12 days out - temptations!

Nov 19, 2011

Well I am now 12 days out from my RNY.  Gosh I feel really lucky. I have not had many of the severe reactions so many here have written about.  It makes me so tempted to try things though!  Yesterday I drove thru Starbucks.  My one BIG weakness is my love of a "sugarfree vanilla, non fat, chai tea latte"  and a blueberry scone.  Okay I know the scone is not good for me so I didn't order it!! I did order the latte though!   What am I doing?? Trying to sabotoge myself already??  I know that chai mix they use has tons of sugar in it and the Dr. said I would react to sugar!!  Maybe because I have NOT had any reaction I need to see that limitation happen?  Well it didn't happen.  I ordered a tall instead of my usual Venti size and the staff, so used to my order, just went ahead and made me the Venti!  I waited to take a sip until I got home and then I went very slowly.  I did not drink near all of it because I knew I was not supposed to have it.  I had no reaction to it what so ever.  WHAT?? No reaction?? You mean I am going to have to give this up by my own willpower??  

I guess it comes down to my need to control myself.  That has always been so hard for me - hence the reason I got so fat!!  I sort of expected my body to reject all sweet or fattening foods that I try to eat and my body doesn't seem to care!  This may be harder than I thought.  Now I am scared I won't be successful. 

Pray. Pray. Pray

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