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I wasnt always over weight. In fact there was a time when I was underweight. I started gaining weight after I got sober, then married, then my youngest son died, got my bad teeth fixed and then I quit smoking. So, in a nutshell over a span of 10 year I gained 140lbs. Its staggering just to write that out. I have like most of us tried about everything, every diet, I even tried OA. But I am a bulk eater( a phrase I heard here and just makes since to me) and even though I tend to eat healther food, I still eat a huge amount of it. Like I dont have an off switch. I need an off switch.
The biggest reason I want to have the lap band is because I want to be able to do the things I love doing without feel like I am dragging a 300lb ass behind me. I love to play tennis, but at this weight its difficult and potentioally dangersous. I love to run, but have a hard time breathing, I long to do yoga, but some of the poses are impossible at this size. I want to be able to fit into stadium seating at my sons school concerts. I want wear the clothes I already own instead of buying a new bigger size every year. I miss sex like it use to be with my husband whom I love more than anything it the world. I miss feeling sexy and desirable. I miss my girl power!!
So, I am having this surgery, I am going to live and live well. I bought my first Harley in December of 2006, I love it, but I dont want to be the fat chick on a bike. So I am commited to this with a whole heart and if God is willing, I am ready!
