Food Addiction

Mar 07, 2014

The struggle with food is daily.  Grazing is the new overeating post-op.  I continue to attend Overeater's Annoymous and work one day at a time to be abstinent.  Some days I am, some days I am not.  I remain hopeful that I will conquer this dreaded disease.

I have just refined my food plan and I am feeling peaceful about this.  I have to admit that the way to keep cravings at bay is to eat as clean a diet as possible, at least for me.  I am focusing on lean proteins, tons of vegetables, some fruit, a minimum of healthy fats and limited grains (steel cut oats, brown rice, quinoa, millet).  

I know some people can eat "treats" in moderation, but I can't.  No sweets, no junk food of any kind.  If I never take the first bite, it won't lead to a binge.  I also can't eat protein bars in moderation as they are a slippery slope to binge foods for me.  Likewise, the world of "diet" sugar free treats are not things that I can consume in moderation.  Self knowledge is power and its good to be out of denial about this.  I wish I could cook and eat like eggface or bariatric foodie, but portion control alone doesn't work for me.  Even sugar free, high protein eggface muffins set me off on wanting more, more, more.  I also can't chew sugar free gum since it leads me to carbs...not sure exactly why.

I have gained weight from my low of 136.  This weight was too thin for my 5'11 frame.  I'm currently struggling to keep my weight around the 150lb mark.  But it is a struggle right now since I am still binge eating at times and taking in very large amounts of calories when I do so.  Anything that brings health and happiness into my life is worth fighting for, and so the battle continues to find serenity and abstinence from my food addiction on a daily basis.

I wish you well on your journey to health and happiness, too.

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