My TRanSiTion101- RElatiOnsHipS {FrIEnDs} etc. .... ReALly?!

Apr 09, 2012

Hi all, I'm not really new to OH I had an account before but idk what happened...Oh well time for something new. My topic extends from me gaining the understanding and assumption that people who you thought were friends may simply not be able to handle your physical transformation. I'm not here with the purpose of analyzing YOUR relationships but seriously this is MY p.o.v. Before I decided to make this change I really had no understanding of how and why it may affect the people around me. I love me some me :-) my attitude, the way I carry myself, the way I interact and empathize with others in my eyes are amazing. So when I decided to go this route I knew physically I'd undergo changes but as far as my inner self I was always gonna be Gerilyn. But at some point when the scale started changing so did the people I thought were the closest to me. That hurt. I assumed they'd be supportive throughout my whole journey not just the beginning when there wasn't such a dramatic change with my body. As time went on and challenges of life arose they seemed to turn away from me. "Everyone isn't meant to always be there", my mother told me but for some reason I just kept trying to figure out why. I mean I didn't treat them any differently before or after my transition, so what's going on? After an incident at work which has left me out since January, I've been going to therapy. This has helped alot emotionally as well as mentally. I felt as though I had no outs, like no one understood where I was coming from. Of course I got attention from men before but it was no where in comparison to this. Its a big adjustment and sometimes it feels like someone is always watching but now its magnified. I get out of things easier now just because my looks and I catch myself thinking, its that serious and easy, really?? But anywhoo I have to say some of the things I took for granted while being bigger was actually being comfortable around people in my own skin not feeling judged or like so many eyes were on me so I could go about without being noticed in my own world. I didn't hate my size, I accepted,loved, and embraced it. I made the change for health reasons and those reasons alone. Now that I'm smaller I have to learn to embrace a whole new healthier slimmer me. I don't hate it but it is an everyday adjustment. I don't really know how to shop for this body haven't really been shopping like I used to but hey it'll all come to pass. Just wanted to shine some light on some of the ups and downs of my weightloss transition

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Durham, NC
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27.1
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07/19/2011
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Apr 08, 2012
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