9 1/2 months- no change

Aug 28, 2010

Just read last month's entry. I said I was recommitting myself but I didn't.  I am not happy. WoW, almost like saying it out loud. I am not using my tool. I am not exercising. I am not watching my food intake. Therefore, I am not losing weight.
I have had more compliments lately than I had the previous 9 month since this journey began. I feel like a fraud because I am not doing what I should be doing. I feel sad & depressed and low most of the time. My job is kicking me in the butt and I spend far too much time worrying about work before my real life. So, I came on OH website to get insight from others. I am too introspective and shy away from spending time with others. I do have my 9 month appt with my Dr next week and I am going to tell him this and ask for advice. I hate to admit this but, I think I need to talk to someone. I did my homework. I knew that WLS would not Change my life and make it perfect but I did not expect it to make me sad and craving alone time. This is not my nature. So, I bared my soul. Hopefully, this is a step in the right direction in getting back to me. I feel like I am wasting valuable time.
PS- weight and measures are the same.

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