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Well, this has been one of my worse weeks so far.  I ended up so sick that I had to be put on a zofran pump 24/7.  Its not fun at all.  Its going to take awhile to get used to.  My emotions have been all over the place this week.  One minute I'm happy, the next I'm in tears.  Tonight was the icing on the cake.  I told a close male friend about my pregnancy.  It didn't go how I thought it would.  My now ex-friend freaked out and started calling me a psycho bitch.  I'm a total wreck right now.  I don't know why anyone would be so cruel.  I've deleted his contact info from my computer and cell.  I don't need any bs in my life right now.  And I don't need anyone who is so cruel and negative in my life. 

Well, its been almost two months that I've seen Matt.  I've come to the realization that he wants nothing to do with me or the baby.  I knew something was up when I told him I was pregnant.  He had a bit of a freak out and even asked me if I was sure the baby is his.  My emotions have been all over the place the last few months.  I've had bad morning sickness and dealing with this has been hell.  I really don't care what he thinks anymore.  I'm keeping my baby.  This might be my only chance at having a child of my own.  I don't know how I'm going to do it ,but I'm going to be fine and so is my baby.

Well, I passed out at work yesterday.  I didn't know what the hell was going on.  One minute I'm helping a student, the next thing I remember is an EMT yelling at me to open my eyes.  I was still out of it when I got to the hospital.  After a bunch of test, I found out my problem.  I'm 7 weeks pregnant.  I can't believe it.  I've always been told I would never have children.  I'm so happy and so scared at the same time.

What a year 2010 has been.  I'm a little over a year out from RNY surgery.  I'm down to 238 lbs.  I started out at 420 lbs. I wear a size 16 jeans.   I haven't been this small since high school.  I can't wait to see what 2011 holds for me.  I have a few goals I want to tackle in 2011. 
1.  Lose the last 48 lbs
2. pay off 5 of my bills
3. find a new job
4. start working out more ( 3 or 4 time a week for 45 min)
5. find a way to cut back on expenses and save for plastic surgery

Today I had a wow moment at the mall.  I needed a new pair of jeans.  The sales girl had to keep getting me smaller sizes.  I fit into a size 16.  I can't believe it.  When I decided to have the surgery I was in a tight size 32-34.  I haven't been in a size 16 in forever.  I think the last time I was this small, I was a freshman in high school.  Another wow for me was all the guys checking me out.  I can't help but smile. 

I can't believe its been 8 months already.  My highest weight before surgery was 420 lbs.  Today I'm 257 lbs.  I'm down 163 lbs from my highest weight.  I am so thankful that I was able to get this surgery.  I feel so much better.  My knees don't hurt all the time, my PCOS is all but gone, and I'm having less and less fibro flares.  I love my life.  I can't wait to hit my goal weight.  I'm only 37 pounds away from the doctor's goal and 67 lbs from my goal.

I can't believe it!! I got on the scale this morning and it read 277.  That's 103 lbs down from my high of 380 lbs.  I feel so much better than when I was 380 lbs.  My knees don't hurt as much.  I can't wait to get down to 200 lbs. 

This week has been a bad one.  Monday I started having chest pains at work.  By 12:30pm , the pain was so bad that an ambulance was called.  My blood pressure was 90/40 at its highest.  I chest felt like it was going to explode.  I've call the surgeon and told his nurse what is going on.  I have an appointment with my PCP tomorrow to see what is going on.  I hope this can be taken care of quickly. 

Today I weighed myself for the first time since surgery.  I'm 322 this morning!  I can't believe it.  When I started my 6 month diet I weighed 380.  Now I'm only 22lbs from 300.  

I'm so ready for 9am to get here.  That's the time of my surgery tomorrow.  I'm so sick of this liquid diet.  My head hurts so much and I want food.  I can't wait for this to be over with already.