SouthernFriedIssues

My story is probably very similar to many others on OH.  I've struggled with my weight for the biggest part of my adult life.  I always felt "fat"...even as a child.  I was more "big boned" than really fat.  Taller at an early age, I weighed more than my friends until junior high (yes, there was  "Junior" high school...in the days before "middle" school.)

In High School in retrospect I wasn't 'fat'...but I didn't inhabit the stick think body my friends did.  Looking from my obesity NOW to how I looked then, and I so wish I could have been happy and seen that I really wasn't fat.

Oh, no...at that age, I didn't have a clue what fat was.

Of course, that changed.  By my mid 20's I was truly fat.  My story is common...trying every diet and miracle diet plan out there.  I wish I had one tenth of the money I've wasted.  When I hit my mid 30's I decided I had to do something.  I began a low carb plan and hired a personal trainer.  By my late 30's (2005) I had made it down to just a hair over 200 lbs.  I haven't been in "onederland" since probably 1989.

I have a wonderfully supportive husband who has loved me for 28 years. He is my rock.  But someone else loving you unconditionally doesn't make loving yourself any easier.

My 45 birthday is fast approaching. 

I want to live the second half of my life healthier (although I don't have a lot of documented medical problems..my emotional outlook has greatly suffered.)....but most of all I want to begin this part of my life comfortable in my own skin.  I want to look in the mirror and not hate what I see.

I have always had a measure of self confidence...and when I lost the weight several years ago I kept an edgy...flattering  personal style (hence my love of high heels)....but, deep down I never really thought I looked 'good.'  And now that my weight is so high, even my trademark confidence is quite lacking.

I want this for me.  I want this so that as I turn this numeric page in my life the next chapters will be lighter, happier and healthier.  I'm willing to work for it...I'm willing to get back in the exercise arena and sweat.  I'm willing to do anything I need to do to work with this tool to 'reset' my body...my mind and my life.

I look forward to the journey and the friends here that I have yet to connect with.

I look forward to the struggle.

I look forward to the work.

I look forward to healing.

But most of all, I look forward to victory against this foe....this fat.

About Me
27.9
BMI
RNY
Surgery
08/31/2011
Surgery Date
May 07, 2011
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