Cant find digital camera

Nov 23, 2007

I think it grew legs and ran away. I put on my bathing suit to take some pics but cant find it anyhwere. WIll do a good cleaning this weekend. Need to update my pics.

OMG my tooth is killing me!

Oct 29, 2007

It is my birthday this week and I was going to celebrate by going to a concert with a wls friend. Then my tooth decided I needed a root canal instead. OMG the pain! It is severe!
I go in this week, cross my fingers and have it done. I have been living on pain pills for the last couple of weeks because I couldnt get in the dentist.
Oh well...root canal for 34th birthday...sounds fun!


Quiche addict???

Oct 29, 2007

yes I am afraid so! During my trip for my brother's court case I fell back in love with quiche. I ate some for lunch and no throwing up...went down easy and was sooo good! Flakey crust, custardy eggy mixture and veggies. Yummy!
So I have been on this kick. That is all I have eaten for a long time...2-3 weeks now.
I make them at home and the nutrition states 200 cals per 1/8 slice. That is what I ate each time so that is what I was adding up. Plus some turkey every now and then.
So I was eating 2-3 peices a day...nothing else because I was getting enough protein and nutrients from veggies and turkey and eggs. I was doing great until I added the food in my fit day and found out it was more like 500 cals a slice. WHAT???
I went home and checked it out...it was true. somewhere around 200 cals for quiche BUT then add on the Mrs Smith flakey pie crust...wow it jumps to 500~
OUCH! I was overdoing my cals my 300 each day. (1200 cals a day max)
I still have 2 brand new quiches I made this weekend. Turkey/tomatoes/broccoli/chipolte cheese...yummy!
I guess I am going to have to come up with a lower cal substitute or just scratch quiche all together.
I dont think I can give up the crust..so I might as well drop the idea all together.
I live without donuts, chocolate kisses and much much more...why not add on quiche.

7 months??

Oct 29, 2007

Holy crap time flies! I just saw my friend Chris's page...she has her 7 month pics up....wow we are there already! We were banded same day different hospitals.
I am doing much much better after the court odeal. I was so upset about my brother it was so coming out in my eating. I have always been an emotional eater and this wasnt an exception.
The great thing is I never gained any weight during this horrible time. Thank you lap band!
I am now in my 40's..woohoo! I am wearing a size 18 pencil skirt and a 1x top from Macy's...and a size 8 shoe. Even the shoes got smaller!
I started out at a size 24 and some were tight. I started out at 278 lbs....now I am a few dress sizes down and 35+ lbs down.
I am so happy that I made this decision.
Now I am going to focus on more protein and FIRST...no drinking with meals AT ALL...and lower my cals again.
I look forward seeing 3's on my scale next.....when I start seeing 2's I am going to think the scale broke!

2 years finally gone!!!!

Oct 16, 2007

The court case of the year is over and my brother was found innocent. Thank God. I can sleep and rest and not be so damn depressed. The moment the verdict was read I exploded in emotion. The last 2 years all come out at once. I was a blubbering idiot! But within hours....I kid you not....
the air was lighter, my chest could breathe better. I physically felt a weight off my back. REALLY. 
I had gone to the ER earlier that same day around 4 am because I was in such a panic waiting for verdict. I thought I was having a heart attack. I sat alone in the hospital with horrible chest and abdominal pain. Everything was ok, EKG was normal. I was released and he said I could attend court and even protest as long as it wasnt in the sun. I told him it didnt matter...I was going to anyway.
I feel like everything is right on track. I had to drop out of school because I chose to spend the last 2 weeks with my brother instead of exams. I almost lost him for 30 years I wasnt going to worry about school.
So the weight is coming off slow, and I have to start all over in school. Really...in the grand scheme of it all I couldnt be happier!!!
NOT GUILTY!!!!
I can live again and so can he!
Thank you for all that supported me in this.
Now all I have to focus on is weight loss!


wow a whole month gone again!

Sep 30, 2007

It has been a hard month for me. I started school...failing miserably, my brother's murder trial is this month and I have had a month of mini binges.
I didnt gain any weight! which is amazing and I thank the band for that. I cant binge the way I used to...except on icecream and puddings etc...anything mushy can go down without throwing up.
I can get full really quickly on protein....so band is perfect! 
I had questioned this last month if I was "that woman"...you know her the one that gets the surgery and  blows it! Gains all the weight back and becomes a joke to her family and friends. I decided I am not that. I am someone that has severe depression and even with meds it breaks through. If I had not had the surgery I would have gained 20lbs in the last month due to depression. In the past that is how it worked.....binge for a month then gain weight....I'd say at 20lbs per massive binge and being overweight 100lbs before surgery that tells you how many severe episodes I have had.
This is what I am thankful for:
-Wearing a size xl in normal sizes-tops
-wearing 18 bottoms...and some 20s depending on style...today I am wearing a size 22 tall but they are low rider jeans from torrid and junior sizes.....so I know that does not translate into womens sizes the same...when I bought these I couldnt fit in them...now I could go down a size but like the way they fit.....so I tore out the tag :)
-feeling pretty some days, getting my confidence back- see new pics posted
-having more energy
-not needing glucophage which made me very ill
-for friends like Chris on this site! thank you all for the support!
(even though I might not respond when I get the message....it means so much...when the fog clears you are the first I talk to! :)
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New pics posted...I am pleased with them....and yes that is a new piercing in my face... I like it....I figured I can only be wild for maybe one more year of my 30s ....( I need to get the last 75 lbs off so I can relive my twenties before I am too old!)
Shannon


Started my period again..????

