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I'm beginning the 5 Day Pouch Test today. I don't really want to do it, but I have to get off the carbs. I have been eating candy and not so good for me stuff lately. My clothes (size 6) are getting too snug for comfort. I find myself reaching for workout clothes that have some stretch to them. Not good. I have to be able to button, zip, and breathe in my clothes again. I will not buy a larger size. That is how I ballooned up to 28/30's. I will not go that route again.

I can do this. I might be cranky, but I will succeed.

I will see how this works out.

Don't come here as often as I used to. Almost through with my master's degree. Whoo Hoo!!! I'm so ready to be done with school and start a life.  LOL.
I love my RNY. Even after over 2 years my pouch still works like a charm, that is when I pay attention to it and don't intentionally overeat because I like the taste of the food. I was eating string cheese, pita chips, and apple last night for dinner. My tummy said I was full, but my mouth and brain were saying, "But we haven't finished our portion yet." The tummy won. I didn't want to throw up, so I stopped. I don't always listen to the tums and I pay for it by being in misery later.
I work out with a personal trainer 2 days a week. Wish I could do more, but my field practicum gets in the way. I try to work out on the days I don't have the trainer but it is not easy to do. I get up at 4 am. leave home at 5:30am and get home around 6:00pm. Makes for a really long day.
I wear size 6 or 4 jeans and pants, size 8 in dresses, and small or medium tops. I am so blessed to have had my RNY.
Well have to run and study. YUCK.  Spring Break is almost over and the torture begins again on Tuesday.

Finally, Whew!!! I thought it would never happen. I thought I would never break that 150 pound plane. I weighed 149.8 this morning. That is close enough. Now (don't tell my husband, he is on my case cause he thinks I'm too thin) I need to lose down to 145 so with my clothes on I will only weigh 149. I go see Dr. Freeman on August 10th and I want to weigh less than 150 when I see him. Bad thing is, he only sees patients in the afternoon. I always weigh more in the afternoon. If only I could go in the morning and weigh before eating or drinking. Oh well, I have to do that 145. I just won't tell hubby I'm shooting for that. He thinks I'm frail.
Things are going pretty well. I made it through my two classes in June with A's in both classes. I'm almost finished with July, then a 2 week break before Fall semester begins. Fall should be much slower because it lasts 4 months. I'm so ready for these classes to be done. The fast pace is kicking my butt!!!
Hopefully, I have found a workout partner at UofA. We are going to begin working out after class next week.
Got a new puppy. She is a maltese and so darn cute. Like having a little ball of white fluff running around. I didn't need a puppy but my husband surprised me with her.

My dad died on May 6, 2009. He was buried May 8th. It seems so strange to have no parents. I was expecting him to die within 6 months of my mom, but it is still difficult. He had been bedridden for so long I know he is much happier and in a much better place. My nephew died on May 1 and was buried on May 3. Our family has had a difficult 5 months. I'm tired of funerals and funeral homes.
I am getting ready to go to the University of Alabama to pursue my masters degree in Social Work. I graduated with my bachelor's degree on May 1, 2009. I am attending UA in the advanced standing program. I will have my masters next May. I got a scholarship and a stipend. Those will come in handy. I have to write a letter for the scholarship so I guess I need to get busy.
I leave for San Diego this Thursday. I will get to spend time with both my sons. One is in San Diego and the other is in Yuma, Arizona.

 My mom passed away on December 26, 2008. She was my biggest advocate. She was the one in my family that knew the truth about my weightloss. Now she is gone and I miss her so much. I took her to the hospital on the 24th thinking she would be fine after a little rest and some fluids. Now I'm devastated and really miss her. She was the very best mom. I found out from my dad's sitter (he's bedridden) that my sisters-in-laws had rummaged through her purse even before she died. I feel so violated and feel my mother would feel so also. They never came to check on her when she was living, but the moment she was sick and then dead they moved in for the rape. They are married to my 2 older brothers. Of course my brothers were just as guilty. They didn't come to check on my parents when my mom was still alive, and yes they live close. It was left up to me and my younger brother to do everything. The moment my mom died, they started clearing out stuff and taking what they wanted. My mother's clothing was all packed up before she was even buried. They got my dad to give his power of attorney to the 2 of them and have raped and pillaged everything. Of course the oldest professes to not want anything (yeah right). He is also the very best of Christians, but never lifted a finger to help my mom or dad. I don't want my dad's or mom's stuff, but it is just the principle of the whole thing. My mom would have much rather have been helped while she was living than raped when she died.  I know I did all I could do for my mom before she died so I can live with my conscience. I told my brother that is 2 years older than me the same thing and he tells me he was at their house every 2 weeks. I had to call him a liar because I was there every weekend and at least once during the week and I never ran into him and my mother told me she had not seen him in weeks. I am so disappointed in my brothers for their actions and those of their wives.

