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Hey went to the doctor on Wed. May 12th for a weight check... Im happy I lost weight.  I have to lose another 12lbs, well I will round it up to 15lbs.. lol !!!!! I only need to lose another 12lbs and then I will be at my pre-surgery goal weight.. YAH Im almost there !!!!!!!! I know I CAN DO IT !!!!!!!!!!! 

Okay I'm back , Ive been gone for a long time.  NOPE I haven't had surgery YET... I'm in the process of losing the pre goal weight (248lbs).  I'm down 15 lbs (263lb) from my highest weight (278lb).  and I only have another 15lbs to go and then I'll be eligible for surgery.  YES original (263lbs) I only had to lose 17lbs but since then I have gained 12 lbs so now I must lose the 12lbs I gained PLUS the 17lbs.  I'm feeling okay so far.  The few people that have noticed I lost a few lbs are already commenting on how I just to need to keep going and I don't need the surgery.  I am starting to regret telling the select few who I told about the surgery.  Mind you these are all coming from people who DON'T have a SERIOUS OVERWEIGHT problem.  I have decided to keep my mouth closed about the possibility of me having surgery.  I knew already from reading and talking to people on OH, that this was going to happen but I still wasn't prepared for it UNTIL it actually happened to me !!!!!!!!!!!

Okay I have been gone for a while dealing with issues and . . . .. . JUST plan OLE LAZY !!!! I have actually gained ten lbs and it feels like it !!!! UGH UGH I'm ashamed BUT today I went to the gym for the first time in a few months and I'm ready to go back at it again.  I've gonna back and read some of my friends blogs and I have my encouragement again !!! I'M READY to do this . .  I weigh in at 270 and I need to reach goal weight of 248 before I can have surgery.  I can do this, I WILL DO THIS

Okay I had my psych apt today and GUESS what . . . ..  I'm NOT Crazy . .LOL !!! I knew that already !!!!   This was an easy appointment.  And you know what else . . . .   I lost 5lbs .  My next apt is November 20th for the surgeon consult.  I set this apt that far out so I can continue to lose weight b/cuz HOPEFULLY by the time I meet with my doctor , who is Dr. Im,   I could possible be at my goal weight (although I don't know what it is exactly but its approx 10% of your weight)  If I am at my goal weight then I could have things moved along faster. YEAH YEAH  .  Well that's 2 things down . Im moved a little further along in this journey.

Okay, so tomorrow I have an appt with the psych. . . . Umm i'm NOT sure what to expect.  Are they gonna ask to me fill out a million questions ??  Are they just gonna talk to me to see where " my head is at "?? I am hearing from other people that at that appt they will schdule me with my next appt with the surgeon for the consult. 

Okay i just came back from the gym and I feel good !!!  I even feel like I have a little more energy.  This is my second week at the gym and I think I am getting into a routine.  I am trying to have set days that I go to the gym and I even try to go around the same time. . .  So let's see if that works  I am more closely monitoring my food intake.  Right now I have been trying to cut back on my portion size.  I might not make it to my goal of fitting into those dresses by the cruise but hey that's okay as long as I lose a little weight.  My psych test is next week  on September 17th so until then I will keep doing what I'm doing, maybe I will weigh myself next week.

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First of all I want to thank everyone for their words of advice and encourgaement to help get me through this day !!! I didn't do anything special just relaxed at home and caught up on some homework. 

I was NOT good with my eating BUT hey its okay  . . . .tomorrow is a NEW day .  I started going back to the gym yesterday and once my food settles I am going to the gym tonight.  Well that's what my b-day consisted of and I know my father was looking down on me smiling . . . 

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Your Love Style Is... Shy!

Something is holding you back. You are a caring person with lots to offer but for some reason you are afraid to let go. Everyone needs love and you are no exception so don't be scared to take the plunge. Come on you know you want to.

  Today I'm feeling a little down.  My birthday is in a couple of days and I'm turning 28. I told my mother NOT to make a big deal about it and I plan on turning my phone off because I am NOT in a celebrating mood. I am thankful and grateful to be alive.  . . . BUT I miss my father very much.  I have been feeling depressed for the last month or so.  Every other thought is about my father.  For my birthday my father would always do something special for me.  I was his little girl and he spoiled me like crazy.  GOD I miss my father soooooooo much.  It has been a little over 3 years since his sudden passing and I can honestly say I haven't gotten over my fathers death.

I only went to the gym once last week and my eating has been kinda weird.  I go on a cruise on October and I need to lose at least 15 pounds so I can fit into my dresses comfortably.  I bought the dresses a size smaller for motivation . Ump I wonder if its gonna work.

As far as a love -life . . . . .  I don't have one.  This one guy that I was "friends" with maybe a little more than friends has ended (i think).  I sort of kind of NOT really told him how I felt in NOT so many words ( ya feel me)  . . . .   I said how I felt but not really and his response was basically he had a lot of things going on at the moment.  I guess he was not really trying to hear what I had to say . .  I DUNNO !!!! I am more disappointed in myself  than mad at him.  This lead me to think that maybe I should just be friends with someone and NOT add the extras to it , because in the back of my head I hear my mothers voice saying, " A man will treat you like how you let him "
Sometimes I get lonely and I want a little companionship  . . . .  NOT Sex . . . .just someone to talk to, go out sometimes, laugh about things, talk about live, maybe take a day trip . . . . ya know just a true friendship nothing more nothing less.