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I know it has been a long while since I have been here, HOWEVER, I am alive and HEALTHY! I do feel like a million and I am so in LOVE with my DS. I reached my goal of 165lbs YAY!!!! So total lost, 336llb-165lbs 171lbs gone forever!!! WELL almost minus 10lb bounce up and down, sometimes 12lbs, lol.. 

Yup I am 3 years out and have changed my life. I dont have the terrible diabetes, or ANY of the problems I did at 336lbs. I thank god every day for my life. I can live with battling 10-12 lbs, but that is my limit. 

 

And  we are plucking away. Life is going and for the first time ever in mylife I don't have to worry about my weight. So much more free time to handle other issues, it is amazing. I am still ever so thankful...'

HAPPY SURGIVERSARY TO ME!!!!!

Today I am  134lbs lighter today then I was 1 year ago, and 190lbs since I started my WLS journey.....
My list has been completed for the year.

1. Cross Legs, done
2. Lose my diabetes, done!
3. Shock and amaze myself, and other's, done!
4. Outlast my boys on running, DONE!
5. Ride rollercoaster's, DONE!
6. Feeling socially accepted, DONE!
7. Wereing a seatbelt comfortably, DONE!
8. Were fashiona designer clothing, DONE!
9. Joint pain, GONE!
10. Feeling fabulous, first time ever, daily, DONE!
11. NO More heart burn, DONE!
12. No more High Cholestoral, DONE!
13.Dealing with Low BP, first time ever, accepted.
14. Looking younger, DONE!
15. Feeling full of life, DONE!
16. Finding all my hidden bones, DONE!
17. Feeling worth it, DONE!
18. Finally feeling like hard work paid off, even feeling guilty it was not so hard as I worked before DS, DONE!
19. Accepting obesity is a disease, and no my fault alone, DONE!
20. More compassion towards others dealing with this disease, DONE!
21. Commitment even stronger to educating other's, DONE!
22. Having my 16 year old picking me up and finally being called skinny, DONE!
23. Just waking up gratful that this miracle has happen to me, DONE!!!
24. Being able to seat on an airplane without the extender belt, DONE!
25. Not having to feel that I have to defend myself for who I am, DONE!
26. Learning to depend more on my family, (it was a big issue) SUCCESS!
27. Learning a new way to lead a fulfilling life at a smaller size, DONE!
28. Looking forward with a smile to whatever comes my way, DONE!
29. Loving the idea I will be living alot longer then once predicted, DONE,SUCCESS!!
30. Remembering that life is really to short, and I have to go back to my party now...

Take care all!!!
   )XXX(

I PROUDLY POST THIS MESSAGE ON MY PROFILE> THIS IS AVAILABLE FOR ANYONE BEING CALLED A QUITTER> THANK YOU WILLIAM< A PROUD DS MIRACLE.

Post Date: 4/14/09 5:54 pm
Last Edit: 4/14/09 5:55 pm
I have been reading a lot lately people posting about being judged and looked down upon for "taking the easy way out". The following is simply my opinion about how to approach that mentality.

When I get my duodenal switch (you may enter your chosen WLS here) I hope I do discover it is the easy way out. If the "correct" way, the hard way is mindlessly dieting and exercising with minimal results and a 95 to 98% failure rate of keeping the weight off then frankly you can stick that up your ass. I've done that for too long. Yeah, give my big-o-fat butt the easy highway cause I've ridden this rutted, potholed and broken boulevard for way too many miles. You can call me a quitter, a weakling, a person with no will power. You can call me Santa Freaking Claus if you want. I will never ever give a rat's ass what you call me. But in 20+ years from now I want you to call me something you would have never been able to call me before weight loss surgery. Call me ALIVE!  

I really can not believe it has been 11 months, 12 days already. I have proclaimed May 2, 2008 my new birthday. My life has changed in all ways and it was like a earthquake shifted through the crust plates of my life. Some bad, but mostly all good. I can not beleive I am here today more healthy then I have been in all my life.


I am so happy with my DS. I could have never gotten this second chance, or shall I say in my case, the first chance to live a live that wake up every morning, thankful that I am ME, and not wishing I could trade places with someone else.

I love me. I am so very proud of me. I know I worked hard for this. And I am the one who is reaping ALL the benefits. I love being me!!!!!!

