Ms S.
3 Year Surgiversary coming up-stay tuned for 'afters' on 03.13!
Mar 10, 2011
Just a quick check in cuz I haven't been on. Realized the date is coming up soon and posted some befores I found...I'm excited about posting my afters but I wanna wait til the 13th to give myself a three year Wow! moment.
What a difference a day makes huh? That day, March 13, 2008 was the day that changed my life. I hardly recognize the old me but I am still her inside in many ways. The new me takes a whole lot less BS from others whereas the old me took so much abuse. I don't truly know why but I believe it's more than just self esteem. Maybe more a sense of worth after all those years of being told how worthless I was.
I would like to move forward more though- particularly in the area of self image. I recall saying how much I wanted to be a hot mom pre op but these days, I rarely am. When I'm complimented, I blow it off. When I see apparel I like, I tell myself I should spend the money on other things. I want to have plastics but can't bring myself to spend the money ON myself. I don't know. I'm working on it. I still want to be a hot mom, I just have to DO it I suppose.
Anywhoo, I'm still holding steady within the 143-146 range unless I'm sick as stated in my previous post but I have figured it's just because I don't even try to eat when I feel ill - mostly fluids so I drink Pedialyte. Yes: the children's electrolyte replacement. Better than Gatorade when you need to get your fluids up in my opinion.
Otherwise, I have to get my iron levels up cuz I've had two blood transfusions within the past year. I was anemic before this surgery, in fact, in recovery from the surgery required blood then as well. I have discovered the joy of Trim Nutrition Injectable B-12 and though I hate needles, I discovered that the hardest part is the initial stick. It doesn't actually hurt but for some reason my brain panics at the thought of sticking the needle in my skin but once that part is over, I can inject w/no problems. I see they also have a D3 injectable and am thinking I might get that to save the energy of pill popping but it's a bit expensive.
It's late and I really don't have much to say. Just wanted to check in and will see ya on the 13th...
Luv Sharon
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What a difference a day makes huh? That day, March 13, 2008 was the day that changed my life. I hardly recognize the old me but I am still her inside in many ways. The new me takes a whole lot less BS from others whereas the old me took so much abuse. I don't truly know why but I believe it's more than just self esteem. Maybe more a sense of worth after all those years of being told how worthless I was.
I would like to move forward more though- particularly in the area of self image. I recall saying how much I wanted to be a hot mom pre op but these days, I rarely am. When I'm complimented, I blow it off. When I see apparel I like, I tell myself I should spend the money on other things. I want to have plastics but can't bring myself to spend the money ON myself. I don't know. I'm working on it. I still want to be a hot mom, I just have to DO it I suppose.
Anywhoo, I'm still holding steady within the 143-146 range unless I'm sick as stated in my previous post but I have figured it's just because I don't even try to eat when I feel ill - mostly fluids so I drink Pedialyte. Yes: the children's electrolyte replacement. Better than Gatorade when you need to get your fluids up in my opinion.
Otherwise, I have to get my iron levels up cuz I've had two blood transfusions within the past year. I was anemic before this surgery, in fact, in recovery from the surgery required blood then as well. I have discovered the joy of Trim Nutrition Injectable B-12 and though I hate needles, I discovered that the hardest part is the initial stick. It doesn't actually hurt but for some reason my brain panics at the thought of sticking the needle in my skin but once that part is over, I can inject w/no problems. I see they also have a D3 injectable and am thinking I might get that to save the energy of pill popping but it's a bit expensive.
It's late and I really don't have much to say. Just wanted to check in and will see ya on the 13th...
Luv Sharon
September 10. 2010
Sep 10, 2010
Holding steady at 143-146 depending on whether it's that time of the month. Got super sick at one point and went down to 135 and felt 'frail'... I don't think I look good that small - prolly cuz I've been so big so long. It's funny cuz I look at old pics of myself and still see myself at that person realizing that my body has changed but I really am still her.
