7 pounds until 400 total lost pounds...

Jul 11, 2011

 Wow!!  When I look back and see the journey it seems as if it sped by!  It is now 18 and a half months since surgery.  I lost 120 before surgery... but still!!!  I look back at my before pictures and almost want to cry! I still have a journey ahead of me, and in many ways I think this part of it will be the toughest yet, but I am still pushing forward.  Hopefully next year I will be rejoicing when I finally hit my final goal!  My mini goal is to hit 250 by the end of July.  I am 2 pounds away from it!  I am setting my next goal after that to be at 225 by Christmas! 5 pounds a month... I think I can do it!  I am much more active than I ever have been in my life.  I am thinking about starting up a tap dance class at a local dance studio, and I am doing water aerobics at least 3 times a week!  Dad is even getting in on becoming active by walking at least 30 minutes every morning with me!  I can tolerate the heat here in San Antonio much more than I ever could before, and I find it drives me crazy when I don't have anything to do all day.  I HAVE to do something!

Well, happy losing everyone.  Hope to post that 400 lost achievement soon!!!

-Sarah
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New Tummy!!

Mar 08, 2011

 I officially had my panniculectomy on Feb. 22nd.  Hoo boy was I not prepared.  It is not a bend you over in pain type of feeling, but just a slow burn after the surgery.  MUCH different than my bypass which felt just like I had done too many sit-ups. The doctor had to call in another surgeon to help with the surgery and I am happy to report there were no complications, and they finished ahead of the 6-8 hours they thought the surgery would take.  It only took 5 hours!  I was in the hospital for a day and a half and most of that second day was waiting for me to pee. LOL.  They would not release me until I did.  I couldnt drink enough and stay awake long enough to get up the urge LOL.  Relaxing after the surgery right now, but I plan to get back up to Montreal within the next month!!!  I can't wait to see my love again.  I am missing him much more than I should! :p  I have to wear this damned girdle which- because my legs are still quite big, keeps rolling up on the legs.  I HATE it!  But walking without it hurts, so it must be worn.  All in all I am happy I had this surgery done.  Not having a hanging stomach is so foreign and amazing!!  I am already down to 282 pounds!!!  Dr. Lomonaco said they removed 24 pounds of skin and tissue from my stomach alone!!  Well, if there are any questions, just let me know-  I will try and answer them the best I can!

-Sarah
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Surgery on the 19th

Jan 13, 2011

 Jan 19th, 2011 I hopefully will undergo the first of 3 plastic surgeries.  This one for my stomach skin and hernia.  I am both nervous and excited.  One more step towards feeling normal.  Simon stayed up in Canada as he can not take too much time off from work, however my family and friends are all coming around me for support and help.  Dr. Lomonaco will be doing the surgery and isn't pussyfooting around the fact that it is major surgery.  So any extra prayers and well wishes are needed and appreciated.  I will post updates as I can!  Oh, and before after pics too :p
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Changing my goal weight!!

Nov 25, 2010

 Now that I am closer than ever before to my goal weight-  I think its time to re-evaluate it.   A healthy weight range for someone my height is 139-174.  I placed my goal at 175.  This was me thinking "yeah right,  I will NEVER get to this".  But, now that it is totally in reach of the next year... I am thinking I should set my sights a bit lower.  So I am changing my goal weight to 150 even.  If I stay at this weight, depends on A) if I can even get there, and B) if I look healthy at this weight.  Since I have never been this weight as either a teenager or adult, I have no idea what I will look like.  So if all of a sudden my weight to lose ticker just got MUCH bigger, dont fret... I didn't gain weight.  I gained confidence!!
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One year!!!

