01.26.09

My One Year Surgiversary is a couple days away and I'm feeling so many things.  Reflecting on the past, excitement about the future, happiness & gratefulness for my accomplishments and success.  I never imagined a year ago this surgery would have given me these results.  I believed it was going to be "good" for me, but didn't truly have complete "Faith" in its possibilities.  This surgery has changed my life... and its changed me, in a way that most people don't understand.  I'm still me, the same person I always was, but I'm not afraid or inhibited anymore.  I didn't all of a sudden grow a personality, or become outgoing and sociable... that girl was always in there, she just lacked confidence and didn't want to be noticed.  I hated attention.  The things I've been able to cross off my "Goals" list are fantastic, & the things I'm able to do now are amazing.  I had bad knees, some arthritis, high risk of diabetes, & a number of other health risks.  Now I know I'll be around for a while... to have children, play with my grandchildren, and see them grow up.  It's very important to me to do something to acknowledge this date, it really is a RE-Birthday for me.  I ordered myself a Butterfly necklace, on the back it says "Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, She became a butterfly."  I'm not a huge fan of Butterflys, but I like the symbolism of change.  2008 was a year full of change for me and I think I'll get my first tattoo, a butterfly, for my surgery anniversary.  There's so much more going on in my life, that I'm so happy about and proud of but I'm to busy enjoying life to sit down and carry on about it, LOL.  I hope everyone is doing well!

**Hugs**

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