***Bl3ssings All Around Us***

Apr 22, 2012

s  just doing some reflections today. So many times I get caught in whats going on right now and really not looking at the whole journey fully. Friday was my grandmother's birthday and Saturday was her birthday party, she's 93. I sat down and was able to talk to her before everyone else got there. She told me she was proud of me for taking authority of my life And because I'm such a humble, smart, and sweet woman I'd face animosity and adversity moreso than others, but not to let it change who I am. Never let the actions and deceit of others dictate your character were her exact words. I love my grandmother. I haven't really been around my family because my work schedule never really allowed me to be. Most of my family didn't even recognize me and asked my mom who I was lol. My mother and father were so proud to gloat and tell them how much I've managed to accomplish within a year. I used to be sooo shy and intimidated and to an extent I still am. This weightloss is forcing me to change that. I have this shell that I'm slowly breaking out of. My desire to excel has somehow affected my whole life and its happening right under my nose. I have no reason to be depressed but sometimes it happens. Sometimes I drift back into myself and my fiance' has made me realize that when I do it it affects everyone who is around me. I never thought of how it affected everyone else. I just thought about me but now I see I have a responsibility to myself as well as others to keep myself in check. Not look at so many negatives so many times. I start school again soon and I worry that since I've been out of a university so long how will I fit in with such a younger crowd. Not that I'm worried as far as competiton, its just I haven't really been social in the past four months