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 Today I weigh in at 136.2 pounds. I am 1.2 pounds from my original goal I set before surgery. I am wearing a size 6 pants and a small or medium shirt. Even my feet have shrunk. I wear a 6.5 now and used to wear a 8 or 8.5.  What an experience this has been. The pain I used to have is gone. I can walk and walk and walk even more. 
I have a few things to work on. Exercise, and my vitamins. 

I am so very happy I had this surgery. 

:)

I hit a plateau for about 3 weeks after I went back to work.  Started getting frustrated.  Would go up a pound or two, then down a pound.  Finally a few days ago I started losing again...whew!  Well, my work pants have been feeling kind of big, so I figured it's time to get some that fit a little bit better.  Tried on a size 16 thinking....no way, will be too tight to zip....uhhhh I was wrong!  It fit!  O M G!  How amazing the feeling is to fit into a smaller size. 
My weight as of this morning was 215.4 with clothes on. 
YAY!  I hope this keeps going this way.  Feels great!

Went through some of my clothes today...still have plenty to go through.  Getting rid of alot of clothes.  Thankfully I still have some work clothing from when I was a bit smaller.  So, I used to wear a size 24 pants, and they were getting pretty tight.  I put on my old size 18 pants....and they fit....a little snug, but no more so than my size 24 pants were.  I can't believe it!  I am pretty excited. 
So as of today, I am 221.8 pounds, I started out at 275.  That's 53.2 pounds since JULY!  HOLY HECK!

On another note, I am having trouble getting down my protein.  I am still on liquids...so all my protein comes from my shakes, I am lucky if I get one down.  This part is getting frustrating! 

 

Surgery went very well.  Very little nausea.  Pain in easily controllable.  I'm able to keep my liquids down.  Doc did a CT scan to ensure that there were no leaks.  And viola...no leaks.  Great Surgery overall.  HOWEVER, he says, during that CT scan we found something else.  There is a 6cm tumor on one of my ovaries...well, I should say my only ovary, as I had a hysterectomy several years ago, and only had one left.  6 CM is quite large....and very disconcerting.  He got a GYN in to talk to me, This doctor did some blood tests to check for cancer, and did an ultrasound.  So, here I sit waiting to go for my consult with him to find out what the tests reveal. 
Looks like another surgery is in the works really soon. 
Wish me luck. 

I am scheduled to be there at 8 am tomorrow for my RNY surger. 
The 2 week preop diet went fine.  There were a few days in the middle that were a little more difficult as far as hunger.  There were some changes to get used to.  I didn't lose as much weight as I'd hoped.  But, I am pretty close to having lost the 10% of my body weight that the doctor wanted.  (within 4 pounds).
I have been going through some of my clothes and trying on some stuff that hasn't fit for years....and viola.....some of it's fitting already!  How exciting.  And, I am getting rid of the clothes that no longer fit.  That is a hard one.  I guess it's just habit to keep clothes that no longer fit "just in case" I ever go back up to that size (or down to).   I am making a commitment by getting rid of them.  And, it kinda feels good!
Wish me luck.  I am so excited, and a little bit apprehensive too.

Well, the hunger isn't seeming to be an issue for me.  I think the hardest thing for me right now are these dang protein drinks.  They don't necessarily taste horrible, they do smell kind of ucky.  But I think it's having to drink them 3 times a day.  I have 4 different flavors, and I don't always drink the same ones.  I am going to try some different ones too, just ordered them tonight.  I have lost 8 pounds so far, not bad after 4 days....but I feel like maybe I should be losing more.  Maybe I'm wrong here.
Also, (and I'm sure this is TMI) bowel movements are only every couple of days, and WAY less than normal.  Don't know if this is normal either.  I'm assuming maybe it is.  But, since I'm not eating, and I SHOULD be burning fat, shouldn't I be getting rid of the fat that way?  I don't know.
My mood has been good, haven't been extra cranky, which I kind of expected.  I have had a little less energy than my usual self, but thats to be expected I'm sure.  I am 10 days away from surgery.  I'm getting excited, but also wondering....can I do this for the rest of my life?  I know, it won't always be like this.....3 protein shakes a day, jello, popsicles, and bullion.....it does go to a more normal place than this.  Yes, I can do this.  I have to.  I need to get healthy again, for me...for my children....for all the people in my life.  I'm a fighter....always have been.  I will do great!
Looking forward to day 6 to see if I've lost anymore weight. 

Well, I am doing pretty well with the pre-op liquid diet.  However this evening, I have been very nauseated.  I am not sure if that's normal, or perhaps I'm getting sick.  Several of the people at work have called out due to not feeling well this week.  Wouldn't that be my luck, get the flu while on the liquid diet. 
I've noticed my energy level has been pretty good considering I am on my feet for 10 hours a day.  The hunger while I am at work is pretty manageable....it's when I'm home and not as busy that I notice.
Also, my b/f and I went grocery shopping after work tonight, and he of course had to get some dinner.  Well, he decided on Little Caesars Pizza.  So, I got to smell that all the way home.  Come to think of it, I think that's when the nausea really started.
Oh well.....hopefully tomorrow the nausea will have passed.
Wish me luck.

Well, I had my last appointment today.  Won't be seeing my surgeon until the big day.  It was exciting.  Only a few more weeks to go....

I have a little over 3 weeks before I will have my surgery.  I am looking forward to it, but also very apprehensive.  I am concerned about the what ifs....not about the actual surgery, but about the outcome.  What if....it doesn't work?  What if.....I can't stay on the doctors plan?  So very many what ifs I can't even put them all on here. 

Why is it that I can't lose the weight on my own?  How hard have I tried?  Did I try hard enough?  
I know the answer to some....yes, I tried....and I lost some, and then I gained it back plus some.  

Looking forward....what will my life be like?  How will it be when I go out to dinner with people?  I can't hardly eat any food....will that be bothersome?  I'm sure I'll get used to it, like anything.  Now I need to look at the positives.
I will have lost weight, and will be able to go out and do the things that I am too tired, and in pain to do now.  I think of all the things that I avoid because my back is killing me, or my feet.  I am looking forward to being able to just go and do it....IT being whatever I want to do.  

I am also looking forward to not feeling like I am an embarrassment to my children, or the man I am with.  They don't make me feel that way.  I do it all on my own.
You know what they say....you are your own worst enemy.

I am doing small things to get ready for surgery.  I am eating smaller portions, I've ordered different types of protein powder for my pre op and post op diet.  I am taking vitamins, although I still have many I have to get. I have quit drinking soda, mostly drink water with 0 calorie flavoring, or unsweetened ice tea.  That is a huge change.  I used to drink soda non stop.  

I am looking ahead...forward....