Self Sabotaging

Oct 25, 2025

Self sabbatoging reared its ugly head. Its a beast of when it happens almost like an outer body experience. You know what your doing from one vantage point..the vieil of self doubt is covering you and becomes overewhelming and as a result my mind cant breakout. Food becomes both comfort and a why to self sabbatoge. I had to talk louder than the doubt that was filling my head, still trying to swim out of it as I type. I know why it happnening as I type. 

My routine broke because a dear family friend is fighting cancer and I have been in and out of the hospital all week supporting her husband which is my God father. The sadness of loosing a part of my village is alot. She was a person who helped shaped and influnced my childhood and made me the person I am today.

I going to stop typiing, reset and start agin. Heading to the gym to try to autocorrct ny behavior.

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