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Back to looking into WLS
Jul 27, 2017
I've been on a bit of a roller coaster the past few years.
I started my WLS journey at OSU (wonderful facility) and ended up losing over a 100 pounds. I took a year's worth of weekly diet, fitness, and behavioral classes. I decided against surgery at that time, and wanted to see how much I could lose on my own.
A year after getting down to 340, I was back up to 440 pounds. I couldn't believe it. I went back to OSU and tried to do another program, but I just couldn't lose any weight. I actually gained weight while trying to get back on track. Then I tried Weight Watchers and that was really just embarassing.
I had been seeing a therapist the entire time, but not much was improving. I felt terrible about myself, about my body, about gaining it all back.
I decided to try and find a new therapist. When I called a therapist I was interested in seeing, she reccommended I reach out to The Center For Balanced Living (Eating Disorder Clinic) to talk about my binge eating and weight issues. So I went there and was diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder (BED). They recommended an 8 week Intensive Outpatient Program. I attended that, 4 days a week for 8 weeks. I did a lot of hard work and met with therapists and dieticians the whole time.
I feel better about myself as a person, and feel I have grown a lot in understanding my relationship with food. I'm trying to lose the weight in a healthy way, but I still feel like I am battling my biology.
I went to the gynecologist and she reccommended I look into bariatirc surgery again. So I started thinking about it again.
I read some studies regarding how metabolism changes after a life of dieting and major weight loss. It was disheartening, but it made sense... why losing it the second time is SO MUCH HARDER than the first time.
I need to lose 185 lbs to be in the obese category. Right now I am Super Morbidly Obese with a BMI of 61.
I'm still seeing a therapist weekly and a dietician every 3 weeks. I go to a meal group Tuesday nights and a bing eating support group every other week. I want this dedication and motivation to end in real weight loss. I told my therapist I was thinking about WLS and she seemed hesitant. I have truly never felt more prepared, though. I'm really working on the emotional part, and feel like I am ready to make this change. I don't know what coworkers, friends, or family will say. But I have to do this for ME
