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I know for me I spent a lot of time going through the "Before & After" pics before surgery to keep my courage up. It helped to focus on actually, possibly, one day becoming an "After" pic.

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After:


I mean seriously?!?! When the EFF did this happen?!  LMAO!

I am getting tired of one lady at church who keeps saying "You are getting so skinny!" even though I haven't really lost any weight for the past 2 months. At least I don't think I have since I am pregnant and the scale is consistent. But seriously, I am still about 200lbs!! I am STILL Obese! I am NOT SKINNY!

I can't fathom or even consider myself "skinny" until I can comfortably fit into a size 10 or 12! I'd be happy with a 14 but that won't happen until after baby is born, LOL

Once I fit into a size 10/12 I will be so happy because I know most of my sisters and my mom are all that size. Although my one sister is probably a 6/8. At a 10/12 I would finally be able to borrow clothes or trade clothes with them and other friends. That would be so cool!

My husband has been fascinated with my arms lately though. He keeps commenting from time to time on just how skinny they look to him. He was like "Whoa! Look how small your arms look now!" out of the blue one night. He just finally noticed them, LOL. I guess because my arms have always been bigger than his and now my arms are actually SMALLER than his! In fact my fingers are smaller than his because he wears a ½ size bigger ring than me now! Before I was 2-3 sizes bigger and now I am smaller!!! Even I am shocked by that!

I can even wear his jeans now (if it weren't for this baby belly thing). I picked his pants up off the ground thinking they were mine and put them on. It was a little snug when I zipped them up when I realized they weren't mine but my husband's jeans!! LOL

It really is surreal when you go from blatantly obvious size differences in clothes to now having to inspect your pants really well to determine if they are yours or not, LOL Poor hubby isn't even used to this change! Thankfully we'll have a few more months of maternity jeans to help keep jeans separate but after that it's anyone's guess!

Even with having to wait an extra year to probably get to my goal weight, even at this point I am so very excited to give birth and then continue on with my weight loss journey so I can finally make my goal weight and hopefully my goal size! I can't wait to see how I look and feel! I mean if I feel this great NOW being 50lbs away from goal and PREGNANT! I can only imagine how much better I'll feel at goal and much smaller!

I hit ONEderland, before the end of the year and WHILE pregnant!



At one point I didn't think it was possible and then when I hit 201 a few days ago and then 200 yesterday I got my hopes up for today and sure enough the scale read below 200!

I have NOT seen a 1 at the beginning of my weight since before high school!!!
Last night before bed I weighed myself and was kind of shocked to see the scale read 200.6 BEFORE BED. I dreamt all night long about waking up and stepping on the scale in the morning and seeing the 199, but I also got scared to step on the scale thinking "With my luck my weight will have stayed the same or gone up." I thought for sure that would happen to me so I was scared to step on the scale and be disappointed.

Nope, I stepped on it and got a 199.8. I was happy! Then I went and opened some mail and greeted family and got my camera so I could document my scale victory and when I stepped on the scale again, not once but several time to double and triple check what I was seeing, I was met with the 199.4 lbs!

I am now only 24lbs away from my DH's weight! I have NEVER been this close to his weight before. N-E-V-E-R!!!

Of course I am pregnant so unfortunately my clothes have not changed much. I probably could easily fit into a size 16 now if it wasn't for the baby bump, LOL At the beginning of December I switched to maternity pants, but then dropped like 5-6 lbs in one week and the maternity pants got too big so I went back into my regular jeans. Since getting my BFP I've lost an additional 11lbs I went up on the scales for a bit though and then lost it all and then some without trying. Sticking to my proteins and normal eating. Morning sickness hasn't been too bad. Vomiting has been kept to a minimum but eating has been more difficult. Some days I think I eat too much but those are the days I tend to seem to lose more on the scale, so it's weird.

My flexible goal was to reach 199.8 before Jan 1st. I did that and if I sadly go up on the scale I am a-okay with that because I know baby has to grow and it will cause me to gain weight.

In previous pregnancies I only gained 10-15lbs after I lost a lot in the first trimester. By the end of my pregnancy I am usually lighter than my lowest pre-pregnancy weight. Then I somehow end up gaining it all back and then some while I am breastfeeding! Of course this time I have a much smaller stomach so we'll see how that all turns out.

Ok, so I am long winded. If you made it this far, :D thank you!

I just found out I am pregnant with baby #8, today! (well #9 if you consider my last baby ended in a miscarriage at 10 weeks)

I am nervous and scared but very much excited too. This will be our last baby.

I KNOW I am nowhere near "tiny" since I am still over 200lbs! But I guess it is a big change from being 326.

Today at church, I was getting compliments left and right; and questions on how I was losing the weight. I am more than happy to tell these people because they are all very supportive and kind. Plus, I really want to promote the sleeve as much as possible because it is a new option and IMHO the best option out there right now.

So the one lady with whom we've both battled the weight demons and has been asking me a lot about my surgery because her husband really is in "need" of it, and recently his doctor even suggested WLS for him as well. I know it's scary to even consider doing something this drastic, but I really have come to find that it is a great option, even though the recovery stage can be quite difficult.

So she walked up to me and said "You are getting tiny!" I laughed and said, "Hardly!" Her reply was that I just don't see it because it's more gradual with me. Well sure, but I'll consider myself "tiny" when I can fit into a 14 or a 16. Not an 18 or a 20. But that's just me. I am still 220lbs and that to me is nowhere near "tiny" in my book.

So I got to talking with them and especially him about this surgery and all of the benefits to it. I really do hope he considers it since he is in such poor health. They say he's "healthy" but you can not be "healthy" at 450lbs!! Yet he has no co-morbidities, he says, and he says his blood work is normal. Yet I know his BMI can NOT be normal and is probably way above that 52 mark.

