Melody Trumbly
Ramblings
Nov 07, 2006
Well I Have been meaning to update this stupid thing, but it has taken me forever... Damn busy schedules.
Well I am getting more and more excited... 7 days until my surgery and I can't wait for my life to change. I can't wait to be skinny and feel great about myself. I swear my grandma is more excited about it then I am. She is just excited that she gets to do what she did when my mom lost her weight... Clothes shop at goodwill! =D But the thing that I am looking forward to is going dancing in the clubs and looking good! also being able to run and even get up and walk to the kitchen and do dishes without having to lean over the sink because my back hurts. I can't wait to feel like a human being and not a monster. To sit at a booth at a resturant and be comfortable and not being afraid to break a table. It is terribly embarassing to go and sit at a booth and be uncomfortable and having the waitress ask if i would like a table or if I want to switch chairs because the other one has handles on the side and your hips don't fit. I mean It is very nice of them to ask but it is super embarassing to me to have them ask me. Or being stared at. That is possibly the worst thing ever! I hate it when people stare at you like you are too damn fat to be there. "She must eat alot" "She looks like she needs to be eating." What is wrong with our society? This is no lie I walked past this kid one time and he looked at me and then I overheard him telling his mom "She's big mommy." Talk about hurtful I know he was just observing but, man. **sighs**
But I am ready for me to start a new life. I am wanting to become a pharmicist but right now I am a pharm Tech but I can't even go out and look for a job. Because I can't stand on my feet for 8+ hours a day with out being in misery. No one should have to go through that.. especially a 22 year-old.
Another story that I had about my weight was I had to recently I had to take my national exam for my National certification for my Pharmacy Technician. I had studied for forever and I was ready to take this. so I go into this room and there were these desks. You know the ones where the desk is attached to the side of the chair and you have to slide in. This became public enemy Number 1 to me. I knew I wasn't going to fit in them, but I tried... sure enough half of my body was on the chair and half of it was off and there wasn't even enough room to do my work because my chest was practically covering the paper... I had three hours to do my test I did it in two. I just wanted to get out of there. I was so uncomfortable and I asked for a different desk and they couldn't even accomidate me. Oh well, cest le vie right?
Sorry about my ramblings but I needed to get it off of my chest... and isn't that what blogs are for? =D
~Melody aka Emmy
Well I am getting more and more excited... 7 days until my surgery and I can't wait for my life to change. I can't wait to be skinny and feel great about myself. I swear my grandma is more excited about it then I am. She is just excited that she gets to do what she did when my mom lost her weight... Clothes shop at goodwill! =D But the thing that I am looking forward to is going dancing in the clubs and looking good! also being able to run and even get up and walk to the kitchen and do dishes without having to lean over the sink because my back hurts. I can't wait to feel like a human being and not a monster. To sit at a booth at a resturant and be comfortable and not being afraid to break a table. It is terribly embarassing to go and sit at a booth and be uncomfortable and having the waitress ask if i would like a table or if I want to switch chairs because the other one has handles on the side and your hips don't fit. I mean It is very nice of them to ask but it is super embarassing to me to have them ask me. Or being stared at. That is possibly the worst thing ever! I hate it when people stare at you like you are too damn fat to be there. "She must eat alot" "She looks like she needs to be eating." What is wrong with our society? This is no lie I walked past this kid one time and he looked at me and then I overheard him telling his mom "She's big mommy." Talk about hurtful I know he was just observing but, man. **sighs**
But I am ready for me to start a new life. I am wanting to become a pharmicist but right now I am a pharm Tech but I can't even go out and look for a job. Because I can't stand on my feet for 8+ hours a day with out being in misery. No one should have to go through that.. especially a 22 year-old.
Another story that I had about my weight was I had to recently I had to take my national exam for my National certification for my Pharmacy Technician. I had studied for forever and I was ready to take this. so I go into this room and there were these desks. You know the ones where the desk is attached to the side of the chair and you have to slide in. This became public enemy Number 1 to me. I knew I wasn't going to fit in them, but I tried... sure enough half of my body was on the chair and half of it was off and there wasn't even enough room to do my work because my chest was practically covering the paper... I had three hours to do my test I did it in two. I just wanted to get out of there. I was so uncomfortable and I asked for a different desk and they couldn't even accomidate me. Oh well, cest le vie right?
Sorry about my ramblings but I needed to get it off of my chest... and isn't that what blogs are for? =D
~Melody aka Emmy