Well the last year has gone very quickly. I had my check-up with Dr. Freeman yesterday. All my labs were good. The protein was low, but the pre-albumin was up where it should be, the Vitamin-D was in the normal range, Calcium good. I have finally got everything up where it is supposed to be. My triglycerides were down since Sept., LDL was lower, HDL was higher which was a good thing.
Had my bone density study done in November and it was good. So my bones are in good shape.
I can now wear a size 8 pants. Still in a large top. I stil am weighing in the 160's. Will I ever get to the 150's? Dr. Freeman seems to think that I can lose 20 more pounds. I have already exceeded the percentage of weightloss that he says most of his patients achieve. He was very pleased with my progress. I go back to see him in 6 months. I'm glad that he sees his patients every 6 months after the 1st year. Hopefully when I go to see him in June, I will be at 150 or less. I can do it if I buckle down.

I am officially 11 months out from surgery. What changes there have been. I have lost exactly what I weigh now. This morning I weighed 167 pounds. I weighed 334 a little over a year ago. I thought I would be successful, but never this successful. I can truly say, "I am half the woman I used to be." It is so hard to believe that I have lost one whole me as I am now.
I would recommend RNY surgery for anyone that asks. It has not been all sunshine and rainbows. I get the foamies a lot. I just had them Tuesday of this week. I had them from overeating a few Ak-Mak crackers at lunch. My tummy said I'm full, but I did not listen to it. I ate the crackers because I wanted them. I paid for it for several hours after lunch with foaming and throwing up. It was not a pretty sight.
I tried on size 8 Levi's yesterday. They fit!!!!!  I have never worn size 8 jeans in my life. I didn't buy them because I just purchased several pairs of size 10 a month ago. I will get them later or wait to see I'm really in a size 8. Unbelieveable.
If you are reading this and are thinking of surgery. Go for it!!!!!!

Today is 10 months since surgery. I am down 159 pounds. Weight loss has really slowed way down. I'm wondering if I'm ever going to get out of the 170's. I'm beginning to think not. I gained 2 pounds and played with that for a couple of weeks. This morning I was down 4 pounds so I was happy. Hopefully, this stall is over. I can't really complain too much because I have not had that many true stalls.
I need to post last months pictures and today's pictures. My hubby is so nice to take those for me. He has been very supportive throughout this whole process. He doesn't really want me to lose anymore because he doesn't want me to look too thin. He's so sweet to think I actually look thin.
Some days I feel thin and others I feel like I am still over 300 pounds.I know it's all in my head. I am in size 10 jeans now and my size 10 dress pants are getting baggy. I refuse to buy more clothes yet. I think I need to find a tailor.

My prealbumin (actual indicator of protein level) is down another point. I thought I had that problem taken care of, but level has decreased instead of increasing. My vitamin D levels are low also. I now have more pills to take. WooHoo!!!!! I am going to drink at least 2 protein shakes a day to add more protein to my diet. I hate protein shakes but I really can't eat enough food to get the protein. Two ounces of meat at any one time is about all I can hold and I really only eat 3 meals a day and very seldom snack.
I certainly hope my 12 month labs are better.
On a high note, I did get my braces off this last Thursday. I had them for 30 months so now it feels funny without them.

It's been 9 months since I began this journey. I am down 120 pounds since surgery for a total of 154 pounds gone. I just bought size 10 slacks, but still need xl and large tops to go around my boobs. I so would like to be in a medium top but even though they fit on the shoulder they pull on the boobs so it's a no go. Oh well, such is life. I never really thought I would ever be in a size 10 pants again so i'm really happy.
I would like to lose at least another 30 pounds but really I want to drop another 40. That would give me a 10 pound bounce around. If I didn't lose another pound would I still consider myself a success?  YES!!!!!! I am a success even though my BMI is still in the overweight category. I no longer take any medication for high blood pressure and I look good in my clothes and most importantly, I feel good. I am happy with myself and what I have accomplished. I have a wonderful husband that loves me for me. He married me when I was big and has been right here for this journey. I am a success and will not let anyone take this away from me. I was a success before wls but now I'm just better.