11/12/11 almost 2 years from surgery

Nov 11, 2011

Well its almost 2 years. WOW did time fly by. I can barely remember the pain of surgery( thats BAD!). I lost my post from 1 year ago. That a shame because I was at my lowest weight 169. That was 96 lbs lost and I felt great!  As the year went on my job became much more stressful. I was overwrought and depressed. I gained weight; went back to my old habits and really didn't care. Too stressed and tired to care.
Well, I'm back! I quit my horrible job 3 weeks agp. Went to Punta Cana with my FIANCE. Got engaged last Christmas EVE. Now I start a new job on Monday! I set a wedding date for this JUNE and I bought a dress yesterday. It is a size 14, a little snug and perfect for my outdoor affair in June. I will be a 55 yr old bride so I don't want to overdue it with the dress!  I have until the end of March for alterations. 
I am taking off the 13 lbs I put on this past year. I would like to lose 20 and be at 100 lbs loss. I have a gym membership and a personal trainer with my new job. My sister is already using her trainer and gym and she was never a workout girl. So I have a built in partner!! 
Things are looking up. The sun is out and I am thrilled. Wish me Luck.
LOVE,
Ellen
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9 1/2 months- no change

Aug 28, 2010

Just read last month's entry. I said I was recommitting myself but I didn't.  I am not happy. WoW, almost like saying it out loud. I am not using my tool. I am not exercising. I am not watching my food intake. Therefore, I am not losing weight.
I have had more compliments lately than I had the previous 9 month since this journey began. I feel like a fraud because I am not doing what I should be doing. I feel sad & depressed and low most of the time. My job is kicking me in the butt and I spend far too much time worrying about work before my real life. So, I came on OH website to get insight from others. I am too introspective and shy away from spending time with others. I do have my 9 month appt with my Dr next week and I am going to tell him this and ask for advice. I hate to admit this but, I think I need to talk to someone. I did my homework. I knew that WLS would not Change my life and make it perfect but I did not expect it to make me sad and craving alone time. This is not my nature. So, I bared my soul. Hopefully, this is a step in the right direction in getting back to me. I feel like I am wasting valuable time.
PS- weight and measures are the same.

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8 month surgiversary( missed #7 )

Jul 16, 2010

The title shows how laid back I've become!
I missed posting on my 7 month. I can blame it on being overworked( I was.)  I can blame it on alot of things but I am not giving my tool the 100% dedication it ( and I ) deserve. Saw the Doc for my 7 month. Labs are good. He thinks I am doing great- 82lb loss at the office. All my labs seem good. I do keep up with the vits pretty well.
I also spent more time this weekend on the forum boards for info, motivation and support. Went to Myrtle Beach for the first time.  We had a great time. I felt good in a bathing suit. Went out to eat lavishly. I can eat pretty much anything, unfortunately.
Not surprisingly, I haven't lost any weight in 2 months. I am at 87 lbs so I have moved a tiny tiny . BUT I have done nothing to help move the scale and I actually binge on carbs which sabotages any chance of weight loss. It is not a love of food or cravings, its bad habits coming back.  So today, I start again.  Back to exercising, journaling and eating slowly. I want this to work. I need this to work and I will rededicate myself to using my tool correctly.
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6 month surgiversary !!!!

May 21, 2010

Hi, It is actually a week Past my 6 month point but work has thrown a monkey wrench into my life. Due to a co worker's leaving I am working from 5 am til 7pm. My excuse is that it leaves no Me Time! No time for exercise no time for anything. Only sitting on my Not as Big Butt and nibbling all day long. Nothing healthy or smart about that. Well one week til Memorial Day and it will all slow down a bit. Last month I blogged about exercise and weight training and how happy it made me. As I read that I realized how much I have missed that in the past 3 weeks. So I vow to make time for my health starting today, Again. 
 My total weight loss is around 85 lbs which is amazing. I have seen closer to 90 but due to my mistakes my number is bouncing around. If I give myself some exercise and pay attention to food choices, I feel 90 is soon attainable. Boyfriend says I am "bland, not as happy." He is right. I don't know if fat people are jollier due to the chocolate etc. but I do seem mellower and quieter and not as happy. Once summer comes and I do have some time, I will get More introspective and see what the deal is with me. I never thought that I would miss or mourn food so I doubt that is it. But something is missing. ( Besides a girl scout. In my math a girl scout = 80 lbs.) I'll read some posts and see if others feel that way. Well I'm on my weigh to 90n and then 100. Thank God for this surgery and my new life. Thanks.
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5 month surgiversary 4/17/10

Apr 18, 2010

Well, the past month gas flew by. I am at 80 lbs lost. I look better in clothes. I have purchased a casual dress, something i always wanted to wear but never could, in size 14. Some 14 pants are now baggy on me and I do have size 12 denim capris that fit!  So its time for shopping since none of my old clothes now fit, Thank God. There is room in my closet. I am purging the old clothes and giving them away. This is something I never did before since I always yo-yo dieted in the past. 
I am doing pretty good with the exercise and strength training. Most of the past month I was happy with my effort, this week too much scheduled, didn't do as well. I do have bat wings for arms and know that strength training will help but will not really affect that look.  So I am heading Joyfully, Excitedly, Expectantly and Happily to the 6 month mark. I still Give Thanks to God for this surgery which has improved my life.
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4 month surgiversary

