Don't pinch me...
Oct 16, 2012I'm kind of at a loss at this "thing" becoming a reality. Did I really do all those tests and appointments, and now I'm at the door to a new life? I really am. I am not a negative person, but a very realistic person. Things just happen to me. I have my own little Twilight Zone that I exist in Nd I've learned to just go with it. Makes the little things that go right that much more gratifying. So I had prepared myself for something to happen to get in my way. Either a test to come back bad or finances to fall through...but that never happened. There were a few bumps along the way but I kept going. And now I'm here. Thursday I go for my surgery consult and get my surgery date. Whoa.
I'm actually starting to think about what it's going to be like to not have to shop at Lane Bryant or hate the thought of shoe shopping. Will I be comfortable in my own skin or will I still be looking for something?
My whole goal of this is to be (or at least be closer to being) as happy with my outside as I am my inside. I like who I am for the most part. I detest this body. I realize that this body is my responsibility and I didn't just wake up fat one day. But there are so many other things that went in to making this body. I am at a place in life that I am going to do things FOR ME. And what a better gift to give myself than health and peace of mind?