Dang July is a tricky month

Aug 26, 2014

I totally skipped July.. Yikes.  I have lost 85 pounds as of today.  I want to hit 100# by my 6 month and i am keeping that as my goal but 15 pounds in less than a month may not be reachable but i am going to try like the winds in hades to get there.  Sometimes i feel like reading these boards are like being stuck in Groundhog Day, everyone is stuck on peat and repeat. But other times i understand that some words just fit and have to be said over and over.  It is true..i feel so different.. like my old self (almost). I do not fear stairs, or curb or wind or life anymore.  You are scared of falling off everything when you weigh 350 pounds.  i use to watch my grandmother and how she analyzed every piece of a room like a crime scene because of her fears.  She may not be able to get up off a couch or may have to climb stairs and i would think.. how dang strange but now i understand.  Weight is paralyzing. 

I have moments where I think, "why couldn't I do this on my own?" Then I remind myself that I AM DOING THIS ON MY OWN.  RNY is not a free pass to weight loss... the number of people that struggle and make bad decisions and stall and struggle some more are the same as in the non WLS world.  

Thank you for all your posts, complaints, whining, bitching and all around honesty on these boards because through a lot of them i live vicariously.

Fall is coming... yeah!

Scarlette

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