Reflections

Oct 21, 2010

Well, I am almost four months out. I will have my check-up on Nov. 3rd. I have been kind of lax in blogging, but there is not much happening in my life right now. The weight is coming off slowly, but surely. I guess I have been expecting this big dramatic change in my life, a sort of "aha" moment.  I guess I figured I would wake up one day, and everything would be different. But, it is not. I still struggle with eating. In fact, I feel like it is worse the further I get out. Some of the things I could eat after surgery, I can't eat anymore. I can't have bread, rice, or anything greasy, including sauces or dressings. I guess this is a great thing, considering these are the things that caused my weight gain. But, realistically, it is a struggle to find stuff to eat. If I were cooking, it would be much better, but I am hardly home and always eating on the go. Ironically, my body has not adverse reaction to sugar. Needless to say, I am living off McDonald's tea, sometimes sweet, sometimes unsweet with Equal.

Also, I have come to realize how much food was a panacea, or universal cure-all for me, until I could no longer eat. I thought this surgery would be the answer to all my problems, since I blamed most everything on the weight. However, now that the weight is going away, the problems are still here. So for people who have a mindset like me and looking for this surgery to cure all, it is not. You still have to deal with yourself and your underlying issues. It is only a tool, and it should be used as such.

On a better note. The weight is coming off. It may not be as quickly as I would like, but it is coming off. I am down almost 60 pounds in four months, so I have nothing to complain about. I just need to get in the gym and tone up this new body. 

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Montgomery, AL
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38.1
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RNY
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07/01/2010
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Mar 12, 2009
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