Ten Week Check In

Oct 09, 2011

I posted this on the message board the other day and just realized I forgot to post it in my blog, too.  I've had some time to digest everything that has happened and am feeling a bit better.  But still shocked that I didn't get the job. 

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What a day.  I'm out of town for a work conference and have been trying to enjoy myself while do some work.  It's not easy balancing the life of a post op with an out of town event where you need to eat all your meals out.  I'm wasting a lot of food but thankfully my co-workers seem to be ok "stealing" all my french fries so I don't feel as guilty.  It's hard to remember I don't have a normal stomach, though, and I've taken a few too many bites twice now.  No dumping but very uncomfortable. 

I got some bad news today.  A job I have been pining for for quite some time opened up recently.  I went through the very extensive interview process and made it to the final two.  I got a call today saying they chose someone else.  I'm devastated.  Trying to remember to do deep breathing to keep my anxiety down.  It's helping but I'm starting to go into the numb phase.  It would have been a 20-30 thousand dollar pay increase and something I would LOVE to do.  But for some reason it wasn't meant to be. 

On the positive side, two people I haven't seen since pre-surgery came up to me today and told me "you lost weight- you look great!"  It was nice to hear and they are actually the first people to say anything to me since surgery.  47 pounds later it's finally starting to be noticable.  I'll have to mentally prepare to hear more of this in the future.

I really wish I could eat a bag of Reeces Peanut Butter cups right now.  Or a box of Swiss Cake Rolls.  Or a Dairy Queen Blizzard.  My "go to" foods when the world seems like it's spinning out of control.  Thankfully I'm already in my PJ's and shored up in my hotel room.  The worst damage I could do would be to gorge on pistachios.  But I'm not hungry so I'm going to bed.  

Love you, OH Community. 

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07/27/2011
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Oct 07, 2010
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