an amazing moment and point in my life

Feb 27, 2013

well, i know i have been in therapy for a long time, but i never admitted i was an emotional eater. my therapist kept saying bored is an emotion. so on so forth. the other day i had a break down in my car as i was driving to pick up my Chinese food order...for earlier my husband and i had a small spat/talk. and i was upset. and i thought to myself after i got the food....wow..i am an emotional eater not just when i am bored. and i opened my mind up to to see when i eat; bored, happy, sad, lazy, "not paying attention", etc. i skipped on recording my food for about 12 days on MFP. and i decided to record for that day after everything i ate to see how much i was eating because to be honest...i gained 14 pounds back. ugh. anyway here are my shameful stats for the day.

calories,carbs,fat,protein,sugar

see what i mean by shameful. i know it is...now i am wondering have i eaten like this the last 12 days!?!?! i know i didn't eat to that extreme, but i know i at probably roughly 3,000... anyway i started recording again 3 days ago. my goal is 1,000-1,200 a day and i have been getting there its about 1,400 a day, i cant go from one extreme to another in a snap. also allow 1 "cheat day" a week. why did i put that in quotes. well because its going to be a moderated cheat day, not a gun-ho splurge. like yesterday was my cheat day (my husbands and i always have 1 date a week) instead of 1,400 i at 1,800 which isn't too bad. also i started exercising!!!! not much cause i don't want to make my disease flare up too much. but a simple walk around the block and 2 minutes of crunches/sit ups (i did 103!!! go me!) and my husband is doing the simple things with me also because he has a foot injury. and i am going to start my yoga again.

so now for the surprising moment. i was laying in bed and my hubby and i were talking he says..why don't we get the boflex tred climber? i was like i would love too!!! i want that machine so bad, i have been thinking about it for a couple months. but i told him i want that to be my small goal machine. he said why. i said because the max weight is 300 pounds...i am 340 i want to get to 280 before getting it so i know i don't break the machine. i said can we get it when i do depending if our financial standing is good? he said yes :) i love that man!

sorry for this being rambley and long. when i am sick, i make less sense than i do normally.

~Shawna w.

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