Sexy_Within
I'm 39 yrs old,and overweight.I've struggled with my weight all my life.I can't say that I tried all diets,and diet pills,but I tried enough.I remember at my highest weight (304lbs) going to see my doctor at the time,and her telling me to just stop eating, And no she wasnt joking,but I wish she was. After that visit I lost 82lbs,but after 6 months gained 64lbs.Im a yo yo dieter.I even tried what she suggested, I simply just stopped eating.(Fasting) I met my husband while being overweight,And he would tell me,that he loved me the way that I am.But as years passed I would catch him looking at other women.Thin women.Im tired of being the biggest girl in the room, Im tired of wearing 3/4 sleeves in the summer to hide my arms, Im tired of men looking at me with discuss, Im tired of going to the beach and not being able to wear a bathing suit. Im tired of doing everything for everyone else except me,Because I dont think that I deserve it, Im tired of being told I have a pretty face, as if the rest of me is ugly. Most of all Im tired of people judging me by my weight, which is the outside, not caring about me on the inside. The inside me the most important part of me.The part that is loving,caring,and deserves love.I want to finally live for me. I want to experience being thin before I die, I dont want a specially made casket. So thats why I choose to have the surgery, drastic as it may be.I love me today, and Im having this surgery before I turn 40.And I WANT TO THANK EVERYONE FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT,BECAUSE WE ALL ARE SEXY WITHIN!!!!