F I N A L L Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*** Saw a few of my friends the other day, and the  most "wow" moment, as far as dealing with people , is that I am the one that they envy. I had not seen them for 3 years, and they almost had heart attacks! Calling me, Skinny, and Fabulous, and Model type, and whoo whoo whoo....

I have had so many compliments on my looks, that if they were to stop tomorrow, if would be enough for 3 lifetimes.

At first, I just would sshhh people when they made a big deal over me. Now, I just say thank you, and think to myself, "Honey, it has been a long time coming! But don't envy me, it has been a rough road and if only you knew, you would think twice." As they tell me I look like so and so or who ever, totally flattering, and I appreciate it just the same. Makes me laugh to, so 2 for 1.

I plan on throwing myself a big birthday bash here in Las Vegas for my first surgiversary. I love parties, and I love that it is in honor of my new life!

I LOVE MY DS!

More to come next month, my 1st surgivesary.....

Keeping us fat and making us sick. How many people 20 years ago did you know who were "Lactose" intolerate, or evern severly "obese"? Now, obesity, lactose intorate, cancer and sluth of other diseases are abundant. But why? We are chemically induced to our death beds... Add  all the crap that is in our enviroment, there you have a toxic distruction.


As I have been researching some very important issues. I can't control everything, but I have banned, yet again, the processed food supply. I admit, I almost fell into the old idea, that if I don't eat alot of it, it is not  harming me much.
BOY I HAVE been lyinh to myself! I got my family back on track. All natural, not processed, or l should say, as little as processed as possible, you really can't 100% get away from it, but you can come close, :).
We got back to basic's. We get our meat, dairy, fruits and veggies from the farm. Where the cows and chicken's are vegetable feed, and not by- product feed and no hormones, or antibotics, pesticide chemicals. It is all natural.  And get it delivered to my door, lol...

David just  got word from the Dr.'s confirming that MOST people are not lactose intolerate, they are intolerate of the chemicals they use to mass produce our food. And so we put this to the test. Whenever he would drink a glass of "regular" skim milk, right away, he would start getting upset tummy. When he drank a cup of farm fresh milk, skim, he had NO reaction at all. Proving, what I am sure, we kinda all realize, that it IS in the food.

For my weightloss, I am more thankful then anyone could ever truly know, but no I have come back down from cloud nine, and trying to keep, get everyone back on track. Now, it is the back to natural foods, and wow I am glad to be.                                                                                                             


 I do not have a problem with my food. I don't over eat anything, but all that I have learn, and live before surgery are now coming together nicely.
I am almost 11 months out, I am 165, respectfully. Total lost from surgery, 125lbs. I can not even beleive it. But I am very thankful. I never take it for granted.

If you have questions on all natural foods, let me know. If you are in NV,AZ, or UT, you can order this service for yourself, or you can see if there is a fresh farm in your area.
Go to www.winderfarms.com


Golden Rules that I live by:
110 grams of protein, no excuses
<75 grams of crabs, less is so better
Vitamins, 3 times a day.
80 oz of fluid, mostly water.
EXCERCISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Walk it, Clap it, Snap it, Dance it, work that butt off!!!!

Those are MY keys to success. You can argue with me, but you can't argue with my result's.


So I start my days like this:

Water, 16.9 with morning vitamins. 2 scoops of Bannana Scream, I do a 4 oz shot. Then I eat 1/3 cup of oatmeal, or I eat 2 slices of bacon and 1 egg. I am always switching it up.

Do power dance for 15 minutes to get the cardio up.
Or something like jump roping or jogging in place.
That is my moiring routine.

 Drink my sf juice/ water all day.l

Lunch time:

Pure patty from the farm, grilled onions. I always switch the times, and the food, but it is all protein at this point of the day, total carb count is 13 and I have consumed 68 grams of protein for the day, and more then half way at goal for fluid.

Go to the chiroprator, work out with trainer.

Drinking the whole day.
Another 2 scoop 4 oz shot of Banana Scream, to help heal wih L-C to replace the muscles.

Dinner,
Protein, 1 starch, I always weigh this out, I use 1/3 cup, and never more. Fruit idesert or fiber cerel or if I made a desert, that is where my carbs come in. So I stay with in my goal.