Mar 16, 2010

Well, it has been 4 months since my surgery! I have lost 70 lbs total including the 20 Lost pre-op 11/1-11/17. January was a slow 2 lb month. February things heated up. I hit ONEderland on Feb 21 and since then ( 4 weeks) I have only lost 4 more lbs. BUT, I don't care about the math or how it came off. I HAVE LOST 70 LBS. I FEEL GREAT. I LOOK GREAT. So I continue to be thankful for the 70 lbs, I have lost. I would never have lost 70 lbs in 5 months on Weight Watchers. Of that I am sure. ( I also hot the 10 inch mark, 10 inches lost from my waist, 10 inches lost from my hips...)
I blogged in January that I was starting all of these great things... I didn't. But now,I have installed my own gym on the second floor at work. I have a weight bench, treadmill, gazelle, exercise bands and an ab lounger. I am reading 2 strength training books and have ordered weight training exercise posters to hang in my weight room. But, Best of All. I am actually using this equipment! Yes, I am going up there at lunch time and for an hour after work. its been over 1 week and I feel so much tighter.  I am adding a TV, DVD  and exercise DVDs and videos this week. It is the thing I am most excited about and I find time to post my nutritional and activity logs.
The sun has come out! Spring is kicking Winter out of the way and I feel Good! Thank God for my surgery and great results.
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ONE-DERLAND ! YEAH!

Feb 21, 2010

February Has Been Great!
I am in week 14, just had my 3 month surgiversary. Best of all, I started losing again once February began, I have reached ONE-DERLAND!! That is 66 pounds lost. I am so happy and excited. Things are good.I am back at the gym. Already have lots of hanging skin on my legs, gross. Things seem a bit better with the BMs, not as painful as long as I stay on top of the stool softeners.  Clothes fit great in the legs but boobs are almost gons and my waist is still large in comparison with my butt. Which is the opposite of my body growing up. But I am happy regardless. Things are good. the scale is moving in thr right direction and I am happy.
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January was a 2 lb month

Jan 29, 2010

Strange month! I hit my goal of 50 lbs by New Years Day. I only lost 2-3 lbs the rest of the month! I can't say I was truly shocked because my body has adjusted to weight loss plans so many times in the past.  I have a history of losing the first week or month of a drastic diet and then not losing anything the next. So January was like that. I am waiting for the Big Drop to happen. Today I was down 3 more lbs but I will wait for tomorrow to believe I am truly losing again.  Yes, I am doing things wrong. I swore I wouldn't test this but I do. I have tried Cheese curls ( other GBS friends gave them to me- they help get through cravings no dumping.) sorry i tried them. I have also tried, whole wheat toast & crackers. I have no problems with bread, unfortunately. Not nearly enough exercise. Working, too cold, dark - I have a million excuses. But these excuses are impeding my journey. So I guess this is the weight loss that I deserved. Still have the truly horrible time with constipation. Now using 3 meds and sometimes an enema is necessary. But if that is the only problem, i am blessed. So February starts this week. 2 weeks til my 3 month check up and I feel things are looking up and the numbers on the scale are heading down!

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New Year, New Me

Jan 15, 2010

Jan 16, 2010
Tomorrow is my 2 month anniversary. Seems time has gone by fast in some respects and slow in others. Its been 8  1/2 weeks since my surgery. I have lost 53 pounds total( including 20 prior to surgery) and 7 inches off of my waist& breast and 5 from  each thigh. So the transformation has truly begun!  I was feeling that the weight loss has been slow since Christmas and the inches are also coming off more slowly, but, as soon as I saw the date, I realized how far I had come.
Had my first problem with food too big and had to puke due to pain and 2 days later ate a vegetable that was too hard with the same result. I realize that I am starting to think that I am bulletproof and am going back to my old habits!  I crave carbs and have nibbled on a few pretzel rods. I have tried hummus on a triscut. Hummus was OK the triscuit was cause of my first painful episode. I am not chewing enough, eating too quickly, and not exercising because its been freezing. Yes, I belong to a gym but I have plenty of Excuses for that too.
So, as I mentioned, tomorrow is my 2 month anniversary, And like New Years for others, I am making my resolutions. I am going to log my food for nutritional info. I am going to chew, chew, chew. I AM going to exercises 30 minutes per day. I  did all of these things the first month,but, then I knew what I was doing. I got cocky and got off track.
Lets see what month 3 will bring.
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New Years Day 2010

Jan 01, 2010

Happy New Year!
Welcomed in 2010 with a nice romantic dinner, no booze but a great night. Lost only 1 lb in over a week but I did increase my exercises (was on vacation) so maybe its muscle weight...
Constipation kills me every 3 days not improving. Almost missed the Polar Bear where my Honey, family and friends run into the ocean on New Years Morning every year. It is a good time but more fun with a Miller Lite. so I guess the theme is I do miss drinking for the first time. I seem to only miss it on events that always were accompanied by beer, not in my daily life. Well, regardless, it is worth it to have my better, thinner, healthier ( sexier! ) self.  Also, More Good News, Inches lost has really increased. Lost 7 in my waist, 7 in my bust and 5 in each thigh!! That alone is enough to celebrate. Happy New Year!!
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11/17/2009
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Nov 07, 2009
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