Mexico!

Dec 28, 2009

So...one week from today I'll be in Mexico!  I think I'm ready for this.  Emotionally, I really can't sort out what I'm feeling.  Scared?  Yes.  Excited? Definantly.  Worried about the after affects?  I guess that's the worst.  I hate nausea.  I'm alittle worritd about possible side affects after the surgery.  I've read post about people who had nausea for a couple of  months.  That doesn't sound like fun at all.  I'm praying I'll be one of the ones who comes through with no kind of complications.  I'm not a wimp.  I have a pretty high tolorence for pain, but nausea....not so much.
  I hate the idea of being gone from my kids for so long.  But I know that in the long run, this is for them as much as it is for me.  My little ones, God willing, will hardly remember me being fat.  Although now, they aren't sure about me losing weight.  They know me as I am and always have been.  I know that will pass with time. 

Life as I  know it is about to change.  I know it sounds corny, but I feel like a caterpiller, soon to be a butterfly.  The same creature, only  in a different form.  I am sooo thankful I have family who have never put me down or made me feel "less than" because of my weight.  On the other hand, my concept of  myself was and is terrible.  I believe that will change as my body changes.  Life is ment to be lived...to the fullest.  We only have one.  That is why I'm doing this....here we go....

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