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I am getting excited, only 3 more hrs before I do my first workout with my personal trainer.
Yesterday's aquasize was awesome, but I am a little tender in some spots. The instructor is so good at what he does!
I am really feeling like I have a good plan in place...
Short and sweet!
Shanan :)

Hey there journal!
Just wanted to update here, as I haven't been the greatest for showing up lately...
It's been a wonderful journey, thus far..still losing, slowly, but losing nonetheless and that's the IMPORTANT part!
I am so proud of the accomplishments I have made lately.
I have added aquasize twice a week and I recently found a personal trainer and my first session is tomorrow!
I am also selling Tupperware to help pay for the personal trainer and maybe some interim clothing..desperately needed right now!
I am down over 56 lbs, and from a pant size of 26 to almost an 18. I am completely seeing results but here is the weird part..when I look in the mirror, for the most part, I still "look" the same. Maybe I am just losing proportionately and I am not seeing it..HAHAHAHAHAHA
But all in all, spirits are good, confidence rising, life in general is good and I am working towards another drop-fest of poundage! LOL
I have had three fills in all..one by TLBC and two by my family doctor here in Halifax. I have 7 cc's in my band and I am really thinking of having a .5 taking out.
I am really struggling in the morning to get things in or down..whatever way you look at it. And I also struggle with lunch and supper, just not to the degree of breakfast problems.
I chew, chew chew, but scrambled eggs give me grief! I have eliminated bread from my life with the exception of the odd cracker outside the home.
I am still taking protein shakes for breakfast because they are fast and they go down to some degree and they have a wealth of nutrition for me.
anyhoo, time to go home, will update later! going to miss my drive home if I don't go now!
ciao!
s

So, I just tried updating my profile, but the bugger doesn't want to change my BMI...anyhoo, I don't really care..I have my WL ticker and it reflects it, although I am ticked that it won't show up when I reply to the Nova Scotia forum..
anyhoo, no biggie.
Alright, last week went to TLBC for my first fill adjustment.
And overall I was not thoroughly impressed with the session nor the nurse, but I am impressed with the results.
She put 5 cc's in and it fills wonderful...not to say I haven't had moments where it hurts, but all in all, it's managing my overeating tremendously! And I walking everyday, so my energy level is quite high comparitively.
Reasons I was not impressed with the appt...
1. They knew I was coming from afar, yet the fill nurse did not pay any special attention and gave off the feeling that she had better things to do. In fact, she gave me the needle and sent me on my way..as if I knew what I was doing!
Anyhoo..
2. I was expecting a semiar with a wealth of more information..and maybe because I have read so much, all she did was reiterate what has already been said..it just made me feel as if the whole trip was a waste of time.
3. Dr. Yau was in, but I did not get to see him.
I realize he is a busy man, but I was hoping to see him at some point.
And that is strictly my opinion...and I am shy, so I probably could have said something, but I did not.
If anyone wants more info, I am more than happy to oblige.
I want to tell them my experiences and how things can be improved, but right now I am still a bit pissed with the way they are treating me as a patient, or better yet, as just another payment in their books.

Signing off!
Shrinking Shanan :)
Start: 300 Current: 265 Goal: 150ish

I am having a very hard time with no restriction and just going about my daily routine.  The honeymoon phase is over and this is the most critical time for us banders and I don't feel connected or supported right now.
Just trying not to eat bad things or eat too much of anything bad.
I am still losing, very very slowly right now, but I realize that is healthy and I can't lose with the band like the other types of surgery patients out there. 
I just want the old habits to stop coming back, so sooon!!!! Arrghh...
Just another rant..
I am hoping that my first fill in Toronto will get me motivated for another round of fat loss.  LOL  
I am also seriously considering finding a personal trainer to get schedule set up as well.  I need a routine that will fit into my schedule and not have to include going to the gym just yet.
Anyhoo..almost time for some lunch..
ciao!
Shanan :)

I had an ice cream sundae today with the office staff...we have just recently been notified of a re-org of our department, so we needed to have a venting day, so one co-worker suggested ice cream!
it was delish!  but i am not feeling so great now..not stomach ick, but head ick..like I shouldn't have..
anyhoo..it's over with, just can't do that again!
other than that..all is well..had some homemade chicken noodle soup last night and today..too good to be true!  I am feeling a little worried that I am so happy to have real foods again..
but not really craving junk..just real meals..
anyhoo..time to get cracking!

s

Well, just over one week post op and feeling good.  Have been feeling great, returned to work two days ago and all seems to be going fine.  I am thinking that this is just such a wonderful journey - but right now, all I want to do is go down stairs and drink a huge glass of water or something..lol
I will get over that I am sure!
I have to say I am a little amiss with the clinic that I went to.  I have not heard from them since I left except an email from the nutritionist asking how I was doing.  Anyways, I am still keeping my fingers crossed they haven't forgotten me already and even though I am out of province they will touch base soon.
Time to get some sleep..
(shrinking) Shanan :O)

So, I just had two of the longest meetings of my life.  Had to present in the first one, so I have been having a fit trying to get the 3D model finished.
Working on just trying to stay focused enough to make sure I bring everything I will need for my stay in Toronto.
Gotta remember to pack my Endura!
I am so not able to keep my head in the moment.  I am just all over the place.   I know it's coming together for me, for once I know I am going to be able to take the bull by the horns and get this weight issue figured out.
I know there is more to it that having a device placed around my stomach, but this much I know.  My head is getting around that there is more to life than food.  A lot of people say it's a rebirth, but I don't want to say something like that for fear that I hadn't been living before, which would make it sound like the people in my life and the things I have done should be tossed away.
No, this is my new skin and my new interaction with the world.  How my eyes see it and how I am going to make parts of my life more active, more vibrant and more worthwhile for the benefit of me and my family and friends.  Look out baby, I am not going to hold back now.  (sounds cheesy, but I am sooo feeling it right now)  I know I will moan and groan when I re-read that part.  HAHAHA
Soon to be on the losers' bench and proud of it!
Shanan :O)

I am flying to Toronto to have Lap Band done on Sept. 20th!!! 
I booked it on Friday, so I will get the packages in the mail next week sometime.  I have to do two strict weeks of a special diet - the liquid diet in order to shrink my liver down.  It helps with the surgery. 
So, now I can say it's finally going to happen! 
This is the beginning of a new life!  I can not wait!!!!!!
Anyhoo, time to get things done around here.  My daughter's birthday is today and I have a birthday party to get ready for!
Ciao!

I am excited, got an email back from Dr. Christou...the clinic is closed until Aug. 15, but Mary will call me when they re-open from vacation.
He told me to fill out the form and mail it in.  Wonder why I can't email it back?
Anyhoo, off to the cottage with Jeff and Ruby our puppy. 
It's been hellishly hot here in Halifax and I am going swimming when we get to the cottage!

Soon to be Shrinking Shanan :)