Sandra Johnson Smiddy

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This is Mark, by fiance and soon to be husband in 55 days. (August 11, 2012).

After losing over two hundred pounds...I finally found true love.

I feel good and don't regret one minute of the challenges I've encountered along my journey.  Unfortunately I've started to gain a few lbs. back...I was freaking out this morning when I weighed 156lbs.  I was down to 143lbs. in January, but I have been going through a lot of stress and I've picked up some old habits....thus why I am back here for support.  I don't want to gain one pound back so I'm on a mission to get control again.

A lot has happened since I've been on here.  Today is not the best day to blog the story, but it is a dooooosy.  If you've ever watched the movie "Bridges of Madison County"  you will know somewhat of what has happened in my life.  Please don't judge me, but allow me to tell my story, then try and understand where I come from and walk in my shoes as you read it.  I'll write it soon.

By the way......I'M HAVING PLASTICS AGAIN ON May 27th.  I'm having the skin removed from my arms and a boob job with implants.  I'm really excited about that!!!!

Well...we are about to kiss another year goodbye!  I'm still revelling in the knowledge that I've kissed 175lbs goodbye!  I hit 144lbs. this morning...hope I can maintain it.  I'm just 14lbs away from MY goal.  It is a struggle...any carb will increase the weight so I have to stay away from them.

I'm feeling great, looking good and I'm personally happy.....am I happy with everything else in my life???  I'll have to answer that another day.

Happy New Year to all!!!

Well it's been a while....thought I would drop in and see how everyone was doing.  I'm doing great.  I'm holding steady between 146 -151.  It's an up and down kind of thing.  I'm happy with it...wanted 130lbs. but my body is saying "NO" so I'm accepting it.

The family is all fine.  My son Michael just bought a house about 15 min. from us so you know I'm loving that.  My daughter Chelsie graduated this year.  Gary is doing great.  Nothing serious going on right now with his health.  I'm still lovin' my RNY.  I have had so many people notice me.  It is amazing.  For 25 years I was overweight and now that I'm thin I think I shine.  Guys notice and comment and even thought I'm not a "Ho" bag....it is fun to be flirted with or have comments made.  I went on a business trip in November and my coworkers had me a cake in the bar the night before our meetings for my b-day.   There was a guy in the bar that grabbed me up and whispered in my ear, "Happy Birthday beautiful.  I'd sure like to sleep with you tonight".  Okay so I got away quick but it felt good to hear someone say that.  Then I was shopping at my favorite store (Goodwill) the other day and a guy comes up to me and asks me if I'm sngle.  I said, "No". and he said, "Darn it, all the attractive ones are taken".  I had to chuckle but it also felt good.  Then I was pumping gas the other night and it was freezin' cold and I was on my headset talking to Gary and I must have said it loud, but I said, "Son of a biscuit, it's cold".  This young guy who appeared to be around 24 (my son's age) said, "Hey honey, my friend in the truck said he'd keep you warm".  Of course I got out of there quick too...but I love every minute of it.  It feels great to be noticed.  I tell everyone..."Who loves me more than me?"  LOL.



Happy Holiday's from the Hubbard's.

 Okay...so winter is here.  LOL...I know it isn't but geeze to a WLS patient who freezes to death it sure feels like it.  I had to wear a sweater today because yesterday I was so cold.  Well I had  a WOW moment.  All my sweaters from last winter are way to big.  There is nothing worse than having your armpits of a shirt hang down to your waist.  I didn't think I'd lost that much since last winter, but I guess I have.  I'll have to go back and look at weights to see exactly how much.

Speaking of weights...well I'm back to 151 today.  I don't like it.  I don't want to be 151...I want to be 130...okay or at least 149-150...not 151.  I know I have to relax a little about all of this...but it has been predicted by so many people that "a friend, cousin, uncle, next door neighbor, etc...has gained all their weight back.  I don't want to be that statistic.  I want to be the, "wow, a gal I work with has kept her weight off!!"  So please bare with me as I get anal again about my weight.  I've got to get this figured out.  One thing I know for sure is that I eat when I am not hungry because  hey....I never get hungry.  So I have to learn to control the eat to live not just eat whenever.  I'm even thinking councelling as my addiction to food is still here.  Just because I have lost 173lbs doesn't mean my brain changed.   

All suggestions appreciated.

Well it is still raining here.  Maybe we should start to build an arc???  It was really nice around 7pm tonight so I was looking forward to getting out in the yard tomorrow, but I just walked my friend out and it has rained again.  Guess I'm gonna have to pull out the old clothes and boots and hit it anyway.  I'm having withdrawals from working in the garden.  Plus my weeds are flourishing.  So maybe the rain will make them come up easier.  I'm going to get up early in the morning and try to get it done!!!  Wow, would I have said that a year ago?

A lot has changed since a year ago.  I look back over the last two years and I realize I am soooo blessed.  I still have 20lbs to lose and would love to have plastic surgery to feel complete, but if I do not move forward on either...I am blessed and I am a SUCCESS!!!

May you have a blessed Sunday!!

