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Since God is a part of my life (a huge part) then He is taking this weight loss journey with me. I have been having a hard time putting my mind around that. So, putting my mind around the fact that God is giving me this tool is what this blog is about.

I was afraid having wls (weight loss surgery) was vain. And being vain is one of the seven deadly sins, right? So if I am being vain how can I ask my Father to be with me and to help me.

Also, aren't I taking the “easy” way out? Shouldn't I just ask God to help me lose weight and trust that He will.?

What exactly are my motives for wanting wls ?

First off. It's alright to want to look the best that I can. That doesn't make me vain. I am not consumed by my looks. I choose to look at it like this. I'm representing. No different then the my pastors wife. She goes about her daily life looking her best. That doesn't make her vain. It makes her human.

As part of a church body, I represent God. So why shouldn't I want to look the best I can. That doesn't mean my looks are all that matter to me. Therefor I am not being vain. As for asking my Father to take this journey with me. I don't even HAVE to ask. He is with me every second of every day. I can do nothing with out the help of my Father.

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There is nothing easy about wls. Its a complex surgery and just a tool. Not a magic spell. I still have to learn why I over eat and fix that problem. What, when and how I eat will become important things for me to consider. I will no longer be able to wash my emotions away with food.

Now it's a right handy tool. Don't get me wrong. But thats all it is, A tool. God gave the surgeons the ability to do this surgery. He gave them the knowledge and made it possible for people on Medicare to qualify for the surgery. So it is a tool that He is giving me to make my life better. So yes, I do need God to lose weight. He answered by arranging wls.

My motives are very simple. I want a better life. Isn't that why I am even attempting to walk with God in the first place. Isn't it alright to want a better life? Yes I want to look better. But that is not the only reason. I honestly want to feel better too. Meaning I want to be healthier. It will be very nice to take the trash out with out getting out of breath and having my knee's feel like they are going to lock up and stop holding me up. Even in wanting to feel better, that is not entirely self centered. My church is doing a service night Wednesday. They are going to go to people's houses and work. Cleaning, hauling, mowing etc. I am going to stay at the church with my mother and grandmother and help wipe off chairs. BECAUSE I can't get around well enough to help in someone's home. My back and knee's would prevent me from being of any real help.

There is a lot I will be able to do for other's when I lose weight. I am suppose to be taking care of my mother. But because I am so over weight she mostly takes care of me and totally takes care of herself.

I am not lazy. I am morbidly obese. That's embarrassing. But I can't change it if I don't face it.

I want to participate more in life instead of sitting it out.

The main thing my mind has accepted writing this blog is that God is right here beside me and will be right beside me during surgery and afterwards. That nothing is possible without my Father.