Total goals met for the day?
All.
I don't know how much more I can tell you, other then don't give up on your goals, never stop fighting, but never let WLS get to your head that it is an easy fix. Yeah, I took a little vacation for a few months, and God knows I needed it, but now I am focused and on track.
Never give up!!!!

I am still kicking. And takin names, lol.. The fight might have stoped for losing the weight, but everything else in life kicked up. So off I ride to be the mighty musketeer, and the hero of the year to save the day. I have a couple of pretty huge lawsuits going on, just to prove to the family you don't let no one kick you down, and let them get away with it, if you did the crime, do the time. It is all about principles.

So, weight wise, I am finally glad to say I have made it to gaol, at 9 months out. I am 165lbs. Size 10, 12, depending and meduim, large tops, and a 36 C cup bra. I never thought I would really be here, but I am thankful.

I LOVE MY DS....
And I hate to say this, but I will anyway, I have done it while not being very strong health coatuious on what I eat. I just have my 5 oz 3 times a day plus to snacks, lots of water, vitamins, and excercise. I do not restrict myself at all. So yes, I have lost my weight by way of protein, fat, and snicker's, lol... With twizller bits, and sherbert.

Thank God for the miracle of science and the good dr's able to carry through.
I have not had any compliations, except for mentally.
I was upset at first at how easy this was to finally loss the weight, then I was mad at people for noticing my weight loss, came to grips on that, and can accept it, but now, I am on a I really hate men trip.

I feel almost responsible for their glances and come on's, to the point where I don't want to encourage them in any way. I have even dressed up bull dyke like just to avoid these pigs.

And at the end of the day, I know I am not responsible for how other's preceive me. It was only like that. Just the difference is, I don't have an extra 130 lbs to back me up, so I fear that men veiw me, now of the weaker, and they thank they can "smooze" over me, and they think it is acceptable.

So I have had to find a "new" protective me. I use to use my weight, plus my attitude. Now, I just have straight attitude. So I come off a bit bitter, along with a hate men attitude, and so far, it work's. I have never had to hang on my husband arm for "protection" in public, and this is the first time in LIFE I feel like I really need him to protect me from the weirdo's of the world.. this is not good for me, being I have OCD beyond, so giving up this control is hard.
No one going to clubs, night clubs or social event's along, as I so gallantly did in my BFDS day's, (before duodenal switch)... Ok, it is a learning experiance, and I am still transforming.

That is really the only down side to this. Some people may think "poor thing" get over it, but REALLY it is the core issue. My sense of security is blown, and dependency never looked good on me. I hate being veiw as temid and weak.

Other then that, I still won't allow myself to shop. Although I love my size 10 Old Navy "flirt" jeans. It really is hard to find anything that fit's right.  So I say wait a little bit more. I have had to by something's, so alot of sexy stuff I do own, **giggle**, David loves it.
I have had so many people not reconize me, and I love it. That thrills me. I was talking to David friend, whom I had not seen for 2 years, and I am just yacking away.
He later turns to David and say's "That pretty girl over there is talking to me like she know's me or something.." David says, "Dude, that is Shirley!" He almost fainted. LOL> I get a kick out those things.
I finally went to DMV. I had to. The picture is not me any longer. I really cannot get over it. I really look different. I never imagined I would look so different or feel so dam good!
Unitl the next time,
See ya all later!
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And only 10 lbs to goal..... Feeling great and having my first even taylored made vogue dress for the AVN awards and Sex expo is over the top.... Loving my life!

So my JT bunkle broke his wrist. Sucks, he broke my perfect record to, of not having any children break anything, lol...

I was able to meet my Gina, Jill and Pat. Girls, it was great!

Got a personal trainer this week. I got the best deal. It is good to have friends.. I am with a private gym now with my trainer 3 times a week. I thought I was doing good with my cardio, weight lifting and dancing.. Aw, no think again... When you have a trainer that is good, man, there is no way I will "get" comfortable". Can we say "sore"!!!  And that, is good because you want your body to be challenged. Otherwise, you don't continue to burn the most calories.

Other then going to my chrio, work and gym, I don't have alot of time to play.But I was able to go dancing for the first time since surgery, out in da club last saturday..
I was super sexy dancing the lastest club dances. We danced for 6 hours straight, and I could not get enough. I am so pumped.......

Well, all for now..

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