I still feel funny going shopping - I have 2 pair of jeans that are size 8 petite, a couple of medium tops and Tshirts. Everything is baggy on me but I can't wrap my mind around wearing a size 6 petite or small yet. I see the clothes I always said I would buy and can't bring myself to buy them. My mom and ex husband have bought me small clothes and when I see them, my first thought is "I can't fit that". Then when I put them on, I'm stunned! Got some shorts to go swimming in and thought they were a medium and when I saw they were a small, wanted to take them back. My daughter tallked me in to putting them on and lo & behold, they fit, with a little room!
I think if I had all this extra flesh removed I'd be in a size 4 (or less) but that's not gonna happen for awhile seeing as how I'm now unemployed and living off my student loans and have no insurance. My health is okay but could be better. I take my
vit's, eat my protein but STILL don't exercise a lick unless you count the walking I do on campus.
I'll have to update my pics cuz I'm smaller now than I am in the most recent pics I posted. Those pics were at the beginning of last summer but I'm smaller than I was then. I'll do that sooner or later...Okay, sooner than later...
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I still feel funny going shopping - I have 2 pair of jeans that are size 8 petite, a couple of medium tops and Tshirts. Everything is baggy on me but I can't wrap my mind around wearing a size 6 petite or small yet. I see the clothes I always said I would buy and can't bring myself to buy them. My mom and ex husband have bought me small clothes and when I see them, my first thought is "I can't fit that". Then when I put them on, I'm stunned! Got some shorts to go swimming in and thought they were a medium and when I saw they were a small, wanted to take them back. My daughter tallked me in to putting them on and lo & behold, they fit, with a little room!
I think if I had all this extra flesh removed I'd be in a size 4 (or less) but that's not gonna happen for awhile seeing as how I'm now unemployed and living off my student loans and have no insurance. My health is okay but could be better. I take my
vit's, eat my protein but STILL don't exercise a lick unless you count the walking I do on campus.
I'll have to update my pics cuz I'm smaller now than I am in the most recent pics I posted. Those pics were at the beginning of last summer but I'm smaller than I was then. I'll do that sooner or later...Okay, sooner than later...
Long time no post; just checking in
Nov 04, 2009
149lbs people! I just was looking back at my old profile and looking at the scale and laughing at the fact that even my size 10 (can you believe it- a 10?) jeans are getting too big on me. My skin is sagging all over the place but for some reason, I don't REALLY mind. I dreamed of being a normal size for so long that even when I am naked in the mirror, I no longer cry, neither at my size nor my appearance.
I feel well but I absolutely have to take my vitamins and supps or I truly do feel drained. It's funny how those little pills and drops can make such a huge difference in the way I feel. I generally do not have an appetite but when I want to eat, I can eat pretty much what I want. I am still losing weight - slowly, but still losing. I was looking into plastics but now, I just wanna wait a little while longer. Financially, I could do it early to mid 2010 but I really just wanna wait at this point. I'm not sure where my body is going to settle down but I am making absolutely no effort to lose at this point, it just happens.
I am kinda hoping to get to 125 just to see what I would look like because that was always what was supposed to be my "ideal". In all honestly, it would probably feel too small to me and I feel bony already although I know I'm not. I just wonder if I'll look and feel better than I do already. Curious more than anything. I figure after plastics, they'll pull a good 12-15 lbs of flesh off my body so I'll likely be close to that weight post plastics anyway. If I get to 125 pre plastics though, I am concerned I would look 'frail'.
It's so funny to be able to literally pull up your butt like you pull up your pants. It's funny to not worry about medical personnel finding the veins in your hands and arms because they are clearly visible now. It's weird to have a itch and be able to reach around and scratch it without contorting myself - or having an itch and not being able to quite hit the spot cuz now there is a collarbone to work around where there used to be flesh. It's strange to walk and my thighs don't scrub together at all anymore.
I still have a lot of skin in place of the fat but even at that, still not having to deal with the boils or skin infections in that general area because of all the friction I once had. There are so many more things that weird me out but my favorite thing is seeing a shadow and not realizing it's mine. I love my upper body definition, my shoulders and neck look graceful to me where they were once seemingly non-existant. I don't love it that my mid face looks like it's been smashed cuz it's so flat but eventually, I'll do something about it. I'm not too concerned about any of these things right now but it sure is nice to be on this side of the fence.
