Ms S.
Long time no post; just checking in
Nov 04, 2009
149lbs people! I just was looking back at my old profile and looking at the scale and laughing at the fact that even my size 10 (can you believe it- a 10?) jeans are getting too big on me. My skin is sagging all over the place but for some reason, I don't REALLY mind. I dreamed of being a normal size for so long that even when I am naked in the mirror, I no longer cry, neither at my size nor my appearance.I feel well but I absolutely have to take my vitamins and supps or I truly do feel drained. It's funny how those little pills and drops can make such a huge difference in the way I feel. I generally do not have an appetite but when I want to eat, I can eat pretty much what I want. I am still losing weight - slowly, but still losing. I was looking into plastics but now, I just wanna wait a little while longer. Financially, I could do it early to mid 2010 but I really just wanna wait at this point. I'm not sure where my body is going to settle down but I am making absolutely no effort to lose at this point, it just happens.
I am kinda hoping to get to 125 just to see what I would look like because that was always what was supposed to be my "ideal". In all honestly, it would probably feel too small to me and I feel bony already although I know I'm not. I just wonder if I'll look and feel better than I do already. Curious more than anything. I figure after plastics, they'll pull a good 12-15 lbs of flesh off my body so I'll likely be close to that weight post plastics anyway. If I get to 125 pre plastics though, I am concerned I would look 'frail'.
It's so funny to be able to literally pull up your butt like you pull up your pants. It's funny to not worry about medical personnel finding the veins in your hands and arms because they are clearly visible now. It's weird to have a itch and be able to reach around and scratch it without contorting myself - or having an itch and not being able to quite hit the spot cuz now there is a collarbone to work around where there used to be flesh. It's strange to walk and my thighs don't scrub together at all anymore.
I still have a lot of skin in place of the fat but even at that, still not having to deal with the boils or skin infections in that general area because of all the friction I once had. There are so many more things that weird me out but my favorite thing is seeing a shadow and not realizing it's mine. I love my upper body definition, my shoulders and neck look graceful to me where they were once seemingly non-existant. I don't love it that my mid face looks like it's been smashed cuz it's so flat but eventually, I'll do something about it. I'm not too concerned about any of these things right now but it sure is nice to be on this side of the fence.
The journey was a long, rough and tiresome one - especially as I moved closer toward the climax (surgery day). Now, I just relax and enjoy all the million and one WOW! moments that tickle me into a giggle practically every day.
Size 10's are too big for me. LOL! Who'd a thunk it?
Luv Sharon
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03/13/2008
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Jul 07, 2002
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