Alicia W.
Do it Youself Tool
Apr 02, 2009
So I think I have gone as far as my surgery can take me …The rest I am going to have to do it myself. I can say I have been really busy and this is why I haven’t been on this particular website as much as I used to get on when I first started, but that would not be totally true. Yes I made it back in school. I in my first semester of getting my teachers credential.. I am happy that I solidifying my lively hood even though the economy isn’t looking bright in the field of teaching. Life is like a pendulum and I feel it will eventually swing back for the better.The other half of the truth of not posting regularly is I have discovered that I am now capable of sabotaging myself once again with food. And the reason I haven’t been on has regular is that I am struggling with this revelation. And the reason that I am struggling with this revelation is because even though I discovered the reason why I let myself get so out of control with eating myself to death in the first place, i haven't discovered If i really found the cure so I wont let myself fall in that same situation of out of control eating and return to my former fat self again.I don't want to fail anymore. No, I cannot go off the deep end and binge eat like I used to do...But I can pretty much hit the diving board and do a pirouette or two and then my stomache will starting cringing and say nuh-huh and eventually wrangle me back into my new reality.
Yes ,I am in a happier state than before. I have a beautiful family that loves me and a son who is climbing all over me vying for my attention as he tries too breaks my concentration as I type. But I still have to remind myself to stay focus constantly and keep my eye on the prize so to speak. I came into this journey weighing at my heaviest 308 pounds and now I am 219 pounds...that’s what I have to focus on. . what I have to do now is figure out what I have to do too not let those same problems perpetuate itself.
current weight 219pounds
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About Me
Claremont, CA
Location
31.7
BMI
Surgery
05/30/2008
Surgery Date
Aug 30, 2007
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