7 hours 45mins to go

Jun 01, 2010

Nearly there. I am scared and nervous, but different from when my vbg op was coming up. I think because i knew that was the wrong surgery for me so iwas much more paniced. I am glad i cancelled it. I am still very scared about tomorrow but it doesntreally seem real to me at the moment.
I read posts on here about people that are excited at this stage, I am not so much excited as i am scared. I guess i have had a year and a half to get to this point, maybe that has something to do with it. I am not sure.
I get anxiety in hospitals and i am scared thati will have a panic attack in there.
I have also read posts from patients of my surgeon who say they are kept in hospital for 7 days. I think that scares me more than the operation. I am hoping for 2-3 day hospital stay, but will have to see how it goes. I also hate hate hate the IV. I will just be glad when this who hospital thing is over and I am back home recovered and working on excersiing and becoming a lot healthier.
Hopefully i will be back here soon to post about my successful surgery with hardly any pain and feeling awesome! (optimistic much?)

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