slayer_meow

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

It has been a while since my last post, but so much has gone so wrong.  

I was told about 3 weeks ago that my only brother was incredibly sick and would probably not make it through his current stay in the hospital.  My brother was diagnosed with leukemia 5 years ago.  He had a stem cell transplant and was doing great.  But about 2 months ago he was admitted due to incredible swelling.  Unfortunately what we all did not know is that his body was starting to shut itself down.

On the 26th of September he was put on a venthilator and unfortunately never came off.  He passed away at 1:45 pm one day before his 32nd birthday!

It is now left up to me to care for my 72 year old father, who has now in the past 2 years has had to bury my mother and now his only son.  

I cannot help but feel incredibly abandoned and left to start my family alone and without the people that I care the most about.  Life is starting to gain a certian kind of normalcy but when I think about my brother's tragic life & death struggle I get this big lump in my tummy.

Ok so I had my Options class last night.  It was about anger!  Had a good time talking about how I have control of my own anger.  Most importantly I realized that it is ok to express my anger without fear of losing relationships.

The other great thing is that I am now officially more than 1/2 way to my required 10% weightloss.  I am down a total of 18lbs!  WOO HOO!!!  I now need 12 lbs in my last 13 weeks of class.  It will be difficult but I am up to the challenge