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HI IM SHELLY AND I'M ABOUT TO TURN 30 AT THE END OF THE MONTH AND I'M ALSO HAVING GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY THIS MONTH TOO. I HAVE TO ADMIT I'M REALLY NERVOUS THAT SOMETHING MAY GO WRONG BUT I'M VERY HOPEFULL THAT THINGS WILL WORK OUT JUST FINE.
I DIDN'T START GAINING WEIGHT UNTIL I WAS 9 AFTER MY PARENTS DIVORCE. AT AGE 14 I WAS BETWEEN A SIZE 12-14 AND BELIEVE ME I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO BE THAT SIZE AGAIN...LOL(IF I ONLY KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW). BY THE TIME I WAS 18 I WAS ON MY WAY TO REACHING 200 POUNDS AND BY 21 I EXCEDED 220 POUNDS. I AM NOW 29 GOING ON 30 AND I'M NEARLY CLOSE ENOUGH TO FEEL THAT 300 MARK CREEPING UP ON ME. WELL I'M NOT ABOUT TO LET THAT HAPPEN! OVER THE PAST 10 YEARS I HAVE BEEN DIETING AND LOSING AND GAINING AND RECENTLY IT JUST WON'T GO ANYWHERE SO AFTER CAREFUL CONSIDERATION AGAIN(I'LL GET TO THAT IN A MOMENT) I'VE DECIDED TO REALLY GO THROUGH WITH THE SURGERY. THE REASON I SAY AGAIN IS BECAUSE I CHICKENED OUT THE FIRST TIME ABOUT 2 YEARS AGO BECAUSE I WAS SO SCARED THAT I WOULD BE THE ONE THAT WOULD DIE FROM HAVING THIS SURGERY. YEAH I KNOW IT SOUNDS NEGATIVE BUT I REALIZED THAT BY ME JUST SITTING HERE AND TRYING MYSELF AND NOT GETTING ANY RESULTS AND I DEFINATELY CAN FEEL MY HEALTH DETERIORATING THAT I'M JUST ASKING FOR AN EARLY DATE WITH DEATH AND I DON'T WANT THAT. I'VE BEEN THROUGH ALOT OF HEARTACHE IN THE PAST AND I'M JUST BEGINNING TO KNOW THE REAL ME AND THE REAL ME WANTS TO BE HEALTHY AND HAPPY. I KNOW BY GETTING THIS SURGERY IT'S GOING TO GIVE ME MY CONFIDENCE BACK AND SET ME BACK ON THE RIGHT TRACK OF LIFE. LIKE I SAID I AM REALLY NERVOUS BUT THATS WHY I JOINED THIS SITE TO GET ADVICE AND LEARN FROM PEOPLE THAT HAVE ALREADY GONE THROUGH WITH IT AND LEARN WITH THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN THE SAME BOAT AS ME. SO WISH ME LUCK BECAUSE MY SURGERY DATE IS .... NOVEMBER 22ND(YES THE DAY BEFORE THANKSGIVING...YEAH I KNOW HOW CRUEL IS THAT...LOL) AND I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO GET IT OVER WITH SO I CAN START LIVING MY LIFE AS THE NEW AND IMPROVED AND MUCH MORE HEALTHIER ME.
