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Reality Moment
May 24, 2009
I am really glad that I have made the decision to put a stop to this madness. Hopefully, it won't be long and I'll be on the "Loser's Bench."
Got the Nut Class Sched....
May 24, 2009
I'm still calling the PCP on Tuesday about the insurance thing on that last letter and the 45 day thing. The PCP office (Samantha) told me when I last spoke to her that she would resubmit me in about three months. So I'm thinking that means that if I complete six classes in the next three months she will submit me for reconsideration. This first referral was just for the surg consult. So I should get the okay for that, then Dr. Suh will let me know what I need to complete the next three months before they will okay the WLS. I'm feeling so optimistic today!! I can only pray it goes so smoothly.
I am amazed at the people who tell me I don't look like I need to have WLS. I just tell them I appreciate the sentiment but looks can be deceiving. My husband says it's because I carry so much weight in my breasts. I guess that is the focal point for some people. LOL
My sister has told me that my brother is going to support me through this, too. I really wasn't sure. He didn't seem too warm to the idea when I told him. I'm really glad he changed his mind. I need all the support I can get. Even though they don't live near me, it's good to know that they are in my corner. Of the three of them, I'm the heaviest. My brother was always a bean pole until he hit 35 or so. He's still not over weight. My sister works really hard to keep her weight in check but she's never been this heavy either. I think she will keep her weight in check so that she never gets this heavy. Type I and Type 2 Diabetes runs on our Mom's side of the family, so that is always in the back of our minds. So far it has hit two of our cousins but not us.
I'm still on the fence about telling my folks. I think I may follow my sister's advice on that one. She said they next time they see me after WLS surgery that I just tell them that I've been following closely the advice of my doctor.
I told my sister that she could join OH as a supporter of mine. She said that she will. She's always so supportive.~mo
Blood Pressure
May 22, 2009
This is were I'm going to keep track of my BP pre-op:
Friday, May 22:
7:30 am - took meds
12:30 pm - BP: 134/85 P: 81
7:00 pm - took meds
8:00 pm - BP: 119/77 P:72
Well, I really stayed on top of this.....
Saturday, May 23:
I did take my meds and my BP today but I forgot to update....
Sunday, May 24:
8:30 am - took meds
11:40 am - BP: 108/74 P: 71
seems that my meds are working pretty well.
Monday, May 25:
8:30 am - took meds
1:30 pm - BP: 113/78 P: 64
Thursday, May 28:
8:00 am - too meds
5:18 pm - BP: 108/74 P:75
Call from Nut
May 21, 2009
Got a call today from Rhonda at Hemet Med Group. My first class will be a week from today. She said I can go out there once a month and then to Dr. Suh's group once a month and that will count.
It's been a stressful week on other fronts so this is good news all entangled.
I realized last night that I haven't had a soda in almost a week. HUGE! I am a 3-a-day drinker. It's saving me a few bucks and a few inches of stacking recycling bags.
But on the down-side my DH was gone all weekend and brought home a big bag of candy. I don't know what to think about that. I made him throw it away. He always "seems" to be supportive but then he'll do stuff like bringing me junk food. I don't get it. He has never seemed to me to be the insecure kind but maybe that's what it is. He has mentioned in the past about wives loosing a lot of weight and then leaving their husbands. Goodness!!
I was at Taekwondo with my son this afternoon thinking about how fun it will be to be able to do that as a family. Then I saw myself in the mirror. YIKES!!!
My DH is already working out with the kids. It's pretty neat to see them all three together there. I want to do it too, but my knees hurt just walking from the parking lot. I know I will be there one day! Today I am one day closer than I was!
Six Month Wait starting NOW....
May 20, 2009
I just want to know if this is a trick? If I go through the dietitian and don't lose weight, then will they say I'm hopeless and won't lose with WLS because I can't follow a nut plan? What if I go through and lose 40 pounds, then will they say I don' t need WLS because I can do it on my own with the right plan? I'm afraid because I have lost before and when I gain, I gain so much more back.
STRESS
May 20, 2009
I'm still waiting for the PCP to call me with authorization to see Dr. Suh. On any other authorization I've had from them for other things, it hasn't taken more than 3-4 days. Of course, it's only been 3 working days since they sent authorization to med group. I will be patient.~mo
My Reasons
May 17, 2009
So here's my list.
1. I want to live to see my grandchildren (if I have any).
2. I want to feel better, physically.
3. I want to sit comfortably in a seat on a an airplane, in a stadium or other place where "normal" people sit.
4. I'm tired of having pain in my back, legs, neck and feet.
5. I'm tired of wearing "fat" clothes.
6. I'm tired of feeling self-conscious when I go out to eat with people.
7. I don't want to be out of breath all of the time.
8. I don't think people take me seriously because of my weight.
9. I don't want my kids or husband to be embarrassed because of my weight.
10. I don't want to be afraid to sit on a chair.
11. I don't like having such a hard time finding clothes or bras.
12. I want to feel "spunky" again.
13. I want to be able to sit on the beach and get up without hurting myself.
14. I need one LESS thing to be depressed about.
15. I've tried and tried, over and over to lose weight and been unsuccessful. I need to be successful at this. Right now I feel like I'm climbing up a hill with an airplane attached to my foot.
16. I don't like taking a bunch of meds.
17. It hurts to tie my shoes.
18. I want to be able to take my kids to the pool without feeling like a whale.
19. I want to be able to sit up straight.
20. I want to run.
21. I'm tired of being tired.
22. I'm afraid my health will continue to get worse.
23. I want to be able to walk around and up and down the stairs at NASCAR races without hurting or being out of breath.
24. I want to be able to buy my next Dale, Jr. shirt in a size small (and the cute cut) not the men's XXXL.
25. I want to do TKD with my family.
26. I want to enjoy sex again and not be ashamed of my love rolls.
27. I want to be able to wear a bra that doesn't choke me.
28. I want to be able to buy a bra because it fits and I like it; not because it's the ONLY one in the store that will fit me.
29. I don't want to be clumbsy any more.
30. I want to dump my BP meds.
31. I want to dump my cholosterol meds.
32. I want to ride bikes with my family.
Finally Getting Started
May 13, 2009
I'm pretty excited. I've been wanting to do this for two years but just haven't. I'm looking forward to the journey and where it will lead.