shirextc
Welllllllll...Mmm...Yeah.
Feb 21, 2009
I am still kicking. And takin names, lol.. The fight might have stoped for losing the weight, but everything else in life kicked up. So off I ride to be the mighty musketeer, and the hero of the year to save the day. I have a couple of pretty huge lawsuits going on, just to prove to the family you don't let no one kick you down, and let them get away with it, if you did the crime, do the time. It is all about principles.So, weight wise, I am finally glad to say I have made it to gaol, at 9 months out. I am 165lbs. Size 10, 12, depending and meduim, large tops, and a 36 C cup bra. I never thought I would really be here, but I am thankful.
I LOVE MY DS....
And I hate to say this, but I will anyway, I have done it while not being very strong health coatuious on what I eat. I just have my 5 oz 3 times a day plus to snacks, lots of water, vitamins, and excercise. I do not restrict myself at all. So yes, I have lost my weight by way of protein, fat, and snicker's, lol... With twizller bits, and sherbert.
Thank God for the miracle of science and the good dr's able to carry through.
I have not had any compliations, except for mentally.
I was upset at first at how easy this was to finally loss the weight, then I was mad at people for noticing my weight loss, came to grips on that, and can accept it, but now, I am on a I really hate men trip.
I feel almost responsible for their glances and come on's, to the point where I don't want to encourage them in any way. I have even dressed up bull dyke like just to avoid these pigs.
And at the end of the day, I know I am not responsible for how other's preceive me. It was only like that. Just the difference is, I don't have an extra 130 lbs to back me up, so I fear that men veiw me, now of the weaker, and they thank they can "smooze" over me, and they think it is acceptable.
So I have had to find a "new" protective me. I use to use my weight, plus my attitude. Now, I just have straight attitude. So I come off a bit bitter, along with a hate men attitude, and so far, it work's. I have never had to hang on my husband arm for "protection" in public, and this is the first time in LIFE I feel like I really need him to protect me from the weirdo's of the world.. this is not good for me, being I have OCD beyond, so giving up this control is hard.
No one going to clubs, night clubs or social event's along, as I so gallantly did in my BFDS day's, (before duodenal switch)... Ok, it is a learning experiance, and I am still transforming.
That is really the only down side to this. Some people may think "poor thing" get over it, but REALLY it is the core issue. My sense of security is blown, and dependency never looked good on me. I hate being veiw as temid and weak.
Other then that, I still won't allow myself to shop. Although I love my size 10 Old Navy "flirt" jeans. It really is hard to find anything that fit's right. So I say wait a little bit more. I have had to by something's, so alot of sexy stuff I do own, **giggle**, David loves it.
I have had so many people not reconize me, and I love it. That thrills me. I was talking to David friend, whom I had not seen for 2 years, and I am just yacking away.
He later turns to David and say's "That pretty girl over there is talking to me like she know's me or something.." David says, "Dude, that is Shirley!" He almost fainted. LOL> I get a kick out those things.
I finally went to DMV. I had to. The picture is not me any longer. I really cannot get over it. I really look different. I never imagined I would look so different or feel so dam good!
Unitl the next time,
See ya all later!
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Las Vegas, NV
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23.7
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Surgery
05/02/2008
Surgery Date
Jun 08, 2007
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