3 MONTHS OUT AND FEELING BRAND NEW!!!

Jan 15, 2011

I'm sooo loving my decision to have RNY. I never would have thought that 60 pounds would make such a big difference in life. I returned back to work on 12/20 after being out since my surgery.  I swear it was the best feeling to see everyone's reaction, some people didnt even recognize me @ 1st. I'm down to a sz 10 pants-medium tops and dresses frm a 16/18 pre-op size...and 178 lbs frm 238 lbs. I love shopping and enjoy knowing I can go into any store and find whatever I want. No more banishing myself to the plus sized section of any store. I love the attention I get as well. Overall I feel so much better and know that my quality of life is better as well. I've also went on my 1st date since my ex and in discussing what out likes and dislikes were in other people, he made it known that he doesn't date "fat" women or ones who he feels have nothing going on for theirselves.  I still have days where the "fat girl" mindset takes over and I know it takes time for the minds perception to catch up with the body's appearance.  I sat there for a minute and then thought about it. If he's telling my this and @ the same time saying we need to go out again then I'm obviously not one of those fat women he's finds unattractive anymore. . . (ego boost!)  I still know in the back of my mind that 3 mnths ago things would have panned out differently--but I'm the same person fat or not who loves herself and life so much more now.  My 2nd WOW moment happened while signing my son @ school and one of his friends said out loud "Jay, is that your mama? Your mama looks GOOOD!!! I tld him thanks and left the school. Flash back 3 years ago when my son was in the 4th grade my son was suspended from school for punching a kid in his class for blurting out I was fat in their classroom one day dropped him off. The feelings then in relation to how I feel now are on complete opposite ends of my mental spectrum now. RNY got me here and I love it. I go back to my dr for my 6 mnth followup in March and cant wait to see what my progress will be then.  I have about 40 more lbs to go until I reach my goal weight and when I do I'm one way to Jamaica Mon!!!!!  

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