The journey was a long, rough and tiresome one - especially as I moved closer toward the climax (surgery day). Now, I just relax and enjoy all the million and one WOW! moments that tickle me into a giggle practically every day.
Size 10's are too big for me. LOL! Who'd a thunk it?
Luv Sharon
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I feel well but I absolutely have to take my vitamins and supps or I truly do feel drained. It's funny how those little pills and drops can make such a huge difference in the way I feel. I generally do not have an appetite but when I want to eat, I can eat pretty much what I want. I am still losing weight - slowly, but still losing. I was looking into plastics but now, I just wanna wait a little while longer. Financially, I could do it early to mid 2010 but I really just wanna wait at this point. I'm not sure where my body is going to settle down but I am making absolutely no effort to lose at this point, it just happens.
I am kinda hoping to get to 125 just to see what I would look like because that was always what was supposed to be my "ideal". In all honestly, it would probably feel too small to me and I feel bony already although I know I'm not. I just wonder if I'll look and feel better than I do already. Curious more than anything. I figure after plastics, they'll pull a good 12-15 lbs of flesh off my body so I'll likely be close to that weight post plastics anyway. If I get to 125 pre plastics though, I am concerned I would look 'frail'.
It's so funny to be able to literally pull up your butt like you pull up your pants. It's funny to not worry about medical personnel finding the veins in your hands and arms because they are clearly visible now. It's weird to have a itch and be able to reach around and scratch it without contorting myself - or having an itch and not being able to quite hit the spot cuz now there is a collarbone to work around where there used to be flesh. It's strange to walk and my thighs don't scrub together at all anymore.
I still have a lot of skin in place of the fat but even at that, still not having to deal with the boils or skin infections in that general area because of all the friction I once had. There are so many more things that weird me out but my favorite thing is seeing a shadow and not realizing it's mine. I love my upper body definition, my shoulders and neck look graceful to me where they were once seemingly non-existant. I don't love it that my mid face looks like it's been smashed cuz it's so flat but eventually, I'll do something about it. I'm not too concerned about any of these things right now but it sure is nice to be on this side of the fence.
The journey was a long, rough and tiresome one - especially as I moved closer toward the climax (surgery day). Now, I just relax and enjoy all the million and one WOW! moments that tickle me into a giggle practically every day.
Size 10's are too big for me. LOL! Who'd a thunk it?
Luv Sharon
One Year RNY to DS Surgiversary!
Mar 14, 2009
My RNY low was 221 lbs (Dr recorded 246 - go figure). My highest POST RNY weight? 311 lbs 9yrs later. On my own, lost from 311 to 286 with major diet and extreme exercise. 03/13/08 RNY to DS conversion at 286 lbs.
03/13/09: 169 lbs. . .SO FAR! Not done yet but what an exciting year. At first it was a doozy. Recovery was really really hard. Prolly cuz I'm getting old but I swear surgery never took me out like this one did. My saving grace was that I knew I made a lifesaving decision and that I was in the hands of a skilled surgeon and his team. I am alive and breathing. My apnea gone, my aches and pains - gone, my energy is finally through the roof.
I could be at goal now yes, but I am sooooo not complaining. I've had a great time finding out what I can and cannot get away with and how my body operates. I've discovered that all those years of dieting took a toll on my metabolism but the last few stints with low carb really did make a positive difference from 'diet' to 'lifestyle' mindset. Problem is, I feel guilty when I have rice or pasta - but I do anyway. Yes, this has definitely slowed my weight loss but come on: I've lost 117lbs eating like this! Are you kidding me?
I can't wait to see where I'll be in the next six months. I hope to make my goal by then, and yes, I likely will but hey, if I could do my plastics now, I wouldn't care if I stayed here. I think I look as good as I feel (except for the acne thats ravaging my face. What is that about anyway?) What an opportunity at a second chance at life. The RNY to DS surgery was a tough recovery yes, but the benefits and the lifestyle are undeniable!
And yes, I will update with photos. I'll have my co-workers take some on Monday!