TGIF!!!  Wow this has been a long week.  I'm so glad it is Friday.  The weather has been nasty everywhere I've been since September 10th, so I'm so ready to just to hibernate.  I made a huge pot of "Hodge Podge Soup".  Well...it is really a combination of everything from my garden...green beans, tomatoes, tomatoe juice, carrots, potatoes, squash, zuchinni, spinach, cabbage, celery, and corn.  For protein I added a can of black beans, two cans of chicken breast, and  then finished it up with 2 pkgs of vegetable soup mix.  Yes...it was a huge pot so I brought in six nice bowls for the girls I work with who are on weight watches.  Then I scooped up about 14 - 1/2 cup servings for me to freeze and pull out as needed.  I had that for lunch today and it was yummy.  Very filling and good for me.  I am trying so hard to lose the remaining 19 lbs to be 130lbs, but I'm just hanging around 149-150.  I'm not ready to give up yet, but I'm wondering if I have reached the weight my body needs me to be.    COMMENT TO MY BODY:   "I JUST WANT TO BE 130LBS FOR ONE DAY PLEASE.  THANK YOU!!!!!

Tomorrow is the Apple Festival in Lebanon.  My friend and I always go.  We love the crafty things.  I'm not buying this year though...I'm just looking for ideas and then I'm coming home and making up my own stuff.    I'm going to make as many gifts as I can this year.  It is fun to look and walk, walk, walk.

My son is getting married on August 28th, 2010 so you know I am excited to be wering a size 10 dress!  While we were on vacation my son made the comment "I'm so glad that you get to be skinny for my wedding."  My children understand how I felt being in a body that weighed 320lbs.  I was kind of trapped there for so long.  It is so excited to finally be released.

Have a great weekend!!!

Happy "Hump" Wednesday.  Two more work days!!!

Still at 149lbs. this morning.  I put on a pair of jeans that I couldn't get into two weeks ago and they fit.  A friend gave me some (non-stretch) 8-10's and whoo hoo...I can get them on and they fit great.  I wore them today with the cuffs turned up (remember when we did that years ago) either it is in style or I'm gonna be a trend setter because I like the cuffs turned up.

I found out today that I now weigh less than the skinniest girl in my department.  Guess that makes me the skinniest:)  WOW!!! --  definetly a big WOW!!! since I was always the BIGGEST gal in the department.  When I look at this girl I think am I really smaller than her.  Why is it we still see ourselves as big?  Just can't seem to shake that.

I'm doing good food wise today.  I am really watching my portions.  For a while and especially on vacation they seemed to be getting bigger.  I'm never hungry so there is no reason why the portions should be increasing as long as I get all my protein.  So I'm watching portions.  For those of you who think you have WLS and all is well you are wrong.  You still have to watch what you eat!!

I'm looking for a good vegetable soup recipe with lots of protein.  If anyone has one please pass along to me. 

My plans for tonight are to go home and work in my yard.  I am stopping off at Lowe's to get some bulbs.  I want to plan lots of bulbs now so that I have lots of beautiful flowers to look foward to in the spring.

Hope your day is going well.

Happy Tuesday!  Wow is it hard to get back into the swing of things at work.  I think I love vacation.  I kept up with most of my emails while I was out so I wasn't so stressed coming back to a ton of emails this time.  That I guess has caused me to waiver a little.  I'd like to be sitting on the beach...I bet it is sunny now that I'm home. Ha!

Well DH and I hit the track at 8p.m. last night and we ended up walking 2 miles.  We wanted to do more but it was getting dark and cloudy as if it were going to rain any time plus we hadn't had dinner so we went to Qdoba and then did the Wally World thing and went home.  My daughter said, "Mom, didn't it defeat the purpose of walking if you went to eat afterwords?".  I said, "Of course not.  Everyone has to eat!"  Granted it was late, but I can have protein any time and I love their black beans and chicken.  I ate about a 2 inch segment of the burrito that I ordered and brought the remainder for lunch today.  I had black beans, chicken, cheese, sour cream, peppers, onions, tomato relish, squash and zucchini in it.  I could only eat about 2 inches today and tossed the rest, but at least I got two meals out of the $6.00 burrito.

I'm heading home around 5p.m. today and DH and I are going to hit the track again.  Hoping to go 3 miles tonight working our way up to 5 miles.  Won't that be a WOW moment for me.  Wasn't so very long ago I had to have my inhaler to just walk a block to Jersey Mike's for lunch.  Glad those days are gone for good!

I talked to my friend Cuddlebug last night.  She had her surgery while I was in Florida.  She was an insulin dependent diabetic before WLS and now yipee for her she has had only one insulin shot since WLS.  She only weighs 195 now (214 before WLS) so it shouldn't take her long to drop the weight, but wow to be cured of diabetes that fast.  It is wonderful for her if she doesn't lose another pound she is a SUCCESS.  Go Linda!!!

Well...I'd better get back to the old grind stone.  Hope everyone is having a Happy Tuesday!!!  Just three more days to the weekend.  Yeah!!!

After yesterday's bad food day...I'm down to 149lbs.  So looks like I was able to lose all that I gained while on vacation already.  Yah!  I was a little worried although my DH said I didn't really eat all that much that I was beating myself up for no reason. 

I'm getting ready to go walking.  I'm trying to build myself up to five miles.  My DH and I want to start doing charity walks for Alzheimer's and Cancer.  We want to build our endurance so we can make it through without stopping.  So I'm off for a walk.