My Return to OH

Apr 30, 2013

It's been too long.  Far, far too long. 

I'm not going to give excuses.  I'm depressed and ashamed because i'm letting my depression get to me.  I have chronic headaches and I've not been exercising.  My foods haven't been the best and I've been stalled.  It's all on me. 

I went for my 6 month check up the day after my 32nd birthday and they said I was doing great!  I was at 60% excess weight loss and that usually people are at 50% at their 6 month check.  I've not had any major complications aside from gas and nausea..and depression.  So I've had the doctor change my meds...again.  and they aren't working so we did this special DNA test but I've not got the results.  blah blah.

So, here I am.  four weeks from my brother's wedding and I'm in the bridal party, of course.  I'm so nervous.  I'm succeeding at something that I've never succeeded at in my entire life and I'm not sure how to handle it.  I've never weighed this little.  I've never fit into a size 12 (did I mention that?? i started at a 22 and am into a size 12 now) and i realized today that I've lost twice as much weight as I have left to lose.  If I can lose 70+ I can lose 35.  i CAN do this. 

Which brings me back to OH.  I need to see other people who have succeeded who have previously not succeeded as much as they are now.  YOU are my inspiration.  and I want to be someone else's inspiration. 

Learning to love myself has been the biggest challenge of this WHOLE thing.  If I can do that...I really can succeed at anything.

So anyway, i'm back!  :D  I'll try to check in more than once every two months as I KNOW this gathering place will help me on my journey.  I just have to utilize every single tool available to me for success. 

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09/05/2012
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Mar 12, 2012
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