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2 years yesterday - wow!
Mar 18, 2008
314 highest (jan)
308 pre op (march)
294 day of surgery
305 1 week post op
3/17/07 - 173.5
3/17/08 - 165
I am so happy that I went back to see where I was last year!! While I have lost 8.5 lbs in the last year - the most important part I'M MAINTAINING!!!
I was hoping for something wise to share - but this is really a process. While I'd like to lose a bit more - I think a tummy tuck will make me feel better. My tummy gets in the way - If jeans fit for the tummy, they are too big in the legs and butt - if they fit the legs and butts I have a HUGE muffin top and I'm uncomfortable. Soooooooooo I'm looking into a surgeon - I'm not rushing into anything. Taking it slow.
I think the best advice I have is to do your research, understand the changes you'll have to make and know it is not always easy. Make sure you surround yourself with a strong support system, get counseling if you need to and most importantly only do this for you!
I would have never been the success I've been without a few butt kickings along the way - Thanks to my husband, my boys, Cindy and Barb who have been keys to my success!
I am available if anyone has questions! I'm also excited for Ms Vickie who will be having surgery with Dr Jones next month!! Its so exciting to watch the transformation of another!!
God Bless!!
xoxoxoxo
23 months and still going!
Feb 18, 2008
Just got back from vacation….VEGAS BABY! We had an awesome time!
I did tons of walking in heels - nope didn't bring any walking shoes - I have a great body to show off! LOL My husband thinks I'm crazy, but i'm finally at a point where I love the way I look and how I feel so why not!
We did it all - gambling, shows, amusements, area 51, the days were long and sleep was little!
I am disappointed that I wasn't more on top of my vitamins, however I am back on track now that we are home.
I will update with my weight - I was 165 when we left but was too tired to get on the scale this morning. EDIT: I weighed 163.5 so I lost 1.5 while on vacation!! wooooooooohoooooooo must have been all the walking and gambling!
I can't believe next month will be 2 years - I am so amazed!
22 months!
Jan 17, 2008
I really have been working on my self image and negitive talk. It is going well! I actually look in the mirror and think awe I look so pretty - yes I said it to myself instead of picking myself apart!! It helped to come to the conclusion that I can have plastic surgery if I want it - of course if someone wants to pay for it - hey I'd get it sooner! ha ha ha
I bought a size SMALL, yes small dress for new years eve, I felt beautiful and sexy. It was good to feel it. My husband is always telling me, but I would just brush it off...good side effect of positive talk!!
On the negitive side, my blood pressure has been up and I'm taking meds for it again. Why?? who knows - I will follow up with the doc next week. My iron was way low again went I went so I'm back to taking iron 3 times a day and I'm feeling much better!
Well thats it - and I can't believe that in two months I will be 2 years out - seems just a few months ago - its weird how long it takes the mind to catch up!
God Bless!!
xoxoxoxo
I always seem repeative..lol
Dec 17, 2007
I can't believe its been this long
I can't believe ____
Well I can't help it - its true! Today is 21 months post op! It kind of freaks me out that it has been that long!
I still have my days with head issues and I dont' think that will ever go away, the key is how I choose to handle them when they arise.
I am still within my range of 164-169 consistantly, no change either way but hey - i'm eating what I want when I want. I am still very protein forward and always make that my focus, but I do not deny myself anything. When I choose candy etc I just have enough to satisfy and then I dont' feel deprived.
Still in a size 10-12 pants and Med tops, still blows me away when i take my clothes out of the dryer - i still look at my pants and wonder who's they are. Never fails but hey its a wow moment everytime I do laundry..ha ha ha
I am still noticing changes in my body - recently it is that the skin on my arms and legs are actually getting smaller - they say that it takes around 2 years for our skin to catch up with the weight loss. Sooooooooooooo with this happening and me joining curves I hope that I can tighten it even more!
Merry Christmas to Everyone and may God bless you all!
still having wows!
Oct 22, 2007
sooooooooo I've went from a tight size 11 ring to a size 7 1/2! that just blows me over!
also went shoe shopping - I've gone from an 11 -12 wide to a 9 - 9/12 - how freaking amazing is that!
19 months already???
Oct 17, 2007
OMG time flies doesn’t even come close!
This journey is amazing! I can hardly believe its been a year much less 19 months!
I have a lot to write about this time and hopefully I will get it all down before I get interrupted!!
I have come to realize what normal is to me and to realize that I've never been "normal" for more than a brief period after a "successful" diet - is there such a thing?? LOL
Anyway - I have only been on this ride for 19 months and I get to ride it for the rest of my life! I am the one who gets to choose if the ride is going to be fun or if its going to make me sick or even if its going to continue.
People who are considered "normal" have had most of there lives to practice that. This was a huge realization for me. I am not going to beat myself up for anything anymore because I'm still learning!! I have only felt normal for a short time - a very short time so holy smokes I have the rest of my life to figure out what it means to me!
