It's Been A Long Time!!

May 03, 2012

 Wow....Haven't been here in such a long time!  Life has been busy!  I got engaged in February of '09, married in October of '09, had a baby October of '10.  My weight has fluctuated quite a bit, but I'm now back down to my lowest and very happy about that....Hope to lose 20 or 30 more :-)   


Jan 30, 2008

I believe- that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe- that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I believe- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe- that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe- that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I believe- that you can keep going long after you can’t.

I believe- that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I believe- that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe- that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I believe- that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I believe- that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe- that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I believe- that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe- that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I believe- that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I believe- that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I believe- that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe- that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I believe- that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe- that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I believe- that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe- that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe- that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.

I believe- that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I believe- that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I believe- that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I believe it’s important to keep believing

3-month labs

Jan 27, 2008

I heard from my nurse, Debi....3 month labs are great

Three Month Appointment

Jan 21, 2008

So I had my three-month appointment on Friday.  I'm disappointed with my weight loss because it seems so freakin' slow, but was told not to get discouraged and that I'm doing great....especially for a lightweight.  I'm assuming my labs were good since I haven't heard anything.  I was also told that I may be losing slow because I'm not eating enough.  I'm averaging 400 to 500 calories a day and need to be at at least 800 so my body doesn't think it's starving.  So I've bumped up the calories and I've lost three pounds!  Hooray!  Hooray!!!!!!!!!!  I just need to stay positive and not freak out so much about these stalls that keep happening, but that's so much easier said than done.  

I was also told to put the scale away and quit weighing so much!  I weigh twice a day and I think it's a total head game!  I'm putting the scale away and I'll weigh once a week from now on.  

Although I do complain that my weightloss seems slow, I am very happy about this decision I made to have the RNY.  As of right now I'm the weight I was at in college (NOT THAT I WAS SKINNY THEN) and 10 more pounds from now I'll be the weight I was when I graduated high school.  25 more pounds and I'll weigh what I did when I was 16!!!!!!!!  (I wasn't skinny then either!)  It fascinates me that in only three months I've reversed the damage I've done to myself in the past 13 years!  Even my blood pressure is normal now and the lowest numbers I've seen in a LONG TIME!  I can't wait to experience the rest of this wonderful journey I've been on.

I DID IT!!!!

Jan 03, 2008

Had to get a new "do".  I think I like it, but not used to it yet.  Oh, well.  It will grow back!       

I went out!!

Dec 21, 2007

Two out-of-state friends from high school called tonight from a local bar, so I went out tonight for the first time since my surgery.  (Hi Angie & Kelly!  Great to see you guys again!!!!!!!)  Two months out now and I've tolerated everything really well, feeling great.  But you know what they say about WLS and alcohol?.............It's true!  You feel the effects pretty quick!  I had 3/4 of a bottle of Busch Light and it was like I had had four.  Nowhere near "drunk", but definitely a faster buzz!!!  

P.S.  For anybody that's about to flame me.......I hardly ever drink and I only had 3/4 of it.........So I think I did pretty well!



Dec 19, 2007

I found this on the message board.  Whoever wrote this, THANK YOU!

"There's noooooooooooooo crying in baseball.....!!!!!!"

*Reprinted with authors permission, see credits at bottom of post*.

What an eye opener! Some days I need this "smack upside the head"!

That's the sentiment (scenario) that comes to mind sometimes when I hear some of the comments from people who've already had the surgery. In case you haven't made the connection, that's a line Tom Hanks made famous in the movie "A League Of Their Own." Resorting to tears or just giving up every time the going gets tough. Or your sick of taking vitamins, getting in protein is hard, water doesn't taste good, etc. That kinda' thinking is NOT going to make you successful or keep you healthy. ENOUGH already! It's time to LOVE yourself enough to get "TOUGH" with your aftercare. Your long term health is worth it!!

Success comes with a backbone, NOT a wishbone!

First and foremost, you have to keep it POSITIVE. As with everything in life, if you think you can't - you WON'T! Simple enough?

I have to wonder when "we" (as adults) finally take ownership for our actions, our life and our health? We have been given a gift, a second chance to actually LIVE life again instead of merely existing on the sidelines. It's up to each of us to do that as healthy and productively as possible.

We're ALL statistics waiting to happen and the insurance companies are chomping at the bit. The bean counters are eager to drop Weight Loss Surgery ("WLS" from the policies; some already have. Don't you know that any negative feedback thrown into the mix only strengthens their cause? I may not be able to control every thing that happens to my body after WLS, but most things I can. I CHOOSE to take control and I will be a positive statistic when the numbers get counted.

We live in a spoiled society, expecting everything in life to come with a buncha really cool choices. Well, guess what? When it comes to your health, you're not always going to get a choice. You either DO IT and stay healthy, or you DON'T and your body pays the price.

The way I saw it, I had a 90 day healing and adjusting period after surgery. My 'super morbidly obese' body had more then enough stores to survive the learning curve. In turn, it gave me plenty of time to heal, adjust and learn. For those of you OVER 90 day's Post-Op, the probation period is over - its time to get serious and LIVE what you've learned.

~*~ You say you can't get in enough liquids through out the day, don't like the taste of water, or just keep forgetting? -- TOUGH! It's not an option anymore. Find a way to do it, get suggestions and tips from others in support groups, message boards, etc. Read, learn and JUST DO IT!! Why do you think there is a choice here?

~*~ You say you don't like the big horse pill type vitamins, or the tart chalky chewables?'s, just too many to bother with? Or maybe you just can't remember to take them? -- TOUGH! You gave up the option NOT to take vitamins when you agreed to have your insides rerouted. FIND a way to get them in; crushed, minced, chopped, liquefied, in a shake, etc. No acceptions, your health depends on it.

~*~ Protein is a must. So you can't get it all in via foods and you don't like the way the shakes taste? -- TOUGH! Either get it through your meals (and there are a gazillion food choices out there) or supplement it with protein shakes and bars.

Trust me, I don't drink my protein shake every morning because I think it tastes like a chocolate blizzard from Dairy Queen. I've tried many varieties over the last 2 years. I'd even venture to say 25 of the top sellers/flavors have crossed my lips. For the record? I've yet to find one that is as 'delicious' as boasted by the distributor. So what. I still drink one every morning. My HEALTH dictates that I need "X" grams of protein per day. If I'm not getting enough from my meals then I supplement a shake. 'Nuff said.

This surgery is a gift, I owe it to me and everyone else fighting the approval process, to do it right! I will continue to choke down my vitamins, my water and my protein every single day, for the REST OF MY LIFE. Some days will be easier then others, regardless, no days will be missed.

It's all about discipline. Create a routine, set a timer, develop a pattern, tie a string around your finger, glue a note to your forehead, whatever it takes.

You're an adult - take responsibility! If this surgery doesn't slap a back bone into you, not much will.

* Leilani * [Original draft written: June 2004 -- Revised: April 2006]

SLOW and steady wins the race; right????????

Dec 13, 2007

December 13th and down 34 pounds........SLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Almost six weeks out.....Down 30!!!!!!!!!!!

Nov 28, 2007

Down 30 pounds now and still such a long way to go......but I'm gonna make it.  Haven't had to buy new clothes yet....don't quite get that, but my old clothes are feeling a lot more comfortable!  I notice the weightloss the most in my face and chest,  Hopefully I'll start seeing it more in my stomach area soon!!!!!!!!

One Month Post-Op

Nov 17, 2007

I had my one-month post-op appointment yesterday....20 pounds gone.  Seems so small to me and that I should be losing faster, but I'll take it.  Never lost 20 pounds that fast any other time!

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