!! I still don't see the "looking good" part, but something tells me I am not an impartial judge.
Another happier note is my hair is groowing back nicely... my scalp looks like a little fuzz ball with a few longer hairs here and there. Still not happy with it, but happy it's groowing back, that's for damned sure!!!
My biggest fears right now is the fact that I am past the six month mark. I am so scared that my weight oss is going to slow to a stop before I get where I want to be. I am trying very hard to succeed in this. I watch my carbs, tho I do cheat oon occasion, but I don't let it get out of hand. I take in my protein and fluids and I am at the gym so much I am thinking of having them rename it in my honor.Club Christina sounds good.. I love the progress I made and I know that when my body says it's time to sloow down, it will. I am just not wanting that time to be anytime soon. I am not far enuf yet. Like I said in previous posts, if I stop loosing weight now, so be it. I am still happy with how far i've come, but that doesn't mean I WANT to stop. I feel so good right now because of how well it's going and I can't wait to see how far I can go! I am hoping to be one of those people who has to figure out how to stopo losing weight because they are losing so much! What can I say, if I wanna add problems to my life, it might as well be one that I can honestly say I've never had before!!
Well, on that note, I shall be going. I just got back from the gym and need to make a shake and a cup of coffee so I can take my night-time vits. I hope you're all doing well and I'm praying for you all!!! And that's not just becuse you're my friends either... tho that is a good reason to pray for your souls ;)
Anyway, off I go...
Love ya!
-CC

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