slayer_meow
Ok so after a while of getting to know the site I am finally taking the plunge and writing out my story. Where did it all start? Let me see. The last time I can remember being happy with the way I looked was probably about 2nd grade. This is the last time that I can ever remember going to a friends house and being able to fit into someone elses clothes. About 2 years later we moved to a new town and I had to go to a new school. This is where all of my insecurity of not fitting in came in and I began to turn to food as my crutch. Mom stopped cooking healthy home made meals due to her new 20+ mile commute to work, so we relied a lot on fast food. I truly feel that this is what totally ruined me. I started high school a chubby freshman with the funny and great attitude. Everytime I looked around all I saw were my fellow classmates either with a boyfriend or talking about one. Me? I was the sounding board to listen to problems, but never did I get any interest calls from guys. So there I was 4 years later the 220lb senior with a good voice; that did phen-fen and that is how I graduated. I decided that I didnot want to go to college and went straight to work. Big mistake! I worked at a movie theater and proceded to pack on the pounds thanks to 1/2 price hot dogs and free popcorn & soda. I then went to work for corporate Mouse and lost weight there thanks to Herbalife. The minute that I stopped taking it I packed the weight back on an then some. Fast forward to June 2004, I had been working at an ambulance company doing billing and was told to stay home due to carpal tunnel syndrome until I was able to have surgery. What I thought would only be a couple of months turned into me staying home for over 1 year. In that year many things happened 3 of which made me balloon. 1) I suffered a miscarriage in April, and the subsequent depression made me eat. 2) Boyfriend's mother passed away from a long hard fought battle with cancer, more depression, more food. 3) About 3 weeks after losing my boyfriend's mother my mother also passes away from her cancer. Even more depression=total food dependency. I finally curbed all of my vices but by that time I had gone from 250 lbs to a hefty 295. Along comes March of 2006 and I find out that I am pregnant. Determined not to gain an outrageous amount of weight I decide to eat healthy not only for me but for my baby. I had a perfect pregancy with a beginning weight of 299 I gained a total of 15lbs by the time I was due to give birth. And this is where I stand. I decided to see my PCP for a referral to get WLS surgery done.