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03/13/09: 169 lbs. . .SO FAR! Not done yet but what an exciting year. At first it was a doozy. Recovery was really really hard. Prolly cuz I'm getting old but I swear surgery never took me out like this one did. My saving grace was that I knew I made a lifesaving decision and that I was in the hands of a skilled surgeon and his team. I am alive and breathing. My apnea gone, my aches and pains - gone, my energy is finally through the roof.
I could be at goal now yes, but I am sooooo not complaining. I've had a great time finding out what I can and cannot get away with and how my body operates. I've discovered that all those years of dieting took a toll on my metabolism but the last few stints with low carb really did make a positive difference from 'diet' to 'lifestyle' mindset. Problem is, I feel guilty when I have rice or pasta - but I do anyway. Yes, this has definitely slowed my weight loss but come on: I've lost 117lbs eating like this! Are you kidding me?
I can't wait to see where I'll be in the next six months. I hope to make my goal by then, and yes, I likely will but hey, if I could do my plastics now, I wouldn't care if I stayed here. I think I look as good as I feel (except for the acne thats ravaging my face. What is that about anyway?) What an opportunity at a second chance at life. The RNY to DS surgery was a tough recovery yes, but the benefits and the lifestyle are undeniable!
And yes, I will update with photos. I'll have my co-workers take some on Monday!
February 16, 2009
Feb 15, 2009
So, I got to 176...then gained to 186 and sat there for a month, and today, down to 179.
I know exactly why. This semester started 01.12.09 and my brilliant self thought I should take on 19 hours. Now, yes, it's alot. It's alot more to think in terms of being a single mom of four (two are in college with me) and three year old twins (who should be in college with me and the other two).
So, between working and going to school, being a mom and a human being, I have been eating on the run. Yes, I coulda made the protein shakes but no, I grabbed the easiest thing available. I'd forget to eat or blow off eating until I got to work and of course, whats available there? omg!! Why, tell me, did they put a KRISPY KREME CASE in there?!?! My breakfast of champs: donuts and coffee. Lunch: macaroni and cheese, ramen noodles, bready sandwiches/burgers. . . just whatever is available to eat that moment.
I was aware of it but I didn't fully think about it until about a week ago soooo, I just cut some of the junk and dropped 7lbs in the past week. I've been eating breakfast at home OR just having premade shakes by the door so I can grab a few on my way out. Increased my water/fluid intake. Chicken salad prepped at home then taken in a container to work/school (I work on campus) has been a life saver. Just little things that made a BIG difference.
Am I going to make goal? Duh! Of course. I think 135 is around the corner but stay tuned cuz next month, I'm gonna post pics so you can see the huge difference between 286 and 176 (or less by that time). Believe me, I look so much smaller than I am. I see my reflection and invariably it takes a second or two to realize that's me!
It can only get better...
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I know exactly why. This semester started 01.12.09 and my brilliant self thought I should take on 19 hours. Now, yes, it's alot. It's alot more to think in terms of being a single mom of four (two are in college with me) and three year old twins (who should be in college with me and the other two).
So, between working and going to school, being a mom and a human being, I have been eating on the run. Yes, I coulda made the protein shakes but no, I grabbed the easiest thing available. I'd forget to eat or blow off eating until I got to work and of course, whats available there? omg!! Why, tell me, did they put a KRISPY KREME CASE in there?!?! My breakfast of champs: donuts and coffee. Lunch: macaroni and cheese, ramen noodles, bready sandwiches/burgers. . . just whatever is available to eat that moment.
I was aware of it but I didn't fully think about it until about a week ago soooo, I just cut some of the junk and dropped 7lbs in the past week. I've been eating breakfast at home OR just having premade shakes by the door so I can grab a few on my way out. Increased my water/fluid intake. Chicken salad prepped at home then taken in a container to work/school (I work on campus) has been a life saver. Just little things that made a BIG difference.
Am I going to make goal? Duh! Of course. I think 135 is around the corner but stay tuned cuz next month, I'm gonna post pics so you can see the huge difference between 286 and 176 (or less by that time). Believe me, I look so much smaller than I am. I see my reflection and invariably it takes a second or two to realize that's me!
It can only get better...