Nov 17, 2010

 Phew, one year down!!!  It has passed by so fast!  I am excited about the future, proud of the past, and trying to do my best in the present.  I am learning as much as I can about healthy nutrition, modifying recipes, and exercise.  Life is changing in good ways.  Having the surgery isn't getting me 100% of the way to goal, I do have to pick up my big girl pants and track on, however it has given me the needed boost to rocket me towards goal faster than without it.  So for today, I am going to be as proud of myself as possible!  (oh and I stepped on the scale, lost another pound!)  319 baby!  Woot!

So here's to happy losing!!

<3
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"friends"

Nov 06, 2010

 Wow am I ever PISSED.  I posted some new pictures on my facebook page last night that I was proud of... ones of what I look like normal and all dolled up.  My supposedly "best friend" decided it was ok to post that I was vain and that they look nothing like me.  Considering the pictures were taken in the mirror... and yes, my glasses are off, should mean that it is in fact ME!!!  Jealousy rears its ugly head.  This was a day after her comment about how she HATES that I am smaller than her "on top".  A dig aimed towards my insecurity of losing my bust line-  but being incredibly smaller than she.  AND I am smaller than her everywhere... she wears a size 28/30 and I am now comfortably in 24s.  I even weigh less than her.  I was warned that my bigger friends may react like this... but i genuinely thought she cared about me.  She of all people knows how depressed I had been and how far my life has come.  This these types of catty remarks are more than pissing me off, they are making me want to write her off from my entire life.  

Just so you see what I mean, I will repost the pictures in an album on here.  (As well as some newer body shots).

I will not let this set me back... if anything I will push forward and be even thinner than she is.  So stick THAT in your pipe and smoke it.  

"Vain!"  I can't believe she called me that... I have HATED my looks for so long, and I am FINALLY liking what I am looking like and I get that as a public broadcast on my facebook page.  GRRRRRRR.
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Back to reality...

Oct 31, 2010

 What a huge and eventful week!!!  Besides all the eating I did with friends I had a blast!!  I found if I kept busy I didn't munch all day... which I seem to do at home.  Talking about home... I was stopped by immigration on the way back into Canada.  Sigh.  I am still on my first 6 months travel visa but I have to go back in Jan.  Which is when I planned on having my stomach surgery anyways... so it kinda works out.  When I come back up I need to re-apply for another 6 months travel visa.  OR I need to go ahead and apply for citizenship.  This has me extremely nervous.  I want to stay up here with my honey for good!  But I am nervous of them saying "no" .  I would be absolutely devastated if we were to be separated for a long period again.  He is home to me... without him... well I don't even want to think of it!  So that is my new project.  I am filling out the paperwork and studying the booklet to become a citizen.  Wish me luck!!

On a side note, I lost 10 pounds while in TX!!!  I think it was the amount of activity I did and the lack of graze eating as well!!  I will try and keep more active.  I saw a commercial for a nordi-track treadmill that I was really really interested in... will keep ya'll posted as to whether or not I buy the thing.  Here is a link to it!!
 http://www.nordictrack.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/Product2_12401_10301_127103_-1_19051

Happy Halloween.... happy because it's over!!!  Now on to my little Thanksgiving!!!

<3 Sarah
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San Antonio trip 10/2010

Oct 27, 2010

 UGH UGH UGH is all I can say about the trip down here!

