Paying for it now

Mar 31, 2011

It is now officially 7 weeks since my lapband was removed.  I had a follow up and consultation regarding possible scheduling for a sleeve.  My surgeon wants to wait at least 6 months but would prefer 1 year from my last surgery date.  He said that there is an big chance of lots of scar tissue and inflammation from where my lapband was stitched. A much higher chance of leaks because of the continued healing  from lapband removal.  I don't qiuite understand because he was anxious for me to get my sleeve during the removal of my lapband last month.  Anyway, he said the later the better but NOT to gain any more weight.

Yes, I gained weight.  I am now 11 pounds heavier than I was on February 17th, my post lap band removal visit. He warned me that I will gain weight and stupidly I didn't want to believe him.  I will tell you, now that the swelling has gone down my stomach seems like an empty cavern begging to be filled.  I whole heartedly accomodated it these past 7 weeks.  I see it, in my face, the way my clothes fit and the way my body feels. My lower legs swell now, my breathing is more labored with exertion and my fat rolls are hard, like I'm spilling out of my stretched out skin.

So now, the earliest date is August 8th and his office is scheduling for the end of July already.  Chances I will have surgery in August, I believe are slim ... I would've been slim by then if I would've only let myself get the sleeve when my band was removed. 

Tomorrow is April Fool's day, I have written up a battle plan regarding dieting, exercising and goals to meet for the new month. I need to put down in writing a sort of list or contract for me to take it seriously - to keep me on track.  Weigh in, stay on my eating plan - weigh, measure and time food - and exercise at 4am.  I know I can do this because I 've done it many times before, I only hope that when my second chance comes that I won't be stupid enough to pass it up again.

Time for bikini photos and the tape measure again.

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