Hello Everyone,

Here is my story, I am sure we all have a lot in common, the main one being wanting to be healthy and to look good.

I look back at pictures of me before I had children.  Please dont get me wrong, I couldnt imagine my life without my boys, but I will give anything to go back to the way I looked and felt before I had my boys.  I honestly dont know why or how I let my self get this big.  There were a few times I lost weight, by starving myself mostly. But that didn't last, as we all know.

I show quarter horses and right now I want to cry and feel pain for my horse when I look at pictures of me riding my horses.  I know they are big animals, but I couldnt imagine having to carry me around.

I married my high school sweetheart and we have been together for 17 years.  When I met him of course I was thin and I know he loves me even today, but I honestly believe that my weight embarasses him when we are in public.  He rarily shows affection or anything in public, by affection I mean just simply puttin an arm around me or holding my hand.  I also believe my weight has an issue with our sex life.  I feel if I was thinner he would be more interested in wanting to touch me.  We married in 1996 and we had our first child in 1997.  We had our second child in 1999 and our last child was born in 2002.

I feel I am a STRESS eater, it's just my life has been filled with stress, from one crisis after the other. I am not complaining as life experience makes you who you are but, with it seems lately that just when things start looking good financially, my husband looses his job.  For some reason my husband isnt able to keep a job longer than a year....wait I take that back, we have been together for 17 years and the longest job he has kept at one time was for 2 years....then he hurt his knee and filed workers comp case and was then let go.  All my husband knows is carpentry and with his knee injury it is hard for him to find a job that he can do and that his knee can handle.  So I am currently working 3 jobs...one full time and 2 part time.  I am very lucky though because even working this many jobs, I still am able to spend time with my family.  Both of my part time jobs pay well, and I am only gone from home 2 nights a month and the other job I am able to do at home...so I am very lucky to have the flexibilty to work those jobs and still not be away from my family so much.

I joined weight watchers back in December of 2007 and I was able to lose almost 30 lbs and I felt good, but due to finances I had to leave weight watchers and I really thought I could do it on my own....well I was mistaken, because I have almost gained it all back on.

My husband and I went to Mexico for our 10 year wedding Anniversary in Feb 07.  We had so much fun and really rekindled our relationship, but I was so embarassed to be seeing in my bathing suit, so we didnt do much that required bathing suits.  I tried snorkeling and I just felt like my fat a$$ was sticking out of the water and people were staring or maybe even laughing.  We went down to the beach often but I couldn't walk far without being out of breath.   My big treat for myself and my husband is after my surgery and the weight is coming off and I feel better, we will be going back to Mexico and I hope to feel better enough to do all of the things we missed out the last time. 

After my trip to Mexico and going thru the summer with my kids begging me to go swimming at the beach or go rollerbladding with them, I decided I really need to do something about my weight.  So I did some research on the gastric bypass surgery.  I was looking forward to persuing the surgery more, but I was nervous about what my parents and sister would think.  You see I was a fraid they would think I was taking the easy way out, so i put the surgery thought on the back burner.  

November 2007 my sister emails me and tells me that she is having gastric bypass surgery.  I was in shock but yet very pleased that she was doing this for her health.  So after that I decided I was going to persue it again and this time go all the way and my sister and I can be each others support group.  My sister had the surgery on Nov 12 and she is doing beautiful, she looks so good and I can tell she is starting to feel so much better.

I have met with the surgeron nurse, have one more appointment with the psychologist and have 4 more phone classes to take from health partners and I will be on my way to setting a surgery date....and I tell you I can not weight!!!  (lol)

So thanks for listening and I will keep you posted on my journey to WLS.

~Jodi~

About Me
Zimmerman, MN
Location
41.2
BMI
RNY
Surgery
02/26/2008
Surgery Date
Nov 29, 2007
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