SImon and I drove to Burlington VT, so as to escape the international costs of air fare.  Well this SEEMED like a good idea at first.  Apparently the wonderfully brilliant people there scheduled two planes to arrive and depart our gate at the SAME time.  So they announced over the intercom that whichever flight got in first would be boarded and departing first, THEN they would allow the second to come in.  When they come in they have to first let those passengers off and then clean the plane.  Needless to say, we got onto our light an hour and 20 something minutes late... THEN we sat on the tarmac for whatever reason.  It is a 50 minute flight to Newark, my destination, and we had barely gotten off the ground at 7pm.  My connecting flight was supposed to leave Newark at 7:35pm... Yeah, I missed it before I even had a chance to catch it.  Why they didnt allow that plane to come in at another gate... which both of the gates next to the one we were at were completely empty the entire time...is beyond me!!!  
So I get to Newark and we sit on the tarmac there too... there was a baggage truck thing in the way... sigh... I go see customer service and they say since it was a Sunday there were limited flights.  That one I missed was the LAST one to San Antonio.  I would have to wait until tomorrow-  and wouldn't you know it... they are all booked until 7:30 the NEXT evening.  But, they told me that airport had no amenities for me... meaning I was SOL.  Oh no no no no no  NOOOOO.  When you are facing a situation like this... do as I did and become a BIG BITCH.  It was their fault... I had my plastic surgery appt. the next morning in Houstn at 10am.  That appt. was scheduled 6 months prior... I demanded to speak with a supervisor.  She got me a flight to HOUSTON (instead of San Antonio) which was set to leave in 25 minutes.  I had not had anything to eat, drink, and I hadnt even had a chance to go tinkle at this point... I said FINE... give it to me.  I had to call my father who drove up to Houston at midnight to bring me my car for the next day.  He drove back down with the friend who caravaned up there with him.  I had to book a hotel for that night as well...   
OH!  I didn't get to the really good part... they LOST my luggage.  When I arrived in Houston my bag was no where to be found.  They didnt even have it in their system!!!  After many phone calls later it arrived in San Antonio the following evening.  
Some good points about the day I got into TX... My Dad was at the airport and he almost walked right by me.  He said he didnt recognize me!  When I saw my best friend, she was said, "OMG  you are getting skinny, you bitch!"  LOL.  When I was sitting on the couch... my friend Annie told me that I looked tiny sitting there... I have NEVER in my life been told I was tiny, skinny, or anything like that LOL...  I still have a lot to lose... but in my friends' eyes they can't believe the difference.  I loaded a pre surgery picture my friend Christina had taken for me... 

OH!  and about the seats... I did need an extension for the seat belt  and it was a snug fit... but i was reasonably comfortable.  No one gave me ugly looks, i wasn't spilling into my neighbors seat, and more importantly the stewardess didnt throw me off the plane!!  My anxiety was relieved -  I am glad I didn't cancel my trip at the last moment like I was soooo close to doing.  
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Skinny fingers!!!

Oct 07, 2010

 Today I looked down at my hands and realized that no matter HOW much tape I am using my rings just will not be able to be worn anymore unless I size them!!!

I noticed also that when I put my fingers together there are SPACES!  no longer do I have chubby hands... or hands that look similar to a three year olds.  My fingers seem longer and though they probably will get even thinner I was shocked at noticing something like this! 

Anyway, had to share!

-Sarah
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Protein, protein, protein...

Oct 04, 2010

 Before the surgery I was all consumed with calories, fat grams, carbohydrates, etc... Now, now I stress over proteins.  I have noticed that my hair has gotten a LOT thinner.  The vanity in me is screaming about it... but it seems a necessary evil it seems.  I used to use a hair band that would wrap firmly around my ponytail twice!  Now its like 5-6 times and I hate pulling it back that way because the pony tail it piddly.  I will be one year out from my surgery in Nov.  I know several people have said that their hair grows back thicker after a bit, but I am wondering if this is when they get closer to their goal weight- or if it is when their weight normalizes a bit.

I will be the first to admit I had not been getting enough protein.  I just couldnt stomach the protein shakes my doctor's office sold.  I was drinking Boost high protein drinks, but even those just have 15 grams!  There is only so much I can stomach in a day!!  But now that I have been reading the forums, Joel stated there was a premier shake sold at Costco that had 30 grams of protein per shake.  I decided to try them... SURPRISE!  They are good!  I was finally able to get in 75 grams of protein in one day yesterday!!  I feel more energy and I am excited to have this in my arsenal as well!!!  

Hopefully in a couple months, the extra protein will help my  hair growth and I can rest a little easier.  I am so glad I found this online support place!!
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