sonliberty

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Time is flying by so fast.  I feel so blessed that I was able to do this procedure and regain my life back.  I am happy to say that the scale keeps putting a big smile on my face.  My current weight is 125lbs and wearing a size 2.  I remember telling my friends when they would ask "why are you doing the surgery?"  I would always respond because this is another chance in life.  I will be able to re-learn just like a child does and get into better habits.  I regained my confidence in myself.  There has been other changes in my life such as 27 years of marriage that ended in divorce which has brought me peace in my life.  I am also happy to say that I will be a Grandma for the first time. 

Yesterday was my 2nd year Anniversary and I don't regret at all having done the gastric bypass.  I remember that when I started this journey, I would say "I would love to at least go down to 150 lbs".  Well I am happy to say that since October 2011, I have stayed at my second goal of 135.  I fluctuate between 2lbs but doctor said that it was normal.  I actually went down to 133lbs but went up to 137lbs due to eating too much this holidays.  But at least I am down to 135lbs.  Every morning, I continue weighing myself.  It keeps me motivated since the surgery is a tool to loose the weight now it's my turn to make sure that I keep it down.

Financially at this time can't do the excess skin removal in my tummy area but it will take place in a couple of years and that I think another 5 lbs. will come off then :).  By the way, I can wear a size 4 in pants which is amazing.

I'm sad and afraid at the same time on how much I'm able to eat again.  I guess I have enlarged by stomach because I'm able to eat bigger portion.  I am an emotional eater and lately I've gotten depress and I'm going back to my friend food to feel better.  I just started on antidepressants last week so I hope that I get out of this rut soon.  On Sunday I ate so much that I gained 2 lbs.

I don't feel great about that.  Yesterday I did much better and lost one of those pounds.  I still have 10 lbs to go and hope that I can loose them by Dec. 30, 2012 which will be my 2 year anniversary.  I have been fluctuating between 135-137 lbs since Oct of last year.  My goal is to reach 125 but I need to get serious on my excersice which I've been lacking.

It feels great to have lost so much weight and to hear comments from friend and family that say that now I'm too skinny.  Who understands people, first you are too fat now too skinny? :)  I'm happy that I'm almost at my main goal.  I have gone down from a size 22 to a size 4/6.

Has anyone been dealing with bladder infections?  I have gotten so many since I had the surgery is no longer funny.  The other thing is that I have started to feel like my sugar level drops so much that I have to eat sugars to get it back on.  I don't know if it a sign of Hypoglacymia or what but don't like that feeling. 

And now the other biggy and kind of funny.  I don't have a butt and I have a lot of saggy skin and it hurts when I sit in one position for a long period of time.  I work in an office so I'm sittiting most of the day, then on Wednesday go to school after, last night I wanted to cry because it felt like it was burning (pinching feeling)  Right now I can't afford plastic surgery.  And I just got new medical insurance, I hope that they can approve that as a medical necessety instead of cosmetic.

Any feedback.  I don't regret going thru this because it is the best thing that I have done in my life.  It feels awesome the my 18 yrs old daughter goes thru my closet to wear some of my clothes now.

I remember clearly the day that I first went in for my first weight in.  At Doctor's scale said 245 lbs but I still went up to 247 before I started to loose the 20 lbs required for surgery.  I just came acrossed a picture of me last May.  I just can't seem to view myself that way. 

I'm scared I don't want to go back to that way.  Can anyone give me some feed back on the following:  I have noticed that I can eat more and it seems that I get hungry more and it only has been less than 8 months.  It feels like I have to eating constantly and it scares me.  At times, I feel like my blood sugar drops and I need to eat something fast.  Has this happened to anyone?

I have to constantly weigh myself everyday, because I feel that it is my motivation not to gain weight but I'm flactuating.  I dropped to 144 then next day was 146 the next 147 and up to 148 then go back down to 146.  I wouldn't be surprised that tomorrow I will be up again.  Honestly, it is getting me drepressed.  I would trully want to go down to 125 but if I go down to 135 I will be content.  Don't get me wrong, I feel much better now.  Last weekend I bought myself a pair of pant size smaller than my daughter.  From wearing a size 22 to 9/10 it feels great.

Does anyone understand all of my babble?

It has started to be a struggle lately.  My hair is falling so much that it is getting scary for me.  I've never seen so much hair come off.  I'm having a big stuggle taking vitamins.  I forget a lot so I know that it is kind of my fault in a way.

I am 11 lbs away from meeting my first goal of 100 and my BMI would finally fall on the normal.  I am currently 157lbs when I first started I was at 246 lbs. 

Has it happened to anyone that when you see a picture of yourselfs you still see your self fat as before.   A lot of friends tell me that I don't need to loose no more weight because they say I look very thin now.  I don't think so.  Please don't think that I am getting to becoming very thin.  I am 5.4 so I know that ideally I can be at 135lbs.  I hope that I can reach that goal and maintain it.

It felt so great on Saturday, when I tried out a size 12 dress.  I was in shock when it fit me.  Then I tried out a size 12-14 large size blouses and they fit awesome.  I was so stunned that I couldn't believe it.

Well my surgery date was 12/30/2010.  The doctor found out that I had a stomach hernia.  She said that she found my problem of heartburn that I've been dealing with for a couple of years.  I'm so glad that she did.  She repaired it.  My medical leave was extendend until 2/2/2011.  I am looking forward to returning to work. 

I have lost a total of 24 lbs since the surgery.  It is so nice to finally be under 200 lbs.  I haven't been at this weight in over 8 years so it feels great.  As of today, I have lost a total of 50 lbs.  My journey started on July 27, 2010 and my weight was 246 and BMI 42

I was getting discourage last week because I didn't have any loss for a whole week.  I hit a platou.  I walk 3 miles a day and I taught for sure now I will loose more weight but no it didn't happened until the last couple of days that I lost 3 lbs.  So I feel better.

I want to put my pictures up but I can seem to make the pictures in a smaller size so I can post them.

Until yesterday, it started to hit me that I have already my surgery date.  I have know already since mid November that it was going to be December 30, 2010 but it was like oh well.  But now I'm in I got to do this and that before surgery day and it feels like I don't have enough time to do everything.  We moved back in March and I put things in apartment but not really did much about making a new look now I want to do all kinds of things so I don't feel like doing those stuff when I am home recouparating.  Knowing me, I will want to do something and I have been warned by friends and family not to do any projects.  So I'm going to try to catch up in reading Good Luck to me on that department. LOL

This past Monday my husband and I attended the pre op class.  My husband has been supported but what I noticed is that it sinked in more and understood  better as to what it will require of me to do.  His goal is loose 20 lbs extra that is carrying around. 

I was impressed on his way of thinking now and his support.  I'm now waiting on insurance approval  I should hear from them by next week on Tuesday if it was approved.  Keeping my fingers crossed.