At 12 years old I was raped by a stranger and didn't really talk about it until I was 21 years old. After being raped I tried everything I could to hide myself from the eyes of others at all cost and what it costed me was the ability to trust or have faith in anything or anyone. I hadn't told anyone of my rape till I was around 21 years old. Holding it in for a while of course made my life very hard which not only lead to me gaining weight, but I know have mental health issues also. I tired getting WLS in 2005 and I got down to within 5 pounds of getting a date when I changed jobs and lost my insurance. Today I am 32 years old and I finally am able to get insurance for myself thanks to our president Mr. Obama which is called PCIP which every states has for those who has been turned down by other insurance companies for having pre existing health issues. I am know going through Alta Bates hospital in order o have either Gastric bypass or the gastric sleeve. I have been through alot in my life but I am thankful for now being able to finally live the life I was meant to live and I will be doing this with my lord and savior jesus christ on my side and making life better for my daughter Danae Maryland who I love so much and I will be able to do things with her as she gets older. I think it took this long for me because I finally needed to realize that even though others have hurt me in the past doing what I did to myself didn't hurt them it hurted me and I will never hurt myself like that any longer. And that is why I know for a fact that WLS will work for me because I am finally going to make sure I live my life to the fullest and I WILL NEVER BE FAT AGAIN, I never wanted to be and that is why I will never be again.