Aug 27, 2007

I had a period last week, but a weird one. Really light, for only 2 days. Then nothing. Then a couple of days its back. Then gone again this weekend. Then I got this funny crampy feeling at school today and sure enough...its back.
My thoughts are that I am burning alot of fat which is making estrogen and making my body menstral when the levels are really high. I had..OMG HAD pcos. I am guessing it is gone now because I started my periods and am not having any issues at all with it. My doc wants to check my blood to make sure it is gone...but I know it is!
I feel feminine for the first time in a long time. Do you know what I mean, girls? I wear dresses and shoes..much like the ones I wore before but I feel more girly now.
I dont feel blobish or asexual like before. I used to not feel like a women...probably because of PCOS and high testosterone....I didnt feel like a man but just not girlie at all. All that has changed!
I love WLS~ I love it!
I see women now...and God forgive me...I think quietly to myself, her life could be so much fuller..if only. I wonder how many people saw me and wondered this also.
I say this because today at school I saw a lady so large she was wheel chair bound...not sure why. I just know that I felt bad for her. I felt bad for her that she couldnt fit through the door easily or move around like I am sure she wanted to. But I also felt so proud that she didnt let that stop her. Lord knows I did. 
I am sure not my greatest blog but just what is on my mind

Wow moments...

Aug 27, 2007

I am back in school and with this many wow moments have already occured. These are not flighty wow moments but OH MY GOSH! HOLY SHIT WOW! moments! Here goes
First just being in school...wow!
Not getting winded walking around in 106 degrees. Yeah I sweat but I am not dying anymore!
No back pain!
Periods are back!
No feet pain! ( exception of cute shoes rubbing blisters...but that doesnt count!)
One class is upstairs and I can get there without heavy breathing!
I see my reflection and am not appauled...I dont stick out like a huge fat girl anymore....just  a big girl. I look normal in comparision to others. Sure I am still way over weight but I dont have that waddle when I walk. LOL
Today without thinking about it I wore a black cotton sundress, and some cute flats...no spanx just a pair of cotton bikini undies..which are sooo cute! I walked in the heat all morning...temp was 106 in car at 11am....and it hit me...no fatty thigh rubbing action causing horrible pain. Yeah they still touch...and will for a  long time but I can throw on a dress and head out the door now...my fat girl friends know what I mean here!!!! What a bitch it used to be  to wear a dress in the heat without short,s spanx or something to stop that brutal sweating and rubbing  on my thighs who seem to be best friends and cant get enough of each other..LOL Not anymore!!!
Have a good day! I am!
Shannon


2.6 cc in a 4cc band

Aug 22, 2007

Got a pretty big fill today. So far feels great! I have had about 4 oz of broth and about 4 oz of protein drink and I feel full. Not shakey at all.
I had gained a pound but I am ok as I am down from a size 24 to an 18ish.

I did a TNT cardio high intense work out for an hour this am before my fill. It kicked my butt!

Tomorrow is my first day of college. I am so excited!!!!!!

It is finally feeling really official!

Aug 20, 2007

I went to college today and bought my books ( 380 bucks! thanks school loans :) and got my student ID. It felt so official. It was like...wow I am totally doing this!
I have not completed my degree because I was too fat and too self conscious. I did not complete it because I was in bed 14-16 hours a day. Yeap that is not a joke...I worked 8 hours and slept the rest. I was so exhausted. Now I know it was because of diabetes symptoms. I totally was doing everything the opposite of what I needed for my body. Not on purposes of course, it just happened that way.
Now I am a full time student finishing a degree, a full time employee at a job I love, losing weight after weight loss surgery and feeling on top of the world.
I have told myself everyday that I hated exercise for as long as I can remember. I didnt know that I really might have liked it if only I tried it.  Now I am using a personal trainer (only once so far but will sign up in less than a month for a 3 month stent when loan money gets here) working out with a ball, dvd and weights at home and swimming laps/ running in the pool everyday.
I really like it. I mean I really LIKE it. All this time I loathed exercise but now that I am looking at it as..I have to move everyday I can pick the activity and I have many things to choose from...just move. Dance, walk, run, swim....MOVE.
Wow!
I went to doc office to check my appt today and got weighed. The scale said 254. I was happy! I mean it sucks that I had wls and the scale says I have only lost 20 something pounds in the last four months...but finally I get it! I have gained strength, self esteem, no saggy skin so far, and I feel great!
So to my friend, Chris, who seems to be right with me with the loss....we are doing great. So we havent lost 100 lbs like our RNY sisters. But we have CHANGED our minds, our bodies and souls...and that means our weight loss will last a lifetime!

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