I really do like that I inspire people, and I will admit I like the attention too. I have noticed a big difference in the way people treat me, even at this size and weight. I am starting to think I am in that "acceptable" size. Not too fat to be ignored but not too thin that I am drooled over by other men,yk?!

It's just people will talk to me more. I noticed this today when I waited outside an auditorium for the new Michael Moore movie to show. I sat next to a woman, whom I later found out was just 3 years younger than me, but looked like 10 years younger than me, and she and a bunch of other people randomly struck up conversations with me. That is NOT usual for me.

Normal, for me, is reading my book, watching a movie on my Zune, or listening to music that I brought and outright being ignored. Instead I felt included and welcomed, which was odd to me. I saw a bunch of people I know show up, too and we chit chatted. Again not normal for me.

When the day was done I felt so much more confident and even "sexy" a little. I know the one mirror made me look pretty good if I do say so myself.

Once I get going on the Atkin's induction plan, weight really does come off a little too easily for me. Of course that's NOT a bad thing, LOL

Yesterday I weighed in at 225.2, and today I am now down to 223.4!!!  That's nearly 2 pounds in 1 day!!

Maybe I was right in that I could possibly lose 10 pounds in 2 weeks while doing this induction. Of course if this trend continues it could be as high as nearly 20 pounds! How cool would that be if I could be below 200 in less that 3 weeks instead of 66 days!!! (That's my Thanksgiving goal, BTW)

Of course I am not holding my breath to hard that it will happen that fast, but of course i would not complain if it did, right?! LOL

Although I might complain if my clothes start falling off of me again and I have to buy new ones I can't afford again. I know Dh probably wouldn't like that too much. I hope I can find that consignment shop somone posted about. Then maybe I can have my clothes work for me and earn me money!!!

Geez I could be in a size 16 by the end of October!

I can not believe I finally reached my 100 pounds weight loss goal. I can not believe I reached that goal in less than 6 months!

I have lost 100.8 pounds from my highest weight ever. These are some of my before and after pictures. I only have 75 more pounds to go until I reach my goal weight now. I've never lost this much at one time, ever before in my life!!!


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One of my goals on here was to be able to have my DH lift me. Now that I am below the 230 mark (227-228) I thought why not see if he can lift me.

Lo and behold he was able to lift me ff the ground and hold me there for a few. If he wasn't so out of shape he might have been able to hold me longer, LOL But even at 240/245 he couldn't lift me, so this was a cool surprise to me that he could lift me like that!

I can't wait to reach a new goal or milestone.

As of this morning I am 2.4 pounds away from having lost 100 pounds.

I have gone from a size 30/32 down to an 18/20. My shoes are too big too.

I have bought a few clothes from Salvation Army a couple things were a little too tight, but I bought them in the hopes of shrinking into them as time goes on. I also bought one new shirt and some control undies for my apron problem I wish I didn't have.

Things are going well, sine July. July I was rehospitalized for severe dehydration and since then I have been excellent. I can eat whatever I want . . . okay I guess I should revise that to "I can eat a wide variety of foods. I mean come on, if I ate what I actually wanted I'd probably be eating upwards of the 2400 calories I used to be eating, instead of the mere 600-800 calories I can barely get in, right?!.

So I can eat cookies, chips, cakes, and other bad carbs. But thankfully it is only 2-3 bites at most. I still get in my proteins, maybe not all that I should be but I try my hardest to. I am very vigilant of my water intake though, since I don't want to end up back in the hospital. I can't afford it.

So I am very happy with my milestones and I am even happier right now to finally be out of the 230's!!! I am finally in the 220's at 228.4!! I just seriously can not wait to reach the 226 mark so I can honestly say I have truly lost 100 pounds instead of saying "I've lost almost 100 pounds."

I am 3 weeks out now.

Surgery was April 24th and things seemingly went well. I certainly didn't think I was going to be in so much pain though. Recovery was a tad rough and I am still in pain where my biggest incision is.

I started recovery off very well until May 3rd hit. I had done very well at least 40oz of liquids plus "meals" and then while watching "Desperate Housewives" DH made some cream of wheat (allowed on our liquid diet for some reason) and I had 3 tiny bites of it and suddenly felt like I was going to spew. From that point on though I could barely drink or eat anything without feeling sick to my stomach. I went in on Tuesday that week for dehydration and nausea. They "adjusted" my meds but days later I still felt awful.

On Mother's Day things got worse when my vomit started showing signs of old and new blood. We decided to finish up Mother's day and Celebrate my baby daughter's 3rd birthday knowing I'd miss it and then I headed back to the hospital. I was there until Thursday as they pumped tons of fluids into me and kept adjusting meds.

Since Thursday I have thankfully been able to get back on track with eating and drinking without too many problems, but feeling sick to my stomach for so long has made me weary of progressing too soon or too fast; even though I was following the guidelines that were laid out for me by my bariatric clinic.

I'm half way through the liquid diet and I am down 15.6 lbs now. I'd REALLY love to be at or below 300 by surgery day, but that may very well be difficult as I have had 2 days where there was a small "stall". Plus I am having a difficult time getting in enough calroies even pre-surgery. I already have 4 extra packets of the shakes now because I don't eat everything I am "supposed to".

My calorie intake is between 600-900 calories; although one day it was slightly below 600. I'm fairly certain by the way my numbers have been that I will be a staller out of the gate. It will surely take me a while before my body adjusts to the "starvation".

I'm extremely excited and yet nervous and scared.  I'm more excited than anything. I can't help but watch the calendar quickly move towards my surgical date and literally squeal with delight as another day passes.

I'm just so excited I had to write about it. LOL