Jamie W.
When telling my story, I sometimes believe there are two Jamie's. Not that I am big enough to be two people, but that the Jamie I am now is so different of the Jamie I used to be. The Jamie now is a black, single, female, Christian, age 45 (DOB 4/5/62). I last recall weighing 168 lbs when I was in 6th grade and that is the smallest I remember ever weighing. Once when I was in my early 20's I lost about 75 lbs and weighed 301. I remember being so frustrated that I couldn't get out of the 300's. Well, here I am at 441 after weighing 476 last year. I was at 401 and have almost gained most of it back. God has blessed me so much with this gift and I plan to use this tool to glorify Him. This body is His Temple and He has entrusted it to me and I haven't been doing too well with it...I Corinthians 6:19. I hope to do better and be more Christ-like with His Temple. Please pray for me in my journey.
I currently work with clients that have a serious mentally illness. God has blessed me with this position to deal with people who are depressed, suicidal, hear voices, have hallucinations, sleep too much, can't sleep all night and don't want to eat. I can not relate to the latter 
My position requires me to conduct home visits, transport clients to doctor appts., social security office, help them with medical insurance, picking up prescriptions and keeping them focused on their goals while holding them accountable to maintain a healthy lifestyle. This is difficult to do when you are not setting a good example. Who will listen to a woman over 400 pounds about exercise when they do not see a decrease in weight? I wouldn't!!
I really believe God has me in this position to be a light and encouragement to others who have no hope and desire suicide as their only solution. This work also provides me with much gratitude whenever I think I have it bad. My clients help me more than they know.
The Jamie of the past was always feeling useless, ugly, fat and used men to feel better through instant gratification. I constantly found myself in sexual sin and masking the humility with drugs and alcohol. I wanted to be numb and not feel my misery.
How far God has brought me!!! I can't wait to continue on the journey.....I'll do my best to keep you all posted.
Music Video:http://videzonn.com/videos/b/big_daddy_weave/every_time_i_breathe-2.html" target='_blank'>EVERY TIME I BREATHE (by Big Daddy Weave)