I have been blessed to have wonderful people in my life. My husband, my children, Cindy, Barb, Mindy, and Tammy have been a significant help with my success. They are there to keep my head on straight. To talk me through tough times and to make sure I remember what success is! Cindy and Barb have had their work cut out for them!!
I have recently meant some wonderful people who are just a joy to talk to and who are inspirational, especially Miss Darla. She is truly amazing and sent me the sweetest email that help put even more things into perspective for me. I will share it with you.
just got done reading through your profile (it's always slow here this time of year... Camping/swimming/picnicking is mostly finished, but no snow yet for skiing & such -)
So I have a question. You wrote about your angels, people you looked up to, etc. Are you at a place in your head where you can accept and be proud of the fact that YOU are now one of those shining examples? Of how wonderful this whole WLS journey is? How life-changing it can be, how FABULOUS we formerly ginormous people can hope to be??? I'm NOT saying these things to kiss up and shower you with compliments. I truly do wonder if you're there in your head. Because that's what you are to many of us. Every time you come to one of the PNC meetings, the rest of us who are still in the middle of our weight loss see you and can't really imagine that you ever needed to do this. You, Edi, Shannin, there are plenty - and when I go from who I see now, to looking at a before shot - HOLY SHIT!!! (pardon my french, I speak it fluently...) It's just mind boggling. As I sit here typing this, even tho my legs are crossed under my keyboard, I'm still who I was a year ago. I don't feel different. I've been looking at my pre-op & 5 month shots that Barb gave me, and I SEE the difference, but I don't FEEL different! It's so strange...
I better stop before I convince myself that I need a shrink...
(oh - and just so you know, I'm wearing my baggy-ass jeans today. I can't help it! I love 'em, 'cuz they're long on me, and that's alien!!! I need to buy a pair in a size or two down...)
Have a LOVELY DAY!!!
Miss Darla is incredibly supportive on OH as well as at group and I’m sure outside of both! She will be an inspiration to many! 314 highest (jan)
308 pre op (march)
294 day of surgery
305 1 week post op
10/17/07 164
Beginning BMI 49.1
Current BMI 25.7
Year and a half already??
Sep 17, 2007
Today is one and half years out of surgery. I know I always say I am so amazed but I am!!! From a high of 314 to 166. Blows me away!! I went from a tight 24 / 3x to 8/10 pants and medium tops. I feel awesome and I feel healthy! While this journey is a terrific ride it is not without bumps and the "head" issues do pop up, its how we deal with them that will determine our success! I have been doing very well after struggling for a while. I am happy to say I am "normal" whatever that may be!! I do eat treats - I do not tell myself that I am "cheating". That is a dieters mentality, I am no longer a dieter!! I have changed my eating habits for life! Do I occasionally have a doughnut or apple crisp? You bet I do! But I don't eat anywhere near what I would have pre op. I share or throw away. I do dump and I do sometimes get sick from sugar, so I try to be careful…doesn't always work though..lol. I am loving life and loving my family and friends who have been so very very supportive!!
Done losing?
Jul 27, 2007
The scale has been consistent between 167-170. Can I be happy with that? Its better than 171 but is it something I can be happy with? I don't know.
I know its not moving because of my food choices. I do eat healthy for the most party but I am eating too frequently and too much. I'm not getting sick nor do I track what I eat. I think I am chasing that "full" feeling.
How does satisfied feel? How to you find it? How do you accept it?
Even though I'm 16 months out of surgery, I find myself wanting that "full" feeling. Maybe its the contentment? I dont' eat until I'm miserable, been there pre op and thats not fun.
I'm always thinking about food - new recipes, whats for lunch/dinner?
I think that I need to start eating denser foods. I tend to go wtih the easy softer foods. Cottage cheese, cheese sticks, yogart etc.
I gave in to the carb and sugar mosters - just a taste then I'll leave it alone again - well that never happened. I do have sugar in small amounts, I have carbs but in the form of crackers - rarely bread, pasta or rice. Chips oh they have found me too.
I have to either accept where my weight is or rethink my habits and change them. I have gotten away from "planning" my meals etc. It is time for me do sit down and figure out what I want and to start using my tool
wow
Jul 24, 2007
16 months
Jul 17, 2007
I'm doing alot of wondering lately. Wondering why I eat when I'm not hungry, why I think the journey is over when its really just begun. Hmmmm I will have to give this some long hard thought and then post my thoughts. Today is 16months, I can't believe time has flown, i don't honestly believe it has been so long. The scale is crawling, but that is my fault as I don't stick to the program. Something I'm working on wrapping my head around this part and getting with the program!
314 highest (jan)
308 pre op (march)
294 day of surgery
305 1 week post op
6/16/07 168.5
7/16/07 167.5
I am happy that there is a pound loss, however I know I need to work the tool if I want to lose more!!