December 2, 2008
Dec 01, 2008
102 lbs lost. Officially a member of the century club. I wonder how to get one of those gold 'cards'...hmmmm.
I'm definitely a slower loser than most but I'm (a) a revision - apparently we tend to lose slower than a virgin would and (b) I haven't exactly been doi!ng anything to accentuate my weight loss. I've gotten lazy cuz no matter what, the weight keeps coming off. I realize it's not a sprint and certainly not a race to the goal line (at least, not for me).
I do expect to make goal. I didn't lose this much weight with my RNY. I'm soooo excited...
(Following RNY but prior to DS) HW 308/SW 286/CW 184/GW 135
I'm definitely a slower loser than most but I'm (a) a revision - apparently we tend to lose slower than a virgin would and (b) I haven't exactly been doi!ng anything to accentuate my weight loss. I've gotten lazy cuz no matter what, the weight keeps coming off. I realize it's not a sprint and certainly not a race to the goal line (at least, not for me).
I do expect to make goal. I didn't lose this much weight with my RNY. I'm soooo excited...
(Following RNY but prior to DS) HW 308/SW 286/CW 184/GW 135
October 1, 2008
Oct 01, 2008
Aaaaah...onederland! I haven't been here in 17yrs!
I finally made it!
It's happening...wow. It's really happening...I'm going to get to goal!
(Following RNY but prior to DS) HW 308/SW 286/CW 196/GW 135
I finally made it!
It's happening...wow. It's really happening...I'm going to get to goal!
(Following RNY but prior to DS) HW 308/SW 286/CW 196/GW 135
September 2, 2008
Sep 02, 2008
I spoke to my Angel Dawn (Starry) today and wish I'd not been in my cocoon the past few months. A lot of the withdrawal from people may likely be a form of depression following major life events such as surgery, divorce, marriage etc. I talked w/Dawn about the feelings I'd been experiencing and it was good to know what I was going through was not common but not unusual either.
In any case, glad to be back. She encouraged me to lurk even if I don't feel like speaking cuz their is a wealth of info here on the site (of course) and now is not the time to be hiding (since I'm still only a few months post op).
I believe part of it is cuz I cut my carbs and another part cuz I am back to school, but I'm getting a lot more physical activity these days and the weight is coming off a little quicker...
Either way, I'm feeling much better and certainly more alive.
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In any case, glad to be back. She encouraged me to lurk even if I don't feel like speaking cuz their is a wealth of info here on the site (of course) and now is not the time to be hiding (since I'm still only a few months post op).
I believe part of it is cuz I cut my carbs and another part cuz I am back to school, but I'm getting a lot more physical activity these days and the weight is coming off a little quicker...
Either way, I'm feeling much better and certainly more alive.
August 26, 2008
Aug 25, 2008
I've been in college for a couple years (a late bloomer - I'm 36), and more dreadful than anything has been arriving to class (god forbid if I'm late) and trying to squeeze 311lbs, 308lbs, 280lbs, 260lbs etc, into one of the desks on campus. I once got stuck in my desk trying to get out of it and when I stood up, so did the desk. Though no one laughed, I mean, I was in class with a bunch of late teens and early twenty somethings. EMBARASSING.
Anywhoo, first day of school:
Yes, I went to class yesterday, and the dread came over me as soon as I saw the desks. Usually, I head straight to the back of the classroom but something told me "sit right there." So I did.
I slid right in. My tummy was a good, I don't know, maybe 2" from the desk. I turned. Then I stood up. Then, I smiled. Oh yeah, I know they thought I was crazy. I didn't care.
I fit in the desk.
(Following RNY but prior to DS) HW 308/SW 286/CW 207/GW 135
Anywhoo, first day of school:
Yes, I went to class yesterday, and the dread came over me as soon as I saw the desks. Usually, I head straight to the back of the classroom but something told me "sit right there." So I did.
I slid right in. My tummy was a good, I don't know, maybe 2" from the desk. I turned. Then I stood up. Then, I smiled. Oh yeah, I know they thought I was crazy. I didn't care.
I fit in the desk.
(Following RNY but prior to DS) HW 308/SW 286/CW 207/GW 135
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